To bed, but...

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No, I wanted to brush my teeth and take a shower.  So... back down and to it.  Awake now only to allow myself to dry off a bit.  Though it is about that time.  

I have the alarms set.  Though my change those to a bit later.

A bit rough.  The pain has eased, and wasn't terrible to begin with.  It's more, now, just about being so very tired.  On the good side, it really is, again, almost bedtime.  I should be dry enough now.

I swear, though, it really does make me wonder why I haven't died.  Or if I am going to die soon.  Though I have been thinking that same thing, for the exact same reasons, for nearing forty years.

Could I?  I already well should have.  Certainly, at almost any time, I could just fall dead, or go to sleep and not wake up.  I honestly wonder if I didn't, a long time ago.  And this is just purgatory.  It isn't hell.  It certainly isn't heaven.  Though, I must tell you?  If... I am in purgatory?  So are you.  You, reading this.  So... take some caution with your words.

How would you know?  From what I saw, the flames were the final step to getting out, not for the majority of the time.  So, perhaps, if I went back?  I'm further back in the line to the choice... price.  Insanity?  Maybe.  But... do you have an app to check that?  Didn't think so.

On to bed.  Sleep well.  Good night.