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If, as soon as you realize and square that? You realize it is just today, again. And in worst case general scenarios, it's a Mon day. Which, you probably know by now. I am just discerning this. Thankfully or not, every myday is pretty much Anyday. It's just dealing with Mon day gloompusses that can get me. I much prefer Hump day attitudes, even if I am sure most of you aren't going to. Back to the mines, slaves! But at least you post perty pics and shut it about Monday. :p No hate, I'm actually jealous. Mostly.
Blood sugar was 234. BP is 132/102 p. 82. I finished the last of the soda last night. Yeah. Waste not. It'll come back around. About to grill a steak and do more eggs. Did I say how delicious home raised eggs are? They are. Rich, orange, yolks, perfect whites, a flavor not offered in the organic section of the stores. All eggs there were off... I was starting to wonder if I had become allergic. Nope. And duck eggs? Bigger, with a lot more yolk. If you a love yolk, this is your golden egg. Life is good.
As to steaks? From now on, I will be getting about thirty half inchers and fifteen inchers. When steak becomes regular, eating roast size isn't quite the thing. Or I'll see about other steaks. Variety. But, yeah, steaks are the main food, just... smaller bites. I still have enough for a bit. I'd also like to price lamb again. That both helps the 4-H'ers, but provides a rich bounty. That won't be until late August or later. How to arrange meat purchases so they don't trip up finances...
I thought, from senses and sounds, that gloom had returned, and rain. It made getting out of bed difficult. Imagine my surprise and joy to find it otherwise. The cave is just rigged well. And the roof sounds were from metal expansion. It is 85 F out there. Coming out from a house in the high 60's it felt good.
I'll hit dishes, do some cleaning, maybe strip the bedding, do a lot. Oh, and water the side yard veggies as soon as the sun is off them and it has time to cool. I may begin doing that in short bursts, every other day, once set up. Until I see more good growth again, then go to biweekly, but longer waterings? I have no idea what I am doing. I wonder if I have a hoe? I think I have a short tined type thing, with and adz adjacent. Tinny thing, but works for as insubstantial as it seems. I will try it. Oh, could spray weeds and bugs sometime soon. The weed spray is working, slowly. Rain and cool have thwarted that a bit. Ideas, anyway. I best check on that grill.
Have a great Monday. *grins* Later.
Monday, June 4, 2018
Not much and no more.
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Trash and recycling were collected, plus cat litter care. Only trash pickup today. Still, it is out. I have been having difficulty getting things done. A product of medication and cooler weather. If it heats as they suggest it might help. Into the 90's, through much of the week, last I heard. If I can keep that a bit in check, through window opening and closing, plus judicious use of fans and ac units, yet let some heat in, and go out in it, life might improve. It's having two gorillas, or three, in tow. I am used to having one, always.
Lost track of medicine for two days. Back on it fully today. A side effect of the medicine. I'm trying to get back to it, full time, to see what else could be done. Not sure I can sustain higher doses of the main pill, others seem to cause worse crashes. I found a script of losartan, and am already taking that. So... I don't know. I also haven't been doing bp this weekend. I'll begin tomorrow. Just zoned it out. Concentration, focus, wasn't available, before the whisky pile-driver.
Grass was watered. It's looking better. I need to water the side yard, with the growy stuff, afterthe sun moves well over the house. I may yet get a shower and shave in spite of the title of this post. Of course, then I'd have to stay up for a bit longer. Not sure I can sleep yet. If I'm not sure I can get going either. Stuck? We'll see.
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Trash and recycling were collected, plus cat litter care. Only trash pickup today. Still, it is out. I have been having difficulty getting things done. A product of medication and cooler weather. If it heats as they suggest it might help. Into the 90's, through much of the week, last I heard. If I can keep that a bit in check, through window opening and closing, plus judicious use of fans and ac units, yet let some heat in, and go out in it, life might improve. It's having two gorillas, or three, in tow. I am used to having one, always.
