Can you pull something that way?

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I am baked.  I overloaded from whatever that was last night.  If it was a series of simple daydreams, it sure got to me.  I've been getting hits, off and on.  That was draining me already.  Is it going to snow?  So much coming in.  I don't know what any of it means.  Couldn't be real, could it?  Just coincidences, or... something.  Dreams, just weird ones.  But in such volume.  The ghosts and spirits are still here, if less so.  Or... whatever that is.

I almost wondered if... medicine, or my body, was failing.  Perhaps I was just dying.  I really wonder, at times.  So much of this is lining up though.  It isn't just family.  He is an honored uncle.  I do care for some of his sons.  But there is more.  Most likely the nuke stuff is just fiction.  But fiction has a life of it's own.  The Russia close-passes and aggression, however, is just a literal game.  Someone might get hurt, but guys get hurt playing football.  What is happening in politics?  I think Trump is... doing much of it.  There are personality issues, trust and security issues, but more than not I see that as goofing.  I don't know if with or against the media.  Believe nothing you read and only half of what you see... nothing on television.  Yeah, don't believe here, either.  I could be making it all up.  Actually, just assume that.  Not that I am, but... someone who did make it up would say that.  So... hedge your bets.  At least grains of salt.

This is wearing me quite thin.  I am not sure what to do.  I am hoping to settle in, get some sleep, soon.  But I've been hoping that all night.  Well, it all could just be coincidental health issues.  You know though, I am surprised they haven't killed me, right or wrong, just because.  I do that to people.  Not just him, her, these, or those.  Have you... ever realized what that means?  Who can really make you angry, actually?  Truly?  Now, again, what does that mean?  *wink*  I'll be here all weak, actually for a year or two more, possibly.  Catch me anytime, just don't leave the job half done.  While it won't work out well for you either way, there is worse, and there is better.  Tick, tock, tick...

I did call about the lawn mower.  I don't want a 50", or larger deck.  So the 24 hp motor is out (without a lot of negotiating or haggling, which I will attempt).  The choices left are a 42" deck with an 18 hp engine or a 46" deck with a 22 hp engine.  I really want the more powerful engine, but not with that big a deck.  I just don't need or want quite that much.  Even that is overkill, if it weren't for snow removal.  Oh, and I'll probably, if not right now, get a blade for it, rather than an actual snowblower kit.  Either one will cost quite a bit.  And I am running shy... but can do it and limp through.  Then I need to take it easy on spending for a bit, get everything caught up, and... just... relax.

Well, yeah.  I'll do what I can.  I just need rest, but it isn't happening.  Later, or good night and day.