Things to do, tricks to play.

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The things to do require the tricks to perform.  I need day hours to do some business.  My sleep is off so that I have been waking around 16:00 to 17:00.  That simply will not do.  So, I may try to sleep early, quite a trick if I can do it, and wake much earlier.  An odd thing about my system, body, mind... or some such... is that, while I can stay awake many hours I cannot easily change my waking time.  I mean, if I am waking at around, say, 17:00, if I stay awake for two days, and attempt to sleep at noon for example, my body would still try to rise at 17:00.  Likewise, if I go to sleep at 5:00, or midnight, my body would simply try to sleep until 17:00.  I can move the waking time, but only gradually, usually.  A few hours here, a few there, perhaps a backstep as I fail, and on until my schedule is changed to how I would like it.

I have altered my schedule more quickly before, but usually I cannot function when I do so.  Basically, it drains almost all of my energy, and I simply become as a zombie until my slow-to-recharge batteries recharge.  A risky thing, as being that drained, any flaw or disturbance or extra taxation might cause me to relapse, or worse spiral out of sleep control.  For a while.  Much as the efforts of Sisyphus.  And, yet, oddly... sometimes... those things help.  I can only get the bolder to the top for a very short time, and that isn't always certain.  Not in the flesh I wear.  And yet, I work on it, and better, than any medicant seems to think is possible.  Suspended unbelievably between life and death... at least to their eyes.  But they see with indoctrinated eyes, not with faith.

I do seem to be doing better with their assistance, so long as I do not give them complete control.  I take the tools they offer and use them as my system works best.  It's been a bit of trial and error.  Much as with sleep.  Only, so long as I can maintain the usage, my bolder stays fairly well put.  That particular task is a little more functional for me.

Ah, right.  I need to make an appointment with the heart clinic, to get them to sign off on something, or try.  Not sure how difficult that task will be.  Then I need order medication.  Further, I would like to find about the auto payments, and get that back on track.  And, while I am at it, talk to the utility I have been overpaying so as to clear all balances at once.  But... as I said... I need to be awake, and functional, during daylight hours.  It might be today, or a week from now, but I have to fight my way through.  Bleh.  I'll get there.

Oh, I did begin that book, perhaps the other night.  I only read a chapter/unit at a time for the first two or three.  Then I finished it this evening.  It's rather short, and not a book of books, not this one.  Still, well enough written that I traveled through it easily enough.  And it was entertaining.  Not as good as the first book, but not bad.  I have heard that the other book I suggested, the free one, was on the shelf.  I may hit that one up next.  Then take a couple days off from reading.  Then, of course, choose a next book.  I am reading much faster, I do believe.  Now to break on through and begin reading more, perhaps much more.  Not just science fiction, though more about history and a few other topics.  Still, I will probably always have a bit of room, probably a lot of room, for fiction and science fiction.  I even remember... if not names then the characters.  I track well, from my own reviews, of the story line, links, connections, and even the more abstract thoughts.  The remind me of my earlier thoughts, so far, so it isn't as difficult as all that.  Quarks and quacks and oh my's!

Good night.