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This is going to hurt. I did a bit today. I also saw the direction I am heading, noted the speed.
I have something to face, something within. I'm not sure if it is of my making but it is back because of my doing. I may be gone for a bit. Though, perhaps not. Things have changed. This will be a test of just how much things have changed. I called my mother, just in case. A few potentially prophetic words, and soothing through a proxy. Careless, perhaps cocky, now I must pay.
I have faced this before. Many times. I am not afraid. I just might not be here for a while, again. So many things, perhaps, to go through besides what it may seem. The darkness... but it was where I was born and lived. No stranger, just not as familiar as it once was. So many things there that I don't want to see or sense. Through the blind tunnel is the only way back to the light, so go I must.
A prayer, or prayers, if you would be so kind. Yes, this is going to hurt.
You know I always wish you well.. and, for you, I would wish you a journey into the light.
ReplyDeleteWould you believe, I didn't end up falling? I am absolutely amazed. Oh, it'll be touch and go for a few days. I did go well over the line, or the old line. The hurts aren't all just pushed muscle or psychic... the chest is telling me things. But I think I will make it. Have I mentioned lately, that I am amazed at things? Add this to that list. I should be in some form of tortured hell. Something has changed.
ReplyDeleteHmm.. Take it easy then. Have you had an EKG lately?
ReplyDeleteOdd thing? Even before I was on medicine, back when my heart was at 15% r.e., EKG's showed my heart to be in top condition. They have tried it since, but as usual, it shows no problems with my heart. Go figure. It was only the... I think... electrocardiogram... that showed there was a problem. Haven't had one of those for several years though. Last they checked, I was at 20% refraction ejection. I doubt if they will do that for a minor rough spell.
ReplyDeleteAt least take some aspirin!
ReplyDeleteWay ahead of you. While I have decided that blood thinning isn't in my particular best interest, so don't take it daily anymore, I do believe that if something bad could be happening that aspirin will help. Then again, this is so far from my worst of incidents... I honestly can't believe I am still alive, now that I can see this thing without going into a near comma, and forgetting.
ReplyDeleteNot human, I just have to think.