Oh, right... youall.

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I... had phone calls to make, emails to read, this and that.

A doc called.  I meant to call them anyway.  Something about VA reimbursement lapsed, so they are working on it.  Okay.  I meant to delay our visit anyway.  So... all good.  Back to coffee.  Yeah!  Seriously, I miss the stuff when I take a long break from it.  Tea has been wonderful, but... I like coffee occasionally.  Today's the day, today's the day!

I contacted my... contractor... yesterday.  He was willing to take a bit of a minor risk.  Will be visiting in time to... look over the place, create a game plan.  Whether before, or after, things kick off, I am hoping to begin doing things on my own.  Mostly on my own, but I... need help... starting?  Pro... probably.  Yes.  I think so?  So far.  Hoping... help... helps me begin helping myself.  Ugh.

Received an email from the banker.  She will be arranging for the last of the paperwork, sending that in, and getting back to me when it is time to sign.  Sounds like, basically, it is a done deal.  So... yeah.  Just have to wait.  I did thank her for putting up with my exocentric manners.  Admitting that I am a pain to work with.  But letting her know I am grateful for her efforts.  I can't change who, or what, I am.  But I can let people know that I... know I am a pain and that I appreciate their forbearance.  Doesn't change anything.  But... may change everything?  Ask for forgiveness, receive what is yielded.  It is all I have.

Oh, and received keto bread today.  Been trying that, slowly, over time.  The last one worked, technically, but had so much garbage in it, and tasted like a chemical factory.  This one... tasted like a solid part whole wheat bread.  Plus, three slices, over an hour raised blood sugar by seven (toasted with butter), and over two hours already started dropping (if only by one point... that is good enough).

Is it perfect?  None are.  It is as close as my picky nature could find.  It is Dr. B's Multigrain Bread.  A few caveats.  They don't use preservatives.  So?  So what you don't use, pretty much immediately, you need to freeze.  Pro tip... don't freeze the whole loaf singly.  It... never parts well.  So, I put three or four slices in quart freezer bags, and store it that way.  The other thing?  If you click the link, you'll see it.  Price.  It costs a fortune.

I... just compare how much a foot is worth, losing one.  To how much the bread is, for minor occasional indulgences.  Choices people.  I don't say buy this brand, or that.  Only that I liked this brand, it works for my needs, it doesn't cause diabetic issues, but... it'll cost you.  Choices.  I choose to spend money rather than body parts and organ function.  Mkay?  Check.

Now, on to COFFEE!  With cream.  Oh my goodness.  I thought I was going to have to wait at least another day!  I'll... probably have coffee three days in a row.  Four?  Maybe five.  Then... back to every other, or every third day.  Until... the appointment gets all rearranged.

Be well, later.  May you find... some blessings in your life.  Stumble upon a gem or two, small joy, even if at some cost.  Life isn't free, wasn't supposed to be, but is doable, even for the poor.  Even the really poor.  But... God helps those who help themselves.  Help yourself, heal yourself, then work on others.  Amen.