Noon thirty and up.

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It's as good as I can do.  Sleep is like a whirlwind, if possibly less mathematically configured.  Not feeling too bad.  I think dinner helped last night.  Well, and several doses of kefir through the day.  Well, and I have been very careful with my foot, while sitting most of yesterday.

Back to storing up kefir.  I need that stuff.  Just that I o.d.'ed a bit on the stuff there for a while.  Easy to fix.  Just back off for a bit and let it. vent, drain, whatever it does.  Toss it something to attack, from time to time.  It'll get back in shape quickly enough.  Then get back on it.  Super stuff, really.

Now to try to get back more fully to keto.  Which will be more carnivore, if possible, the rest of this month.  I'll have to get something out from the freezer though, today, too.  Meat, meat, more meat, and meat.  A beef roast and ground beef.  I'll skip the pork for a good long time, even if it is down to $2.50 a pound, I can't eat it anymore.  Not sure what is up with it, but it is mostly fat now.  Just can't do it.

May have to just figure out how to use burger more often, and look for it when it is $4.00 a pound or less.  Bleh.

No headache, or nausea.  My foot is sensitive, and swollen, in spite of my efforts, but only between 25% and 50% swollen, over normal size.  If, too, lacking fluid buildup.  Never can be sure which is worse.  Though, now that I know how to keep fluid buildup out, That... problem is solved.  Even if the solution presents problems of it's own.  I only seem to be able to improve portions, relieving fluid buildup, but slightly hurting my legs, getting rid of pain, but causing nausea, etc.  Tradeoffs.  Which one to make on any given day?  Meh.

My last lady suggested I should help more around the house.  I suggested I had a full time plus job.  What, she asked?  Figuring out how to be alive without great suffering.  And, on top of it, back then, staying awake.  She had no clue how difficult my life was.  Or did she?

I kept looking out, as I would wake and try to get going... and failing... this morning.  It looked... foggy?  Couldn't wake enough to really make it out.  Finally, when I did, I realized it wasn't foggy.  It has been lightly snowing all day!  Ugh.  That adds up, fast.  Big old fluffy snowflakes, if my eyes are right.  Though intensity, size, and such, can change quickly.  But it is stacking up.

I keep being invited to events.  Worse, I really want to go.  I look at the snow, realize we are having melts from time to time, and freezes.  I don't know what is under there.  Ice?  I am sure of it, but where?  I don't know.  I'm... not interested in extending the nausea, from a fall.  To be honest, I can probably take a fall.  But, what will happen, is my native painkilling systems will kick in.  From being hurt in other places.  No breaks, but pains.  And, that will increase the nausea.

While I don't feel direct nausea, I know it is still back there, and not far.  For that, I am careful with even how I sit my foot, and what I do or don't do.  Another week or two, and I should be good.  I'll try to keep up on showering and upkeep, for when I can get out.  I may even try just a small patch of snow shoveling.  Mostly the walkways, areas.  If it isn't icy under those.  Slow, at first.

Though I have something that has to be done.  Requires very little, rathe safe, walking.  Should be able to cut the walking down to, maybe, ten to fifteen feet.

Invitations, but I can't do them.  Especially in even small crowds.  Too nervous about the crowd, with a hurt foot.  I've learned, when weak, avoid people.  It's like they know.  Even cats know.  Sassy even... became weird, about the foot.  She pounced it, thankfully missing the sore spot.  Is it that they, cat, human, group, sense pain and weakness, and try to push it to get you up, or put you down?  Nature is... cruel.  While humans aren't fully of natured, they do have instincts.  They are all spirit, either.  And nature is simply brutal, at times.  I'll... stay home, ice isn't the only thing I... fear? have a knowledge and certain form of respect regarding?  Don't... take it personal.  It's a natural thing you may not... see.  Not until you have been ill, damaged, alone, in it.  Steer will buckle their own, chickens will peck one of their own to death, humans can be similar, without... a thought.

On to... my day.  Good morning... or early afternoon, probably, by now.  Be well.  Even if you are... partly natural.  I am too.  :p