I have to figure it out.

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I need to get back into the fray.  Sitting on the sidelines isn't good enough.  Then again, something seems to be changing, bodily.  I think it is for the good.  I am drinking a lot less fluid, not as thirsty.  Several internal things are changing, if I haven't figured that out at all.  I should start taking blood pressure and sugar readings.  Those might not be part of the change, or might just show the whole thing.  I doubt if anyone could tell, but I seem to be losing weight.  Not by itself, but along with working.  Muscles are growing, fat is fading, if not at a miraculous pace... save for my age and condition.  I didn't think I would gain muscle this quickly given those things.

A dream last night was a bit of a kick.  Conservatives, high and low, got together.  Some up-and-coming alt-right chick (didn't know her but she was easy on the eyes), Vox, one of the Bushes, I think the younger president, and many others.  Just for a rap session, to see if the parts could find some common ground.  Toward the end there were only a few of us left, those mentioned to be precise.  Some sort of argument regarding sidearms broke out.  After the others had chosen, I spoke.  Bush smirked something about my comment being such a wonderful reason to delay his flight home.  Vox and the dame didn't say anything, but pretty much agreed.  I let it go.  He didn't, walked right into it he did... from right to wrong.  He started talking down to me, us on the other side in general, as if we had no real right to speak or be heard.  I suggested that, if he would stop hearing and start listening, acting like a leader not a dictator or elite, people might give a shit what he had to say.  As is, he wasn't really worth giving a listen.  That put the others present clearly back in a proper mood.  I think I saw one of them gulp, then almost laugh.  Ah, good dream.  And, yeah, secret service can't protect ears, I'd tell him, anyone, if they went off track.  *boom*

I don't know today.  I really am still a bit sore for much.  I hope to do a bit of online business, make burritos, and dig in if I can.  It is starting to warm up out there.  The sun has been out the last few days.  Summer may end up bombing the place.  When it starts it doesn't stop until fall, mostly.  It helps being active right up until it shuts it down like a sludgehammer.  I need to be geared and ready before that happens, so as to escape into the mountains from time to time.

I'll try to get to things today.  Ugh.  Later.