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All I truly got to, tonight, was boiling eggs, and peeling those after they cooled. I did a poor job peeling. But... did what I could do. After, I ate four or five of them. Very good, if quite broken. I'll gladly take that. I might have a few more?
Well, if I was to stay up a while longer I would. I think I am going to crash, harshly. Soon. Now. I just can't stay awake.
Well, I did have chia 'cereal', with walnuts and tea. And a fatted coffee with a few beef sticks. As well as the eggs. Not a lot to eat, but it was something. I wanted to cook the steak, one of them. I just couldn't be up and on my feet that long. Rough.
I feel pretty exhausted, rough, tired, sore in odd ways. Almost ill. More like... ill like? You know that dreamy feel to a fever, or flu symptoms? Well, yes, it's that. But without the true achiness, stomach difficulties, bone and joint pains, or such. Just that... dreamy, floating, transcendental feel to life. It's... sort of... interesting. Slightly sexy, somehow.
Whatever. I'm going to crash. Will probably dream of women. Annoying, but... pleasantly so. Good night and good morning.
Was a rough night/ morning. 15,000 volt transformer safety device blew to ground. Most of the site down, stabilize systems, power equip up. Both day and swingshift were still there at 2300, long day for them.
ReplyDeleteAs if that wasn't fun enough, My leg was bad enough I brought bandages, and a "cane". Didn't use either. Limping... praying I don't hit it on anything, swollen tight, couldn't keep it elevated, too much going on. I need to get the swelling down.
Working on a couple spoonfulls of homemade Mac-n-cheese... on a little teacup saucer. Nope, couple small bites... sweats and nausea??? Guess I'm just not that hungry. we'll see what later.
Ah. Swelling! My favorite! Bleh. Compression hose, thigh highs or full hose. Yes. Oh, and if your legs and feet are prone to cold? Wool socks, above the knees, with synthetic liners (so the sweat doesn't just sit in there, make toe jam). Currently, I'm with the latter. In the summer, U use the thigh highs or hose, which are actually cooler. That... fluid will kill you, and lead to feet hurts... all the way up to my calves. I've been fighting it, in various ways, for years. Carnivore helps, usually. But even a little cheat day can... get me back to being swollen for a week... or month. Gah!
ReplyDeleteYes, trying to eat carbs, when your body is more into carnivore, is harsh. At some point I just couldn't. On top, you body is probably pulling poison out with fat as it burns off. So you are getting double duty. What you are eating, carbs, plus what your body is burning off in the fat... carb biproducts... that's a lot of poison. At some point, though, I couldn't eat much of anything. Even now, sometimes, I just can't. Eggs are great, for that. But... that only helps for a while, until they too become intolerable. I wish I could help, but the truth is, it looks like you are where I was six months ago. If... you keep more to carnivore? You... have three to six months before you get more normalized.
I could be totally wrong. But... that sounds exactly like what I went through. At some point I prayed standard American diet would take me back, out of my misery, but it only made it much worse. Ugh. Even cheating into simple keto can make me ill, even to this day. But I want it so much! Sometimes. Bleh.
Good luck. I'll send a prayer and good wishes for your health, feet/foot, work, and life. Be well. I tell you this, too, as a friend. Embrace the suck, and thank God for it... in some odd way. It is a gift, just... a harsh one. Amen.
Luckily no feet or sock "muffin top", maybe a bit where the bruise moved down my leg... think I did some deep calf damage, the way I'm limping. The bruise site is strangely shaped like a little "A"cup breast with an erect nipple. Too painful too touch, though now I can "probe the perimeter lightly", I have figured out I must have basically hit 3/4 of the way up the inside of my left shinbone, that ballooned the whole lower leg on Sat and Sun mornings. Swelling down, as Ive been off it since I got home Sun. Rotating between recliner and bed, though sitting here now I can't "really" elevate it, will goto where I can raise that leg. Then maybe limp through laundry and dishes, just to work it
ReplyDeleteI would not be surprised if I put a hairline in my shin, it'd be in good company.
Oh, on top of it all, her salmon must have turned before I et it all...liquid guts, (knew the "oil" was turning) figured floating it in fresh lemon juice would help. Honestly, can I trust anything she fixes?
Bad food and a snickered shin? Well, you can be mad at her. But I've done it to myself. Not sure if you have. Though, you know? You can ask her about it, tell her about it. Expect her to be defensive. But ask if it was intentional. She'll say it wasn't, give some gruff, leave it there. It may cause her to pay more attention, for a while. Maybe the fish was on sale, the oil? She was cooking while tired? Distracted? Or so focused on salmon she wasn't thinking.
ReplyDeleteRemind her, gruff a bit, and leave it. See if that doesn't help. Because, otherwise, no... you won't be able to trust. But... if you do nothing, nothing will change. Even if they DO want to kill us, they hate getting caught. *rictus grins*