Lost track of medicine for two days. Back on it fully today. A side effect of the medicine. I'm trying to get back to it, full time, to see what else could be done. Not sure I can sustain higher doses of the main pill, others seem to cause worse crashes. I found a script of losartan, and am already taking that. So... I don't know. I also haven't been doing bp this weekend. I'll begin tomorrow. Just zoned it out. Concentration, focus, wasn't available, before the whisky pile-driver.
Grass was watered. It's looking better. I need to water the side yard, with the growy stuff, afterthe sun moves well over the house. I may yet get a shower and shave in spite of the title of this post. Of course, then I'd have to stay up for a bit longer. Not sure I can sleep yet. If I'm not sure I can get going either. Stuck? We'll see.
Is there a full moon thing?
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Something seems to be in the air. From news reported and not, people online and off, and yes, yours truly. Just a strange moon if not a full one.
I went shopping for new cutlery. A brand I like, trust. The ones I bought for my mother. This time I bought the set. Expensive, but the set was at a steal price (will look them over carefully to be sure they aren't knock-offs, but it was from the manufacturer's mini-estore). Odd thing though... I wanted extra pairing knives. While looking, and about to add to my cart? I realized another set was cheaper than the two pairing knives, or even a single chef's knife! So I just went with an extra set. I hope they aren't fakes, or bad seconds.
Still a bit green. Blood sugar has been unstable. As low as 172, as high as 278 after the small bit I could eat, 192 right after I ate... forgot premeal so got it as soon as I remembered. Now up to 212 or such without a bite since the low. The numbers are from memory, but plus or minus five or so. Still, a bit surprised it's not in the three hundreds, or higher, after yesterday. Still, annoying. I guess today will be a fast, maybe tomorrow. My system just isn't used to Coka-Cola ramped booze, yes, regular, three liters. Well, with the hooch on top, about a fifth of it but only 80 proof.
Later, or good night.
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Something seems to be in the air. From news reported and not, people online and off, and yes, yours truly. Just a strange moon if not a full one.
I went shopping for new cutlery. A brand I like, trust. The ones I bought for my mother. This time I bought the set. Expensive, but the set was at a steal price (will look them over carefully to be sure they aren't knock-offs, but it was from the manufacturer's mini-estore). Odd thing though... I wanted extra pairing knives. While looking, and about to add to my cart? I realized another set was cheaper than the two pairing knives, or even a single chef's knife! So I just went with an extra set. I hope they aren't fakes, or bad seconds.
Still a bit green. Blood sugar has been unstable. As low as 172, as high as 278 after the small bit I could eat, 192 right after I ate... forgot premeal so got it as soon as I remembered. Now up to 212 or such without a bite since the low. The numbers are from memory, but plus or minus five or so. Still, a bit surprised it's not in the three hundreds, or higher, after yesterday. Still, annoying. I guess today will be a fast, maybe tomorrow. My system just isn't used to Coka-Cola ramped booze, yes, regular, three liters. Well, with the hooch on top, about a fifth of it but only 80 proof.
Later, or good night.
Sunday, June 3, 2018
Tricks for summer.
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Actually, they work for winter too, some of them. Keeping heat or cold in the front rooms. Most back windows open, which won't work much longer, save at night. Heavier curtains with sheers as well, heelps aton. I would like an exterior door between one of the rooms, as both more weather shielding and extra security. But those are terribly expensive, doubly when installed. For now a curtain rod and sheet, but it did quite well. It got to 90 F, or really close. Actually it even helped the front room remain cooler. It only got to 74. The rest of the cave stayed in the upper 60's. I haven't needed the ac upstairs, if in the main bedroom, on hot days, it is sometimes necessary.
