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I wasn't exactly sure what the problem was. There is, of course, less light. But that didn't seem to be all of it. Then, yesterday, I was aware enough to see it. I had the thermostat cranked to 76F. I felt cold, did what I could, but could only push it to feeling cool. I could not warm up. I won't push the thermostat more than that, or the girls get sick. Seriously, at 76 I usually almost burn. I do use that, some morning, when I need to get going. Lately, it has been on 76 pretty much all day. And still it isn't quite enough. Odd, though. I can stand outside when it is in the low 30's, in pj's, without issue. Something odd with health going on.
I am keeping up on food, and dishes. Still doing very small bits and pieces of things. I didn't make it to town yesterday. I don't know when I will. Perhaps today. I keep it on the menu, but I am cooked. Pushing through just doesn't seem to work. I am keeping my day schedule. I am staying on meds, unless I missed yesterday. It was a rough one yesterday. More by feel than anything else, as I still cooked, did a small pile of dishes, and tinkered here and there. It is sort of amazing. Usually in this condition I am doing good to sit upright for three to six hours before crashing. Yeah, something has changed so that even downtimes aren't devastating.
Never mind. I'll keep plugging, and trying to push things a bit further along. I don't get to die soon, most likely, so I might as well shut up and get up. Again. Later.
I've been battling low-level infection in my lungs and head. Nastier stuff is afflicting other people I know.
ReplyDeleteTis the season...
I wish this was the flu. Sometimes they can fix that. I think this is spiritual in nature. Nothing I have ever tried has changed it. In my most recent post, I suggest that it is all but gone. I expected another burst of flames tonight, and for several more days or longer. All but gone.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with what you have. I'll add you to my prayers, and foam and son as well. Yeah, I hear lots of illnesses are going around. Thanks, Zero.