When I get over dying, another project.

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Yeah.  I don't know what is wrong.  I simply know something is terribly off.  Cool.  I've done this gig a thousand thousand times.  I'm not actually dying.  If I were you, sure.  I'm simply not that lucky, blessed, or graced?  No offense to God.  It's my nature.  Even as I have made my peace with God, and come around to serve at the least, perhaps even joining the family at least for my part, I still am what I am.  Some would choose to suffer many sorts of hell for another moment of breath.  Some won't tolerate the slightest of pain.  I stopped living, or dying, for myself.  His will.  Amen.

Anyway.  Project?  Yes.  Oh, well, maybe not at this level.  I do not believe I could afford to have edible flowers flown in from... hmm... wherever such might be grown.  Nor do I believe I could go hunting them, and should I have that ability I would not trust my skills.  Though, perhaps, if they can be grown, that might be an option in time, just not all that soon.  It's the wrong season.  Hmm... you know... I could check on that actually.  It's not like I am going to get better all that quickly.  Those flowers look more like shoots, though they do have blossoms.  There... are tricks to that.  I do have a grow center, and grow lights.  Bleh.

Ah, but, yes.  A major cooking project, in one sense.  More so should I attempt to grow flowers for the meal.  As well, instead of potatoes I would use cauliflower, but keep the onions.  Cream, as always, and butter, are delights which fit my culinary and health food design.  I have eaten far better... always better when a true master, or mistress, of the arts does the work.  I can do some things as well as any, and yet my mother or that specialty chef, can easily do things I can't.  The wonderful thing about cookery is that it really can be an art, improved upon through time.  Just something to take the bland of burger and simple meats, minus carbs.

I won't custom order the lamb, if one comes available... if that looks not to be the case.  I mean so as to do some butchery myself.  Not yet.  If Alaska doesn't work out, or perhaps if it does though of course not here, I will eventually do some butchery.  The whole animal though?  Only, perhaps, on a lamb or goat sized creature.  As much to learn the fullness of hunting I suspect.  But a whole beef is a bit much, at least solo.  I sure wouldn't want to do it as a first go, either.  Sure, I've done a smaller deer solo before.  But even that was quite a task... as unlearned as I was, and still am.  Hmm...  I'll bet there are classes...  I don't want to take, say, a semester sort of class.  But a day, or three day, event?  Yeah.

It might be several weeks to a month or more off.  I hope I don't forget.  It just looks like a wonderful meal.  I like the chef too.  Used to watch him on some chef contest.  Later.