Still awake.

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No choice.  My chest was pounding.  I have pushed things.  The accelerator got stuck, just a bit.  Have had to try to relax.  Gaming was even too much, but sleep wasn't possible, so I watched a... pseudo horror.  About a lion which got loose in Amsterdam.

Cheesyish.  But, reminds me of the horror from the '80s?  Or so.  When they were not great, but not horrible.  It was made over there, dubbed.  But, really, that sure beats captions.  I won't do captions, and they didn't do too badly with the dubs, to be honest.  It reminded me of my youth, the creature features, only without the political b.s. they were already stuffing them with back then.  Mostly.  A few very small references to the notion of grobal warbling, but they were even poo-pooed in the show, and rightly.  Such things as those.

I just remembered to reset the electric blanket.  I think I might end up to bed before long.  I like the chill just shoved away, when I go up.  I think it had turned off already.  I thought I would be to bed much earlier.  Just didn't, couldn't, happen.

I also reset the dishes, earlier.  The plan is to clean them, rinse them, dry them, then set them out tomorrow.  Then get a shower.  I won't be able to do much.  Those things, and perhaps cooking a roast?  Maybe.  I am... exhausted in ways which aren't good for me.  Pushed a bit hard.  Though?  I think pushing a bit too hard, from time to time, as able, is healthier than just sitting.  It might eventually take my life, but it will... do me more good, until then.  Even then?  Dying trying is better than living forever, choking on every breath.  Just... saying.

I did take a few painkillers.  Wanted to a few days ago.  Then decided against it.  Only taking it when I had finished.  I... have finished.  The nice thing?  I think the water is warmer than it had been.  At least the lower thermostat was timing out.  It didn't just stop all of a sudden.  It was slowing losing heat, capacity.

Actually, I may take a few aspirin tonight.  Not... for the painkilling properties, mind you.  But for what it can do for the heart.  It's... a bit rough.  All I can tell you.

Still, as mentioned, I am pleased with the effort.  Even if it kills me, I... did good.  I don't mind living, or dying.  As long as I can do a bit, here and there.  Be successful.  Work until it hurts.  Learn, experiment, figure, and come to good conclusions which sort out problems.  I... was born to solve problems.  It is what I do.  Always have.  Not always... appreciated.  That... isn't one of my problems, or something I can sort itself.  Limits.

Later, or most likely goodnight.