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I'm not sure why, exactly. The feverishness seems to have passed. Some body grump seems to have lightened. I'm still not able to get to anything. But I'll take what I can get. I have an appointment coming up, but I don't think there is a chance that I can make it. I will stay up long enough to call in and reschedule. Hopefully this shift of day to night can be turned around in the next week or so. Honestly, though, I do quite well when I get on days, and for longer periods of time. I just go through short shifts, mostly, and then back. A couple of weeks, if memory is serving.
I am just not sleeping right, lately. I don't know what the problem is, exactly. I don't think I am oversleeping, save when I push it. Then again, I have been pushing it a bit lately, but mostly because I can't fall asleep. Then I sleep too hard. My sleep isn't good, either. It's an empty sleep. And it reminds me of when I would sleep in the heat, before I got the ac in. It's not too warm, but it might just be warmer than I am used to sleeping in. Remember, I keep a window open in the winter. That might be enough to throw things off. I'll keep working on things.
I know, in a day or three, I am going to have to start pushing, to get my day back in order. I'm not looking forward to that. If I can just keep my health, otherwise, stable, I can do it. I will do it. It's just tough to do when I feel like I have been the last few days. I still do it, it's just more difficult and takes longer. Ugh... I'm not even sure if I will be able to make it up long enough to call during office hours, to rearrange the appointment. Lord knows I try. Some days are just tough. Later or good night.
Perhaps you were fighting a virus. People all around me have been sick.
ReplyDeleteI don't know what it is, but I can't sleep either. I have not had more then 4 or 5 hours of sleep a night in ages.
Here's to sleep! May it not be so elusive .. :)
You may be right about the virus. The thing is, if that is true, it is such a low level fight that it isn't easy to spot. Further, it means I have been fighting this virus since the Navy. Wouldn't surprise me. As I have suggested, the batch of shots they give people who are going overseas is... horrendous. And, when it goes bad, it goes really bad. It wouldn't surprise me if they have made me semi-permanently ill, or made my auto-immune system fight ghosts of infections or even get a little confused and fight itself, on a semi-permanent basis.
ReplyDeleteOh, I don't blame them. That's just the odds, much like being on a front line. Safety in numbers works for everyone except who gets shot. :p What I do fault them about is covering up the problems. I think they hide the data. And even if they know something like that was the problem, they bury it. They simply need to do tort reform, so they can be honest about these things. But... that would be a political and financial drain, as things have become so corrupted as a status quo. So...
Never mind.