Hmm?

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She asked.  And, I warned.  So... here.  But... go away.

I'll give you a short time to enjoy... then remove.  I probably shouldn't, anyway.  There is goes, though.  May time shift it, though... after a moment of more public showing.  Yes, I suppose I could do that.  You know the gig.

Odd, but... when she asked, some vids popped.  Not... all to my liking.  But, there they were.  Not to her liking?  Well, she... knows I can love her like no man can.  There is that.  And... a bit more.  She is eclectic, prefers such.  Even one born of various forms of chaos.

Not all is of the mind.  Or just the body.  Some things are more.

Even of the spirit?  More than it might seem.

Not even death could clear some things.

Ah, but she is on my mind.  Even if only as a muse?

She... did ask.  And... these did appear.  I can only see and dispense.  I can't choose what shows, or the truth.  I don't even have to like it.  Though, it's... not terrible.  Some crosses, as terrible as they are, offer... given time and patience... more than one could imagine.  I can love her in very unique ways.  Do.  Not sure it's right, but it is all I have.

I wonder if she still reads here, or if she merely... sent thoughts my way?  She definitely reached out, touched.  Musically, asked, requested.  Then again, perhaps it wasn't her.  Though I suspect so.  What... was it she said?  Ah...

Right...  Might not have much choice.  It can hurt.  But, at least, I love the right ones.  If... mostly... these days... at a distance.  Meow.