Funny, I sometimes need ac in the winter, if we get a relative warm spell. I suppose the warming has been gradual enough for even me this spring? Well, and it will take a bit to really heat, at which time the cave will hold heat and the ground won't sop it up as well. Still, I am slowly learning how to better rig the cave. At least until I get central air. Some of it will still work, getting ducts to the front rooms would be an engineering beast, at some real risk.
Dinner is going. The last of the roast, a potato, and corn. I think half a potato will do, the rest can be warmed in a couple days. Smaller potatoes? No, they are more expensive and ding my blood sugar more for some reason. Just normal potatoes. I should try red, gold, and finger potatoes... for variety and as raw data. I was tempted to buy squash the other day. Soon. As well, with cottage cheese and fruit, I am cutting portions. I am trying to figure out what, how much, and when to eat.
I bought more corn, but somehow got a bunch of creamed corn. They faced boxes with regular corn, then had the other behind. I'll find a home for it and shop more carefully.
Most eating advice, other than cutting most sugar and fast burning carbs, if what even those are, what those mean, is inaccurate, hugely, at least for me. Finding which foods that work, then controlling volume and frequency of consumption are the tricks. The latter are equally important. A difficult set of obstacles for a nearly sleep walker much of my time. Such precise balance must be developed to gain control, something obviously not sustainable. And, yet, the only option I will risk of the options available.
Stubborn? No. Alive beyond all reason and unwilling to let fool's jeopardize that for big pharma, medical industrial complex power pushes, especially combined with a growing government involvement in medicine. Socialism always leads to genocide, usually of the sick first. Just stopping insulin production would get rid of a lot of expense fast. If the truth is it has nothing to do with money. Unlike other "medicines", insulin creates a dependence, a vital one. If I don't see it my lifetime I will be a bit surprised. And it won't just be here. Global. It also won't just be insulin. They might even base it on something true, in many places... water contamination. Though for that to work they would have to kill the pill too, which is why it hasn't happened yet. They need much higher levels of infertility. Killing of the masses is tricky business.
Well, couldn't eat much. Definitely still green about the gills. Later.
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Actually, they work for winter too, some of them. Keeping heat or cold in the front rooms. Most back windows open, which won't work much longer, save at night. Heavier curtains with sheers as well, heelps aton. I would like an exterior door between one of the rooms, as both more weather shielding and extra security. But those are terribly expensive, doubly when installed. For now a curtain rod and sheet, but it did quite well. It got to 90 F, or really close. Actually it even helped the front room remain cooler. It only got to 74. The rest of the cave stayed in the upper 60's. I haven't needed the ac upstairs, if in the main bedroom, on hot days, it is sometimes necessary.
Funny, I sometimes need ac in the winter, if we get a relative warm spell. I suppose the warming has been gradual enough for even me this spring? Well, and it will take a bit to really heat, at which time the cave will hold heat and the ground won't sop it up as well. Still, I am slowly learning how to better rig the cave. At least until I get central air. Some of it will still work, getting ducts to the front rooms would be an engineering beast, at some real risk.
Dinner is going. The last of the roast, a potato, and corn. I think half a potato will do, the rest can be warmed in a couple days. Smaller potatoes? No, they are more expensive and ding my blood sugar more for some reason. Just normal potatoes. I should try red, gold, and finger potatoes... for variety and as raw data. I was tempted to buy squash the other day. Soon. As well, with cottage cheese and fruit, I am cutting portions. I am trying to figure out what, how much, and when to eat.
I bought more corn, but somehow got a bunch of creamed corn. They faced boxes with regular corn, then had the other behind. I'll find a home for it and shop more carefully.
Most eating advice, other than cutting most sugar and fast burning carbs, if what even those are, what those mean, is inaccurate, hugely, at least for me. Finding which foods that work, then controlling volume and frequency of consumption are the tricks. The latter are equally important. A difficult set of obstacles for a nearly sleep walker much of my time. Such precise balance must be developed to gain control, something obviously not sustainable. And, yet, the only option I will risk of the options available.
