Feeling better.

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Not the best, better.  Better than earlier, far better than yesterday.  Still pretty rough.  All good.

It is just hitting 60 outside, at 9:39 local time.  Definitely cool.  Fall, what else can I say.  It's looking to be trying to arrive early.  All good.  I'm enjoying the moderate weather.  Even here, near the computer, it is just now 69 F.  What a flirty number.

I'm thinking about food.  Haven't been able to do intermittent fasting, more from lack of focus.  Hopefully there is still room for that to improve.  And to get on to some chores, tasks, work.

An invitation, to a dinner.  I'll do my best to make it.  The locals.  And, I do want to try.  I'll need to shower, hopefully several times, between now and then.  And brush my teeth a few extra times.  I always worry about that, just a bit.  Being an old goat, on my own, I... lose track.  Need a woman around, true enough.  Just to tell me to go fix... whatever.  And, have a chore list.  Well, and have someone to escape from.  A reason to... go fishing.  *grins*  Women are quite the utility tool.  Even if they, and men, don't always realize it.  I do, I do.  And... I enjoy that, mostly.  Save when I need some rest!  Ugh.

Burgers, I think.  When... I can get to food.  Easy enough, but work is difficult.  Just little energy.  And, yes, cooking a few patties, cleaning the grill before and/or after, and just... eating.  It takes energy.  Even if you are receiving energy from food, if your body is not taking in energy well, and is running on reserves if that?  Yes, it's... difficult to even get food in.  Which is half the reason a fast food place was so... devastating.  Easy.  Even sort of tasty.  But so horrible.  Their french fries have silicon in them!  Ugh.  Though I think the silicon is better than the oil they fry it in.  *shrug*

So, I've been doing all I can to just eat at home, just pretty much eat meat.  Can't even be sure of veggies anymore.  What they spray on them, what nutrients are actually in them after running the soil dry for generations?  And "organic" is no better than... well... organic!  Getting rich off fools.  Unless you plant it, grow it, know it, you... aren't getting healthy food.  And they know it.  

Meat is even suspicious.  I'd grow my own, if I could.  But, then, I'd need to butcher it too.  Quite a thing, even for a younger man.  And, a hard man.  I might be a, potentially, brutal individual.  But killing your own animal, butchering it, takes... a unique nature.  Why do you think it is, that ranchers have their own beef processed by another, quite often?  Even if you are gritty, something about killing your own, even rightly, that can be difficult.  Easier if they are hurt, and it is a mercy.  But rare is that case.

I wonder if, in Argentina, getting beef is easier?  Last I heard, they were having a major drought.  Might be troubles.  Still, going there would be much better, initially anyway, than going to the Philippines, or Cambodia.  If I have a place, and am set up well...  Have my money ordered, and collecting enough...  Then, after a time, I would like to visit those nations.  See if they would be better for me.  The heat, humidity, would be... difficult.  Perhaps have a place in each area?  Go in for the rainy season, in Asia.  Take what I get in Argentina, as I can handle cold and warm, and they really aren't hot... if they do have a hotter season.  Closer to Utah, though, than Cambodia or Vietnam?  Something.

Yes, I would like to see Patagonia.  Just as a tourist, not as a climber anymore.  Might take a day climb, somewhere, if I can get in better shape... having to get out for my needs more often.  Perhaps having a gym in my apartment, or near my home.  Who knows.  But, yes, I... need to start... looking into things, doing things.

I need to get my birth certificate, find or get my social security card, then get working on a visa.  Be ready, when the time comes, sooner or later.

May not work out.  Foreign language, foreign ways, long distances, low tech.  While I say these are, to a degree, things I want?  It's quite a test.  Still, if I could get a part time cook, house keeper, and small little quiet place?  Begin working out, swimming?  Find a woman to... womanize with?  Rightly, unless more rightly because the way?  I... think I could do that.  America is... done?  Politically dangerous to believers, of the constitution, bible, actual rights.  Maybe there is a place, somewhere.  Just... maybe.

Well... on to other things.  Food, more gaming, a shower, such.  Be well.