Made it to mass.

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Wasn't sure I would.  Did.  After, went to a meal with several of the men.  I am having trouble keeping up in mass.  Between hearing difficulty and being out of practice.  One of the gents sent me some of the prayers and such.  If I can get those sorted, I'll go with them.  If not, I'll look for a mass for dummies, or such.

Look, being there, at the edge of my ability to be awake, makes things slightly more difficult.  It is very hard to push at being awake, and try to relearn the ceremony, process.  On the good side, I did notice they have page cues on both sides of the church.  I didn't realize that until nearly the end.  I'll... keep that in mind, too.  It corresponds with readings, reprisals (or such?), and hymns.  Look, learning is a process.

After mass, and dinner, I went on to the store... stores.  Most of my list, I think.  If I did forget the list, without doubt.  The first store had everything, but the second store had that, and a few sales the other store was lacking.  Business, nothing personal.

But, I was driving through a storm.  It was slick out there!  And, the snow, often was coming down in sheets.  I'll guess we got four to six inches.  On the way home, it was, hypnotically, coming nearly horizontally, right at me.  I had difficulty seeing through it, plus the way it was coming down made staying focused, or even awake, a bit of a trick.

Well, all good.  And, yes, I showered before going.

Oh, if my spelling is a bit off, I have turned on auto-spell checking.  I don't trust it.  I realized, if you allow that, it's pretty much a key logger, by choice.  Sure, I don't write true insurrection material, plan to do any bombings, or such.  But it has come the point where being white, or really even looking white, or denying victimhood, or such, will get you in trouble with the evil government and corporate entities, plus all of the bureaucracies.  Yes, so no.

Until I can get my peronal spell checking back in order, and be more awake while writing, you'll just have to guesstimate.  So tired, now.  Burned out in ways you can't imagine.  But... it was a very successful evening.  Some weekends, I'll try to make it to both Saturday and Sunday masses.  Though, through the week, I'd like to try ot hit mass once or twice.

The Eucharist is a treasure.  Attending mass is a blessing, grace.  I have... dearly missed it.  I don't know if God will forgive my... hesitation.  It wasn't regarding Him.  It was men in His church I don't trust.  Some near, some far.  Some high, some low.  Well, and they did close for... a while.  I... lost track in those times.  Being mostly dead makes... paying attention, and being involved, while they abandonded me, tricky.

Still, the world has come back around.  If some things will never be forgotten.  If the church goes south, don't always go with it.  All I'm saying.  Amen.

Well, on to bed.  Good evening and goodnight.

Who... is there?  What are you looking for?  I see... some of what you have reviewed.  Strange, but... okay.

Yes, goodnight.