The more you learn, the less you know?

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It only seems that way.  Imagine if you were a fish, your mind was the bowl in which you life.  As it gets larger, it might both begin to feel strange, and expanded.  In some ways, nothing has changed.  In other ways, everything has changed.  You have literally changed your mind.  Either, in some sense, it is no longer yours, or you aren't the same fish.  I'm not sure which possibility is the worst.  Though I suspect both are the truth.

Never mind, about that last part.  You don't actually know less, you simply have more capacity to understand some things, including how much more you don't know.  Not everything you learn leads to more questions.  Not all call me, at least, to question in new ways.  But some things do.  I'd say, depending on the topic, a third to two thirds of learned material requires an evaluation of what I already knew, or thought I knew.

The worst times are when I am learning too quickly, by necessity, to slow down and resolve those questions.  That leads to dark places.  I don't like that.  If, too, that is often the sum of life.  Merely surviving, swimming blindly, going down a river, just trying to get air and a way out.  But there really isn't a way out.  Some get used to it, just go with the flow.  Others never stop trying, but succeed no better the those who surrendered.

Again, never mind that.  I keep learning new things in the game.  Sometimes that leads to other questions, sometimes it is an end to itself.  But I definitely do know more than I did before.  Each thing learned usually opens up something, or a group of things.  Well, and beyond knowing, there is application.  Those two, which should be automatically connected, don't always happen right together, or together at all.  Cynicism, the language of the mind.  It has it's uses.  It's negative side of the double edge is that it can prevent function through doubt.

Wow.  That's a lot of thinking for a little learning?  Aye, but so be it.

Another dinner.  It was good to have warm food.  I am freezing.  In spite of it being 75 front and middle of the house.  Very strange.  I'll have a coffee, shortly.  Need something warming.  Freezing!  At 75?  Crazy.  Anyway...  A bit of coffee, and a bit more gaming, as I try to push my way back into day.  Good... morning, day, night, whatever!