Struggled, again.

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To wake up took a lot out of me.  I don't know why.  I slept well, very well.  Warm, all night, without being too hot.  I do believe that little bit of space the boxy rectangular 4" base offers helps me sleep more warmly.  Just enough up off the ground, with an air barrier, so that the floor doesn't leech my warmth.  Which... allows me to sleep a bit more... softly?  So I don't sleep so cold, that I sleep extra hard, and hurt for it?  Or... something like that.  Just a first run.  I'll see in time.  Might also help with cooling, in the summer.

Fighting to wake, though.  It seemed like I was fighting all day and night.  The last two sleep cycles have been like that.  Rough.  Now, it doesn't hurt, or leave me completely exhausted.  It was just a rough experience to go through.  Once I woke, today and yesterday, I was fine.  There is that, at least.

Part of the push was I thought it was late Sunday, or maybe Monday already?  I have things I need to tend Monday.  Plus, to get trash and recycling out.  Ugh.  Need to get that out.  And... have other things needing sorted.  So, yes, was pushing extra hard, in order that I not miss those things.  So... I'll... really try to get trash and recycling out, tonight.  Just to the bins.  Getting the bins to the curb usually isn't an issue.  Getting the bags to them is the problem.  So... yes.

Fasting blood sugar is 128, weekly, biweekly, and monthly averages are 123, 131, and 140.  There is a three month average, but by numbers, it doesn't look like I was testing that long.  So one week to one month are as good as it gets, until I test for about another two months.  The meter indicates how many n there were, and the one month and three month have nearly the same number of tests... so the three month is... not good yet.  Still, it is obvious that the numbers are coming back down.

As I have said, I got the average, three month average, down to 120 and falling, before I started sampling keto.  After three to four months of keto, it was back up to all averages around 150 (the three month, of course, being off and about 156~158... so very similar to the one month, with only slightly more readings).  So... back to improving.  Mostly carnivore, with pb&j somethings, once a week, or a veggie once a week.  Mostly meat, and whole cream.  Good, as good as I can do where I am, as I am.

It is frustrating.  But I really can't do keto.  I need carnivore.  The numbers are very plain.  And, I was rather strictly keto.  Doesn't matter.  Hmm, I think the steak should be thawed.  I'd like to have some tonight.  But, first, a fatted coffee and some meat sticks.  Nothing fancy, but at this point even steak isn't fancy.  It's... just food... food that feeds my body as it seems to need and want.

I was telling my friend, recently... when I go to the stores?  I can smell chocolate!  Oh!  And other sweet things.  Smell them,  Cakes, cookies, even milk.  I smell fast food joints, fries, even soda.  Yes... I'm a... sensitive lad.  Drives me a quarter insane.  The only thing I smell that does worse are the two legged mares, in season.  Yes... I can smell that too.  Meh.  It does make me wonder... is that... normal?  For humans?  Ugh.

Anyway... on to coffee and some passing breakfast.  Or?  Maybe chia too?  Sure, chia, walnuts, cream, tea, whole cream, and beef sticks.  An odd breakfast, to some.  But... it works fairly well as I see things.  Then a shower.  Then dishes in to soak and... who knows.  Later.