Saturday, July 3, 2021

Couldn't sleep very long.

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I woke at about midnight, so about four hours after going to bed.  Too hot?  too cold?  Something strangely wrong, still.  Just not feeling well, or right, and worse than usual.  I had hoped to eat, and do some work.  Not really able.  It is a bit after two, and time to probably go on back to bed.

I just don't feel well.  Not terrible, just... really off, and unable to do much.  A slight headache as well, but very slight, if odd.  It is as if my world, my physical, health, world, is imploding.  But without really killing me.  Losing ground, but with no ground to yield.    it is an odd experience.  It has been... six months or more since I have felt this off.

Not sure what I can do.  Can't really fix food, or get out to shop, or much else.  Taking medicine, if not insulin, well.  But without regular eating, insulin is risky to take.  Still, I'll... try to get back to it.  Insulin will be arriving, fresh, so... there is that.  I wasn't exactly out, but getting there.

I am still hoping to wake early enough, while it is still cool, to get some work done.  Chores, while it is cool.  Breaking down boxes, and bringing more to be broken down... getting close to being done with boxes.  Then doing more yard work, and maybe drilling the holes for the eyebolts.  I really am hoping to finish loading the trailer, then getting that unpacked.  If possible.

Hmm, I'll see if there is something to eat.  Take a dose of insulin, and get on to bed.  Good night, or morning, or such.

2 comments:

  1. Perhaps it's time to ask for help? Neighbor or 911.

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  2. No, Jean. At this point, if I go, I go. I am done with medicine, other than taking what I get. It is as like to hurt as help, and I refuse to be hospitalized unless I was sure it would be short term. No... this... is the way it is. They want me dead, just can't force the issue, anyway. They think I should either be working, or dead. It doesn't matter about illness or else. For some reason, they want women to get older, and live. Men? They want us dead, as young as possible I think.

    Then again, I think most of us would rather be dead than disabled. It just hasn't worked out that way for me.

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