Good and bad.

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The bad?  I can't seem to get enough sleep.  Tired, exhausted, always on the edge of falling back to sleep.  Or, when sleeping, just staying in bed and sleeping more.  Usually, if I feel the need to sleep, I just... go on and sleep.  Fighting it is nearly impossible.  However, I am becoming frustrated with that.  But, it is good too.  Because, while I need to sleep?  I can sleep.  What is horrible is needing or desperately wanting to sleep, but not being able to sleep.  Life becomes... thin, shall I say, when that happens.

As well, another good, is that pain has diminished.  Oh, I still have an ache in this joint, or a fiery flare up in that wound or this.  But, just... little bits of pain.  Which come and go of their own accord, in short order.  Pain has been minor the last day, maybe two.  A gift, after the last week before it, which was sweet, sweet, agony, if you are a masochist.  For good or ill, I'm not.

Still, that exhaustion is absolutely impossible.  Can't get around it, through it.  Dreaming, right here as I type or try to read about the world.  Mostly dreaming about women.  They have infected my mind in the most delicious way.  But for a man who has spent decades dedicating himself to celibacy, it's... difficult.  And, yes, in real life, if a woman could break you of that habit, she would.

Oh, married men would see me bound to a mare too, mind you.  Misery?  Company.  :p  Oh, yes... had to laugh.  Only, slightly different, and women at the gig.  Still... back to it.  Never mind.

Not sure how long I will be awake.  Not sure when I went to bed.  Been sleeping a long time though.  Today and yesterday.  I do wake, for a bit.  But end up back in bed pretty quickly.  I did eat some, but not much.  Just... too tired to really mess with food.  Lots of water going in though.  Deadly thirsty, it seems.

Anyway... up for a bit, until I'm not.  A few painpills, just... to cover any gaps.  It's been a bit, and yea, it could return at any time.  Doing well, would like to keep it good for just a bit longer.  Another day or two of low pain sleep might get me back to the land of the living again.  Later.