Ah, that might be it.

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My sixteen, then eighteen hour days are turning into twenty four hour runs.  Sleep isn't keeping up.  Down half past eight, up at 15:00, feeling like a suit that's been in a cramped suitcase for far too long.  No idea what I am supposed to be doing, everything hurts, and I won't be doing much.   Oh, something about getting out today.  I have a ton of reasons.  Wanted to be out days, ago, a week maybe.  Just hasn't happened.  I can't remember why, quite yet.  It will come to me, along with some guilt and disappointment.  No biggy.  I've learned to ride those waves too.  Dead men aren't supposed to feel, shame or otherwise, but I do.

A shower, I hope, before long.  I can't, quite, wrap my mind around much else.  Oh, just a rough day, and spell.  I do have better, and much better, and usually, to be honest.  I still hope to figure out how to climb the trees, using rope, before long.  And get a little campsite set up out back.  For now I'm in suffering mode.  At least I'm not sleeping all the time.

I... had sensed something big coming, it seems it did arrive.  While gay, their were 49 to 50 murdered, another 50 wounded, all give or take, you know how numbers aren't .gov things.  Not that a lot of people honestly care though.  Having teh queer shoved in the face, forced on children, pushed even to the privacy of bathrooms, has really ended any compassion people have had for these types.  The honest truth is, if Americans don't force certain things back off the screen, someone else will it seems.  Dems have hired muslims to clean house.  Gays are giving Dems too much of a bad name, especially with minorities.  Or, perhaps, islam is proof that whites are losing control of the party.  If is wasn't them, however, it would have been someone else.  Dem, and even the Rep, parties, now, need brownshirts.  To create chaos from which to attempt to draw power, and to hit the lowly for not getting in line for the cool-aid they are trying to shill.

Oh, while I did see something big?  That... isn't it.  That's the start, most likely.  Queers first, but look to a hospital, or school, sporting event... big casualties.  And they will be part of security.  Hell, might even show up within the police forces.  Isn't diversity grand?  If this takes off as expected, you will know your politicians should be tarred and feathered, or outright hung, cut, drawn, and their heads set upon sharp pikes around the White House.  You might even do it.  If so, God bless you merry souls.  It's coming.  But then... you elected it.  If you go that way, I'll be with you in spirit.

Back to... something.  Later.