Evil?

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An odd question.  From my roots, of course.  If I have existed before, I was more so than this mere time here.  I don't think, for most like me, time changes anything.  I suggest that I was called differently, this time.  I have also suggested that the roots, trunk, branches, and leaves are just as they always have been.  I have suggested parts of where the seed for my being is to be found.  No certainty, with any of it mind you, just what I suspect.  If I have suggested that I know nothing, well... almost nothing.  I only suspect.  Save where it comes to God and Satan.  These are among the first binaries.  There is something a bit further back than Lucifer, but that isn't known of flesh.  Still, I have been rather open with my suspicions.

Further, I have advised that it is not me who is here to teach.  I merely write, more as a journal, of thoughts, visions, dreams, and all.  There are two sources of solid teaching.  Christ, in what He taught, how He lived, and even what He did, or some parts of it.  None can sacrifice themselves for the salvation of the rest, but some will die rather than reject God.  Some will do God's will over their own worldly best interests.  The other source of wisdom is the bible.  More the New Testament, but the Old Testament cannot be ignored.  I don't even claim that what I write is true, in absolutes or not.  Even if I were War, nephilim, or any such thing, I would have little more access than any other.  Less than men who found God so easily in some ways, less than the host who remained on High.  Though, if I have existed for a great time, and then was called, I might have a few insights the others don't.  Still, I have also suggested, that if that were true, that much of any of that would be mostly just for me.  A bit of a guide book, for a task.  One I propose will cost me my life by returning it.  Those of you with proverbial ears to hear and eyes to see know what I write.

Still, some really do wonder if I am evil.  Fair enough.  My methods are not those of a peaceful man.  Or so it might seem from various posts.  And yet I live quite a peaceful life.  Not that this couldn't change.  But as I have also mentioned, Christ did not come to bring peace.  Not here, not now.  That I split folks, and cause them fire inside, is quite a Christian thing to do.  Better to figure it out here, and now, than to face the wrath of God.  And better to part from the sinful than to embrace and tolerate.  The toleration of evil being one of the greater evils.  If you can do nothing about the evil, pray, keep it as a sin in your heart, and hand it in.  Do not tolerate it, not for a moment.  You will burn for that.

Are my ways dark?  Only as dark... only nearly as dark... as God's own words suggest of His ways.  If you believe His Word, then He destroyed cities, nations, commanded that some peoples be destroyed down to their children... babes.  I have suggested no such thing.  Warn the evil, but let them alone so long as they cannot harm you.  If they can, then you have an obligation to attempt to escape that harm.  Self-defense is perfectly reasonable as well.  If you cannot change them, and cannot escape them, and self-defense fails, then it is better to be tortured and murdered rather than to... tolerate.  So, yes, my ways are dark.  To a degree.

As to whether I am of evil, there can be no doubt.  Whether I remain evil?  It doesn't matter that I deny.  Which I do.  It only matters what you believe.  Even that is trivial, for believing is not the sum of much.  It is what you choose to do with your belief.  If you harm, for your own reasons, through state or personal mechanisms, and you are wrong, you will pay.  Better here than there.

Later.