Efficiency.

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Or?  Another name for getting older.  Or ill.

I remember how I did things when I was younger.  I just bulled through.  If things got broken, disturbed, tumbled, or tossed, that would... be fixed later.  Now I tend to try to think through the process, and work in such a way that the process is smoother.  I had, for some time, thought it was wisdom which had brought me to this way.

I am realizing it isn't.  Oh, there is some idea of that.  But, too, overthinking is a good way of delaying.  Though, in there somewhere, is that idea that some things can't really be done, so possibly shouldn't be started.  Getting half way through, then totally running out of energy, can leave a mess where one didn't exist before.  And, how soon that task can be started again, is anybody's guess.  

So, some of that attempt at efficiency is from wisdom, if not always the straightforward type.  If the job it too big, best not to start it.  The older I get, ill as I already am, the smaller the jobs I can't really do.  Even so, I have things I need to get done.  And they aren't big, they are huge.  Cleaning the house, from floors too walls.  The ceilings and most walls are okay, just... some areas.  All floors, and all the stuff, though, has to be managed.

Can I do it?  Do I have a choice?  I can't do it currently.  But, maybe, as things cool off, maybe.  Or back to it.  The upstairs looks amazing.  Mostly.  A little cluttered.  I have more to do.  But it really does look pretty good.  I might be able to go through the last boxes up there, before long.  And all else as well.  Probably bringing most of those down, to be tossed the next time I order a dumpster.  Again, I want, perhaps, two loads ready to go.

I did some good work, until heat took me down, this spring and early summer.  I suspect I'll do well, again, this later summer as it cools, on into maybe early winter.  Deeper winter will take my legs out from under me again.  Though, I have been thinking.  If it gets too cold, or the cold gets to me after a time, I may take a couple of days down south.  Drive somewhere, during the weekday, when it is going to be warm.  South Utah, perhaps, or Arizona, Nevada, or such, when they are having a warmer spell.  Heck, doesn't need to be in the 70s, the 50s will be a break from the -20s to 20s.  Just where it isn't freezing and is sunny.  Drive for a day or two, stay at a little place for a few days, then drive back.  As inexpensively as is reasonable.  Heck, even camping, if it is warm enough.

I am going to have to fight to get through, get up, get down, and maybe get out.  I'm not sure what is possible.  Especially with my efficiency problems.  Only one way to find out.  No, I just had to laugh, earlier, when I saw around the idea of efficiency.  I don't always try to put things in such a way that the truth is more hidden, or parts of it.  But, sometimes, it does happen.  This was one of those times.  Seeing around that corner, to the fullness, while frustrating, is... rather mirthful.  Had to laugh.  Like when catching a child saying they didn't spill the soup, they were just doing art.  *grins*  Sometimes we are our own children.  Later.