Friday, September 5, 2014

Today?

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Gosh, Wally, I don't know.  I have been under the weather, possibly due to the weather.  Pushing might have helped create the vulnerability.  Not a problem.  When falling, flap your wings.  Might not do anything to save, but... just out of curiosity.  Well, and to die with a snark on your face, if you are going to die?  Maybe even just a smile?  Yeah, I'm trying to lose the snark.  Actually, mostly, that is gone.  I didn't kill it, I simply replaced it with better... much as what I did with hate, replacing it with a form of disrespect and... regret, of a sympathetic nature.  Empathetic, really.  I have worn those shoes, chose others.  Still...  Today?

The hope is to get cleaned up.  Perhaps a further hope to do some cleaning.  And, at the fringes, perhaps a trip to town late at night, when... if... I can.  Just a hamburger and fries.  Hot food.  While rice and quinoa, with butter and or cheese, and or tuna, has been good... it's... causing... problems.  I am not eating enough cheese for that to be the problem, so I think it is the grains.  No wonder vegetarians and vegans use six times as many laxatives as the average American... last I heard.  Bump.  All I'm saying the more.

Sleep is rolling me.  I have no idea, at this point, when I am going to bed or waking.  It is too rough right about the time I go down, and wake, for me to consciously take note.  I may have been awake for an hour, or three, at this point, so I don't have a reference, and can't gauge one.  Same with sleep.  I go in hard and fast, without any clue beyond ~crash~!  I'm working on it from the inside.  If that is more like trying to sew a button on while high diving off a cliff and checking email.  Yeah...  But...  It's where I am and what I have in front of me, and regardless of the outcome, I will put in effort to putting everything in it's place and doing what needs to be done on a priority basis.  Chaos doesn't confront me none, so long as I do what I can with what I have.  I have... been in much worse spots, where everything around me, and even myself, had some high probability of causing immediate death, dismemberment, and worse.  It's... sort of my area.  A broken heart is just one more variable.  Yum!

Well... I best see if Sam is finished with her daily duty and wants back in, so I can feed the girls.  Sassy is breathing down my neck.  She knows, as do I, that it is past dinner time.  I would like to feed them around noon, but only when my schedule is static.  I don't like feeding them too close to when I wake up, it encourages bad behavior.  Yes, so... no... not for a few more hours.

Yeah, we will see.  I am, after all... only flesh and...


Indeed.

Blather, blather, blather.  *deep breath*  Blathers.  :p  Good day.  Later.

2 comments:

  1. I hate being under the weather due to the weather. It happened just very recently .. ugh. So, my sympathies to you.
    Every digestive system must be a bit different. The more whole grain rice and other grains I add, the better mine works .. :)
    Be well, ya here, Doomster?
    I sit here and worry at times.

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  2. I would have thought rice and seed would have been good for the g.i. I'm not sure why not. Brown rice, and quinoa is whole, so... And I add butter, usually. That's usually good as well. Yeah, we probably are highly variable. I'm usually a meat eater. Perhaps my system is simply used to meat, grains confuse it?

    If you ever worry? Pray. God has been pretty good. I don't blame the bad on Him. It's not His doing. He isn't even capable of evil. I really would know. The good, however, I often lay at His feet. So, as I said, if you have some concerns? Just pray. He is here even when I can't realize it, mostly. I sometimes sense Him anyway, in... different ways. And I know afterwards if not.

    Yeah, the weather really can do a number on me. Age, health, all make the affect much more noticeable. I think women, generally, are more susceptible? The cold for sure, hit's ya'll harder. Hmm, while I'm at it as bed time approaches, I'll say a prayer for you. Not payback... Just good practice.

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