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Still awake at 3:36. Rough. I have several problems. I just can't seem to figure a way through, or out, of whatever is wrong. No worries. I'll do my best.
Food is trending toward carnivore. I just can't quite hit it. More meats, fewer else, but the taste of carbs, as with any addiction, is a problem.
Not an addiction? Look at nutritional information. Find anything carbohydrates are singularly needed for in our biology, nutritional needs? There are no uses for carbs. So... if there is no need? Why is it so difficult to stop consuming them? Because the brain gets a positive feedback, just like when you take other drugs.
The more they argue about it, the more the naysayers prove the point. Remember having discussions about tobacco, or alcohol, as a user (especially as a one-time user who quit), though even as a concerned friend, parent, child, or else? Now... understand that is what it feels like every time I have this discussion with people about carbs. I... have learned not to talk. If someone asks? Okay. But keep the conversation very brief, very short... don't debate the point. Disagree, of course, but don't follow through.
So many people want what is good for them, but will hate anyone who leads them to a potential better life. It is easy, but not simple. And, it is a bear to continue. I've been on it, mostly, for a year. And it is still difficult. A year and a quarter even. Ugh. It is an addiction I will never quite be free of. Hopefully, if food and other industries can be checked, children will be raised on good food, and real food. Kicking sugar, caffeine (yes, I know, but), and many other things out. On top of the chemicals, mostly poison. Would it make a difference? Absolutely.
Well, on to bed. Good night. Sleep and dream well, or have a great morning. Life might hurt, but... okay. Carry your cross, with a smile if at all possible. It works out, in the end, or more in time.
Funny for me , caffeine addict, I was, thick black and strong. By the Quart (my Navy coffeemug was a 32oz AM-PM travel mug) So iconic that "my guys" asked me to leave it onboard the ship, so they could hide it in the reactor compartment. Now over the past few years, slowly, not intentional, weaned myself off caffeine, Cola and Coffee are a rare treat as I don't "require" it. My major sugar cravings manifest as PB&J or yogurt & oatmeal. (the "J" could also be honey) AAaaannnd I still miss my beer and wine.
ReplyDeleteYeah. At least I don't think caffeine is nearly as bad. Because I have kicked it every time I have tried? Sounds bad, it just wasn't something I couldn't go without, on the spur of the moment, so I'm not worried about it. A mild satisfaction, and if I forget for a week or three, due to low cash or not getting out shopping, that first dose is an extremely good laxative. As a fact, I do that from time to time, just to try for that effect. A freeby. Doesn't always happening though. Meh.
ReplyDeleteNow, that's funny, I drink my coffee (and tea) in actual quart jars. Usually just one of one or the other per day. But... I have done three of various types on a day, if mostly for warmth. Looks like your coffee mug lives on in infamy? Always... good to... be remembered... even if you lose a little piece of yourself. Hopefully it remains. Sailors are the... strangest lot of folk I have ever met. In... every way imaginable. Ships, and subs, of dreams?
Beer. I'll miss beer until I die. But that was the easiest one to walk from, if too the last. I was having a twelve pack to case (or as much of it as I could drink the last time) once every six months. Then Bud decided to help me quit. Out and out, anti-human propaganda won't win favors, even with freaks. They gambled. They lost. Now they will rest... at the store, brewery, or dumped in the Mississippi most likely. :)
As for pb&j? Have you looked at keto versions of jelly? It won't be perfect. I don't get the same kick. I still overeat. But, the spike is vastly muted, and it really isn't bad. Strawberry and orange marmalade, from Choczero? And, then, even the peanut butter I use is a keto-ish. No sugar added, only using palm oil and salt. Not perfect, but... slightly better. It's just that my diabetes is so bad, even keto doesn't really cut it. Just some thoughts. I buy the peanut butter by the pack, easier that way, and always on hand. My... good within the bad?
Had a quart mason jar with a handle on it, my fave, would hold a full bottle of wine... wonder where it is?
ReplyDeleteGrandpa drank Mickey's big mouths, I upped it to 40's. They should have sold 6-packs of 40's, I'd have done it. Miller light was my goto Draft/ case beer. Guinness made me smile. I've honestly had more "fun" sampling different Beers/ ales, just for the different flavors, than wine. Mickey's and Miller aside, I've sampled and overindulged on many fine "brewed" beverages.
