Sometimes I really see it.

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Just over a bit.  Just out of reach, focus, grasp.  Then the world goes cold, sleep becomes demanding, the need and want for food becomes really high... too high... or disappears.  Vision blurs, the heart races or slows, sensations dim.  I dream more, even while awake.  Pain or numbness become all I know.  I think I am approaching, or even going on over, into something, someplace, new.  I am never quite sure when I am there, approaching, or returning.  Blurry.

I am in that area.  Not sure if I am coming or going, suspended or moving, I just can't tell.  For now there is pain, but I am numb to it.  Actually that is a strange thing, usually it is one or the other.  It is like hearing sound on a snowy foggy day.  While the sound, or echoes, may seem crisp and sharp, they may also be indistinct directionally, and muffled so distance can't be determined.  I know there is pain, I just can't tell what it is.

I think I'm going to crash really hard and rather early.  Eyes are bleary, exhaustion is past my ability to hold it off.  Strange.  Perhaps the weather has slipped, again... or is it just medicine?  Burned out harshly.  I did make dinner, corned beef, cabbage, and new potatoes.  I still have a lot of chicken.  Between the two, I should eat well for a while.  I'd better put it away first.  Then finish the episode.  Then on to bed.  I'm dragging it out to get things done.  So far beyond tired I am having difficulty making sense of things.  Good night?