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Well, sort of. The lemon crystals, in simple (if carbonated) water, was very good. I used two packets, but think one would have been fine. Next I'll try the lime. Nice to have, for when I simply can't get to the store, or keep those on hand. Still, prefer fresh. Life doesn't always allow for preferences. I can't wait to try it in butter, for a pan sauce of some sort.
Beginning to replace blankets. I have a two good wool blankets. Ordered another. May order one more. The only synthetics I will keep are from my past. One was made by my mother, the other was from a child I helped raise for a while. I think he was the only child whose diapers I changed. It's not as bad as I thought, mostly. Still, left it to his mom, most of the time. Even I have empathy, sympathy, and do what needs to be done, when it needs to be done. She had to show me, and supervise, but I wanted to know how. So, didn't mind. If, as mentioned, that was usually her task.
I liked her, and the child. But... she... just couldn't... be a wife, mother, woman type. She wanted to be a girl, child. But that didn't work. So... we went our ways.
On to bed. Good night.
Ate alot yesterday morning, didn't have anything before or at work, holding off for now. Knocking on 280's door from the wrong side, should be toying with 260. When I eat, it'll be out of teacups, yes I tend to share too much with the dogs, larger portions means we all eat more, they still have their lean Husky figures... me, not so much.
ReplyDeleteFirst diaper, I practically prepped for surgery, or Rad-Decon. Strange, that, I'd run a hog breeding operation for a bit, The majority of the work was dealing with all their waste. Yet here I was, embarrassing myself over a single little diaper. (hog crap is salty tasting... ask me how I know!) Gosh, the amount of Beer I had to drink to "cleanse the palate"... Who am I kidding, I'd have drunk it anyway.
Re: past loves...
"Think about how many times I have fallen. Spirits are using me, larger voices calling.
What heaven brought you and me cannot be forgotten.
I have been around the world, looking for that woman-girl who knows love can endure.
And you know it will, and you know it will.
So we cheated and we lied and we tested
and we never failed to fail, it was the easiest thing to do.
You will survive being bested."
Crosby, Stills,& Nash "Southern Cross"
I've tried bringing veggies back in, and adding dark chocolate. I think I can do some, very limited veggies. But the chocolate, no matter how dark, just won't work. Nor will certain types of veggies. Corn. But, I have a lot of stored veggies I want to get used up. So... will just take various hits. I have gained some weight, and blood sugar is up. But... it's... short term. I know what is doing it. And, for now, okay.
ReplyDeleteI... walked into my first diaper like a champ. I was shaking in my boots, for a thousand and one reasons. But... didn't show it. The idea of looking at small genitals, poop, and figuring out how to manage this small little body, which could wiggle and squiggle, without hurting it or such? I was a bit surprised how easy it was. And even the real stinkies weren't all that bad. And I have a very sensitive nose. I... actually thought it was good to be... able to serve a new young human being. Boys, girls, all the same, at that stage. It... changes lots of perspectives too. Including... making me grateful to have had a woman do those things for me, at once. Innit?
Yes, failing. The easy way. Has something changed? I don't think so. I think love, family, has always been a tricky, dubious, doubtful thing, only happening with faith hope and charity, and not even always then. Amen?