Sigh, would be nice to "taste" it again, But I don't want just a taste... I Want More! and that is my problem...
My CVN went through refueling several years ago, don't think anything "hidden" would survive that level of scrutiny. Was a nice gesture. We had a "menagerie" of sorts, "hidden" items that could only be seen if you stood in the right spot, throughout the plant. A plastic crab between the DI tanks, carved wooden animals from Kenya, all over, Never found the rhino on CG lower level... and 2 centerfolds plastered to overhead beams on RAW (above the SSAC) and Charging station LL above the RPSW strainers.
ReplyDeleteSome officers were cool with it on a zone inspection report... "Crab spotted" , most were never found, hell I didn't find the rhino. Strange fun tradition, wonder what remains?
Mickey's! Now that is a name I hadn't heard in forever. Drank it in the Navy, by the case, with the crew I liked. Couldn't find it when I got out, and didn't initially make spit. It got lost, though I did eventually find some. Just... wasn't the same.
ReplyDeletesix packs of 40's. Aye. And, definitely on the beer tasting world. So much more vast, and nuanced, than wines. There are... really, like... ten wines? With mild variations? Whereas beers... from ales to double brews to pilsners, and the variations are massive. Even alcohol contents can very right up to beers being spirits, really. Surprised my liver didn't simply quit. Sounds like yours was thinking about retiring.
My first, and only, run? I was so busy. I did chow duty (didn't have to, po3 from nuke), but wanted to... pitch in? For half. Then to regular duty station. But, qualified in that run. Brutal. I didn't... catch some of the stuff going on, so... busy, tired, always. Never caught my breath. Then... the shingles, and that getting into my organs? Shouldn't have made it off the boat.
As to what remains? Even if they scrubbed it clean, memories. And, when those who carry them are gone? These pages, words. You have been archived, my friend.
I have logs of "bitch-books" that may need the light of day... thought of presenting them to whoever cared... I don't know if anyone would care ... I have 2 books of "creative writing" from cvn-70 ,2-plant. Thought to maybe start a blog to "publish" some of our underway writings... Who would care?
ReplyDeleteYou might be sorely surprised. Some of us other, formers. Some of the young ones in the fleet. Some thinking about it. History buffs, military buffs... It would more be about getting the word out.
ReplyDeleteThough, I will advise, if you do that, do not have connections back to here. Visit, at your leisure. Etc. Just don't link such a site to this site, directly. Just... saving your some... trouble. I am well hated, by some good guys who just didn't understand (or care) and some bad actors. Just... the truth.
But, yeah. Get it going. Get some posts up. I'd be happy to visit from time to time.
Oh, I meant to say? You look, by the boss pic you put up, like the one guy on my sub that was taller then me. Funny, that. Back then, I was only 6'3 3/4". He was 6'5". I am now taller than him. I held that height from when I was 12 until... past 27. Then started growing in there sometime, again, a bit. Huh.
Anyway, you looked like him. I think he was a nuke, too. Funny, that.
I understand, people don't understand. (Almost) Anyone out there couldn't hurt my feelings with an axe. Yes, I hear you, I'm still working out the logistics.
ReplyDeleteThere was a similar site setup for CVN-65 that had content back to Vietnam... stories, pictures, submissions... memories, I've lost contact with that site, it or I went inactive.
It could mean alot to those who's pseudonyms I'd be "exposing" (the pseudonyms not real names) and those who knew us. Bunch of it would be NSFW or even leaning to NOFORN/ classified.
These were the green clothbound logbooks, prevalent in the Nav at the time. 2 had survived the Chiefs captures of the books over the years, and "My Guys" said they wanted me to "save them" when I stepped ashore for the last time. Books called the X-69, were full of stories, slams, bitches, complaints... You know, like the internet, on paper, and you know them in real life, so not like the internet.
It used to be that, after 25 years, much information (unless still relevant or exempted) is declassified.
ReplyDeleteYes, your are almost talking more like a bbs, or some such. A public, or somewhat public, billboard. Curated, with submissions considered to some degree but generally available. That would be cool.
I remember those logs. Watches, onboard or even when landside. Nothing to report (that wouldn't get me in trouble). Young lady heading back home after visit. 20:00. :p