Not bad, just... off.

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I couldn't sleep until a bit before noon.  I couldn't sleep beyond 18:00~18:30.  Oh, I wanted to stay in bed.  That isn't much sleep for having unintentionally stretched my day to get to bedtime.  Still, only a mild headache, some sinus blockage I am working on, and a very few other very mild aches and pains.  But my mind wants us to be in bed.  I concur.  Oh... that stomach pain?  When I stopped jerking the five gallon pale of water?  Yea, that... that... don't do that.  I wonder how many times I hurt myself without even knowing what I did.  It took, like... three days to figure that out?  It really hurt!  Oh well.  Better.

Yes, the rabbits, girls, and ducks were fed and released... according to their part.  I will begin breeding the rabbits soon.  If, too, I need to get to butchering some of them.  To cut on feed.  I will save some of the small ones, to see if they are better for me, or even taste better.  The large ones were my intended meat animals, so I will definitely keep them.  But some of the small ones will be my first taste test.  Then again, should I keep all of them until I see that my preferred choices can breed and brood right?  There are no options if these fail.  Ugh.

It was warmer today.  Right at thawing, the warmest I saw it though... 32 F... though very possibly warmer, 28 when it was colder this morning and as I checked this evening.  Both of which are still much warmer than the tens and even zeros of late.  Did it drop much below zero F?  It may have, a few times, but not often or very far below... if memory serves.  The thing is, it has been consistently colder.  There haven't been many breaks from below freezing.  And it has stayed fairly consistent, the numbers haven't been jumping or dropping quickly or often.  Actually, that is better than when it gets all fidgety, thawing, freezing, then raining, or snowing, or both.  I... like this winter, so far.

I think I will try aspirin tonight?  Hmm... maybe, maybe not.  I may just dither until tomorrow has come and gone.  If I take the wrong thing, it is worse than useless.  I then have to wait twelve hours before trying a different type, and hoping the aches and pains are the same and will respond to the different pain killer... or dither a few more days away making up my mind.  At least I probably won't accidentally poison myself?  Meh.

With Melania saying goodbye, I am more sure than ever that it is over.  I am not sure if the pushers have been deepstate fakes, spoilers or honeypots of some type, etc.  Remember, anyone online could be anyone.  Even if you knew who started a post, between selling out and being taken over, you really don't know who you are dealing with, what their motives are, etc.  Many of them are out for your soul, your life, your wealth, anything they could get from you.  You don't have friends, not here.  If you don't have them in real life, don't think you will find them here.

I like to think I am real, not a meme.  And, mostly, that is true.  I am not a political construct, on either side... as if there were two sides.  But I can be an accidental mouthpiece.  None are free of that.  But I am not bought, owned, socially, morally, ethically compromised for wealth or fame or access... none of which I have.  And I do my best.  Unlike those who are egging you to believe what they probably know isn't true.

If I hadn't made a deal with God, suicide might seem reasonable.  If I didn't believe in God, that would be better than living in the lie the world has proven to be.  I don't get that luxury, and, at this point, as I believe, couldn't choose it if I wanted.  No, will have to simply live in a world which is stealing even from me, lying, and trying to break me... after having destroyed my nation.

It's just the way it is.  So be it.

I would like to make something for dinner.  Not sure what, or if I can.  So tired, more than anything.  Hmm... I still have soup, if that does get a bit old fast.  Oh, some new veggies, and mushrooms... that might brighten it.  I had ordered lemons, they must not have had any.  A lemon would have brightened the soup?  I think so.  Oh... something.  Good afternoon, day, and luck.  Keep your heads about you, down if you can't, on a swivel otherwise.  Amen.