Awake.

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Several hours awake, now.  I meant to check blood sugar, but eggs, tea, and meat sticks... and being too sleepy still to concentrate... lead me to eating before checking.  Medicine is in, down.  Tea has been finished.  Some water down, though more shortly.

Something different?  I had been drinking carbonated water, lots of it.  The reverse osmosis system had been down.  My friend helped get that working.  Then, I have been unable to get out to buy carbonated water.  And, with it so cold of late, I know better than to order it through amazon.  It freezes on the way, and half of the cans pop.  So... no.

As such, I have been drinking reverse osmosis water only.  I used to split, then when totally carbonated, no am to just r.o. water.  Whatever.  I do think I drink less?  Still, I'd like to get some carbonated water back into the system.  I like that.  But, too, I like the r.o. water.  Half and half?  It limits how much I drink.  But, the carbonated water add make sure I drink... enough, more.

My life is complicated.  Figuring out how to breath, drink, pee correctly, and what to eat, how much, and when... for me... is a very complicated group of behaviors.  Yes, I have to think about these things, act on them, figure out how to do them.  Life was so much easier when... it wasn't so complicated, difficult.  And, yet, I have started figuring out life.  One or two things at a time.

I have to... wait until there is a problem.  Then begin figuring out the exact nature of the problem... say legs on down to feet being cold.  Okay.  Are there any other problems?  Cramping?  Yes, sometimes.  Holding fluid until they swell like watermelons, ready to burst?  Aye, there is that.  Extreme pain, on the big knuckle of one of my feet?  Okay, but why?  Water retention?  Or... something else.

All of that, and more, have lead me to a... series of curatives.  Various foot and leg wear, making sure to take the water pills, and other medicine.  Taking enough, and what would usually be considered an overdose of minerals, and vitamins.  Keeping the house warmer.  Making sure I am sleeping warmly enough, but not too hot.  And, yes... all of those things, and what I eat and drink, how much... all has to be managed, or I suffer terribly.

Now, that is one thing... legs to feet.  Now add in breathing... which can be difficult.  Fluid retention everywhere, torso to hands.  Nausea from eating too much, too little, the wrong stuff... or even sometimes the right stuff.  Bloody noses.  Headaches, body aches, generally malaise, a sense of illness, exhaustion, hunger without being able to eat, cook, clean in order to be able to cook.  So many things.

Still, I do my best.  I have improved.  Generally.  But this fall and winter has been very difficult.  In part, I suspect, because I tried to bring back in some keto foods.  I just can't do carbs, or quite yet, almost at all.  So... while getting back to the carnivore diet, it's still just a bit rough.  Though, too, being dark, cold, damp, and else, makes life difficult.  Working on things.

Anyway... I'm doing what I can.  Will see how things work out.  For now... just... making do.  The eggs helped.  They are soft, easy to digest.  I couldn't peel them worth a hoot, but... whatever.  I half another couple dozen, I may boil those too.  Oh... I hit the timing just about exactly right.  I like the yolks to be mostly hard boiled.  Not fully.  No liquid in there.  Just... not hard solid centers.  You'll know it if you see it.  Soft boiled?  Or such.  But so easy on the stomach.  And filling, nutritious.

On to the rest of my night, day, whatever.  A bit of gaming?  Maybe.  Later.