Tried to sleep longer.

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Got maybe another hour, hour and a half in?  Over my recent efforts.  Was able to stay awake just an hour or so longer.  Those don't always match, especially when my days and nights are circling the toilet.  Who... flushed!  Bah.  At least I wasn't in the shower?

Heating the oven, for another steak.  Best pull some out to thaw.  I seem to be eating well.  Two steaks out.  Then I'll fast a bit.  Steak must have helped?  Blood sugar is down to 140.  Yes, I needed food.  Right food.  I'll... keep at it.  Just tea and water?  No, I'll have corn and peas, with butter, along with the steak tonight.

A shower before long.  Before or after "breakfast" I can't say.  Trash and recycling gathered, out if possible.  Some clearing in the living room?  Breaking down boxes?  Gaming?  Trying to... move forward.  I have eliminated a lot of water, if the rest will go in time.  I got what could easily be gotten.  The rest is a matter of cautious effort.

Remaining on meds, if I miss an evening from time to time.  But the "morning" meds are taken, usually early, but as sometimes late which is why some late meds are missed.  Can't double up on those heart pills.  That... even gets to me, sometimes.  Definitely a bad habit.

I hear people suggest going without medicine would kill them.  I... went without meds the first twenty five years of this illness, and slogged through.  I go without it, from time to time, when I lose track.  I... won't die if they shut off medicine... or any faster than I am.  I'll just move a little slower, sleep longer periods of time, and such.  *rictus grins*  I... don't care.  They can't seem to fix it, or kill me.  Meh.

Sassy was fed first thing.  I need to trim the whiskers, shower, change her litter... if I have fresh?  Ugh.  Things have gone really sideways.  I'll... try to... even stand again.  Just cooking is a bit of a test.  At least I don't feel terrible, I don't hurt, I can think... mostly.  Memory, clarity, physical capacity is there, it's just like... the drive shaft between flesh and mind is not... connecting.  It's spinning.  I wish there was a part I could just replace, as in automobiles.  This is an easy fix, for them, mostly.

Oh, and I told her.  Though, everyone I have know, who knows?  Knows.  Mostly.  Stupid girls.  But... not... a bad thing?  I suspect she's skulking.  She's at least as bad as I am.  What was it?  When I'm good, I'm good.  When I'm bad, I'm better?  She resembles that remark.

Anyway.  On with the rest of the day.  Later.