Difficult to eat.

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I was torn as to whether to try to eat the remainder of the steak, or half of it.  I went with half.  And... can't quite finish that.  So... okay.  I had a fatted coffee a few hours ago.  Fine.  I have eaten and taken in enough fat for things to work.

While I am satisfied, I also understand that, until my body gets caught back up, to some extent, my cravings could hit in an instant.  Not so much for carnivore meals, but for else.  The smells?  When driving by fast food places?  Those are as associated with the addiction to their food as the food itself.  Unfortunately, there isn't a means of blocking that.

You... didn't think that odor was natural, did you?  That is as fake as their food.  Hmm?  I wonder... if the food can be proven to be toxic?  And those smells they put out to be fake, or such?  And addictive nature to the toxic food, and the odors, and the falseness of the latter?  I wonder what sort of lawsuits could be filed?  I'd love to see all current fast food models bankrupted.

I wouldn't mind there being fast food.  But both healthier, moderately priced, and a reasonable quantity and quality of nutrition for the dollar built to replace these awful places.  No seed oils, no sugar added to everything, more simple sparkling water and unsweetened other products.  The problem is, there probably isn't a market for that.  So... yes... I would be happy to see most major chains bankrupted, from the corporate to the single store owner or owner-operators.

Now, if after that, anyone wanted to go into that business, they would be much more careful with what they served, how they operated, and such.  They are probably burning actual beef fat, to get the smell out.  They aren't burning what they serve, that's for certain.  Believe as you wish, and keep getting the jab.

Anyway, until I get a bit more balanced with food, I'll need to be careful when going to town.  Hmm... I wonder what I could take for snacks.  The only thing I have, easily portioned and taken with, is fried pork rinds.  But that is a tough sell.  Might have to look for beef jerky, or make some.  What else is there?  I don't trust most things marketed as keto or carnivore.  Or anything with a long chemical ingredient list, things I don't know on the list, or such.

My mother's birthday.  I have been calling.  She hasn't answered.  I'll try a few more times.  I don't know if she is asleep, out possibly with family or friends.  I'll try a few more times today.  That's all I can do.  I sent her perfume, this year.  Not necessary she said.  What IS necessary?  As if that was a point.

Sleepy.  Changing my sleep schedule, even that bit, has me dragging through the day.  Though, now that I am not allowing the game to eat my lunch, just playing a few times a day, I might begin to be able to gain control of my schedule again, and... take back the mornings?  Will see.  Trying.  Getting there slowly.  Or... well... on minor success.  Will see if I can add to it, and gain on it, tonight and tomorrow.

Oh, a few vids I enjoyed.  Thought I'd share.  No music today.

Thinking with my belly.  And my belly approves.  Steak on greens?  More!

Don't be a normie.

When they say "no"?  Screw em'.

Was actually looking for music.  Gave up.  Oh well.