Honestly?

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A beautiful day.  Amazingly so.

I stepped out just now, to check the outdoor temperature.  92.  Indoors, down here, it is 76 in the main portion, a little cooler in the kitchen, 81 up here, with the computer, me, and the fan.  No ac running.  Three fans, two down here, front and back, and one upstairs.  And?  Windows open in the back areas.  This house is... different.  If you close it up, then it will get hotter.

I have finally, finally learned how to set things just right, and what to turn on, where.  And... to leave the windows open.  Very counterintuitive.  Will it work all summer?  I don't know.  But if it's working at 92?  I'm... guessing so.

Two smaller portions of fatted coffee and half a ribeye.  I am quite satisfied with that for the day.  Three cans of water, the various medicines, vitamins, and minerals on the side.  All good.

I had hoped to get going on cleaning and sorting the front room, and through, in preparation for the refrigerator delivery.  Which should be a thing next Friday, if all works out.  I just can't quite get to it.  I will, and I think I will do well.  Just... I need to start earlier in the day, and work in short steady shifts.  The goal is to do two to three hours of work, as able, two to three times a day.  

Preferably starting in the early, cool.  And, maybe, calling it off when it hits 80 or so.  Though, possibly, doing work in the cooler portion of the house even then.  I will see.  I was thinking it through, but it got late before I knew it today.  And, well, it's... now a bit warm, and I'm a bit worn by the day.

With a plan, even if I fail to some degrees, there is a far better chance of getting it done.  In time, on time.  It won't take that much.  But, if I get started?  The hope is to do a lot more than just the bare minimum.  Perhaps get this front room back in full, or near full, order.  Maybe really hit the living room, possibly using the shop vac on the floor, to get that in better order.  And do a bit of packing, sorting, and tossing.  Ugh.

I had been considering getting a bigger refrigerator, with water and ice, double drawer, lower freezer... a nice gig.  The price was right.  Problem?  It won't fit.  Not through the front or either back doors, even with the doors removed!  Ugh.  I had so hoped to do that, but am glad we decided to measure before trying that.  The only possible way would be to remove one of the multi-paneled windows, then lifting it through.  But... no.  Just... no.

I had even thought, then, to get a slightly larger fridge... just a little upgrade.  It too will not fit.  *sigh*  It'll save me a bit, but not all that much, at least compared to the slight upgrade one.  I also have a small dorm fridge coming, which... I don't mind anyway.  Good to have a backup.  I'll use that more for kefir, if I continue that... and maybe water?  Anything growing, and water.  It does have a small freezer, so could keep some meat in it?  But why, with a drop in and fridge freezer right in the kitchen.  Maybe make ice in that one?  Maybe.

Still, it has been a beautiful day.  A restful day.  A bit of a prayerful day.  I might... be different, odd.  But don't think that means I don't give God His dues and what I can offer.  Just... how I may.  I'm always praying.  Always connected, linked.  I stray, but not from the link.  Barely alive, don't always have the capacity to focus.  But... there is a link, like a laser beam, sent.  He knows.  And, too, I pray literally, variously, beside.  For you, for me, for enemy, for good, for evil.  Christ leaves the sheep to harvest the lost.  This I know.  Amen.

Oh... I think... mother was watching.  Using mom jokes, without permission, isn't absolutely... sanctioned.  She... doesn't always... approve, beyond that.  She worked herself ragged to... save me.  Worked me a bit ragged too.  But... she... sees.  It might not be as she would wish, but... just maybe... she can have some happiness with my... strange ways?  Or... just... catching fish as I might?  Or some such.  I... saw it as "she" twisted away.  Both with, and at?  *grins*

I'm... all but certain it is her, speaking through this.  Almost sure.