Stubborn? No. Alive beyond all reason and unwilling to let fool's jeopardize that for big pharma, medical industrial complex power pushes, especially combined with a growing government involvement in medicine. Socialism always leads to genocide, usually of the sick first. Just stopping insulin production would get rid of a lot of expense fast. If the truth is it has nothing to do with money. Unlike other "medicines", insulin creates a dependence, a vital one. If I don't see it my lifetime I will be a bit surprised. And it won't just be here. Global. It also won't just be insulin. They might even base it on something true, in many places... water contamination. Though for that to work they would have to kill the pill too, which is why it hasn't happened yet. They need much higher levels of infertility. Killing of the masses is tricky business.
Well, couldn't eat much. Definitely still green about the gills. Later.
Someone dipped into the magic juice.
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Well, more than usual anyway. I have a nip on rare occasions, to stave off chill, flu or cold (works for me mostly), or to add a hiccup to my step. Long has it been that a nip or two wasn't all... a year, more like years. Not sure what I posted. Almost afraid to look. I just, as matter of fact anymore, pull posts then review when I am less green about the head, shoulders, and gills. Green with a bit of blue on black.
Finished off the Hell-Cat Maggie Irish. Not a bad poison. Then got through another half of Tullamore, if my last cup, with several shots, remained mostly untouched this morning. *flush* I, for one, do not do hair of the dog. More drowsy than anything. A little dehydrated as well. A good meal before helps.
Dinner was fantastic. I was missing roast beef. My round up is beef and pork roasts, steak and pork ribs and chops, burger mixes, and more rarely chicken either hind quarters or whole. Oh, lamb when I see it on sale... usually too brutally expensive. I really need to mix that up or I get bored with food and, well, all sorts of things can happen. *cough*
I ended up eating a third of the roast! The rest will get heated in a bit. I really like chuck roasts, but they have been too high. Even at $4 a pound I nearly balked. If the best price I see them is $3.50, if that has been some long time ago, if too I don't check every time. Last few times I did check they were $5.50 or more. Nope. Heck, burger pops to nearly $5 a pound, and not the lean which is higher. This time it was an incredible $2.89 or sich. I grabbed several, always do when it is lower. I really need to save up for a quarter or half a beef and hog again. I end up paying less per pound for everything than I pay just for hamburger that way. Thing is you have to have half a $K to burn on the lower end of beef or per hog (or lamb). It's a wise stupid trick though.
Uhm, on to waking. Good day.
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Well, more than usual anyway. I have a nip on rare occasions, to stave off chill, flu or cold (works for me mostly), or to add a hiccup to my step. Long has it been that a nip or two wasn't all... a year, more like years. Not sure what I posted. Almost afraid to look. I just, as matter of fact anymore, pull posts then review when I am less green about the head, shoulders, and gills. Green with a bit of blue on black.
Finished off the Hell-Cat Maggie Irish. Not a bad poison. Then got through another half of Tullamore, if my last cup, with several shots, remained mostly untouched this morning. *flush* I, for one, do not do hair of the dog. More drowsy than anything. A little dehydrated as well. A good meal before helps.
Dinner was fantastic. I was missing roast beef. My round up is beef and pork roasts, steak and pork ribs and chops, burger mixes, and more rarely chicken either hind quarters or whole. Oh, lamb when I see it on sale... usually too brutally expensive. I really need to mix that up or I get bored with food and, well, all sorts of things can happen. *cough*
I ended up eating a third of the roast! The rest will get heated in a bit. I really like chuck roasts, but they have been too high. Even at $4 a pound I nearly balked. If the best price I see them is $3.50, if that has been some long time ago, if too I don't check every time. Last few times I did check they were $5.50 or more. Nope. Heck, burger pops to nearly $5 a pound, and not the lean which is higher. This time it was an incredible $2.89 or sich. I grabbed several, always do when it is lower. I really need to save up for a quarter or half a beef and hog again. I end up paying less per pound for everything than I pay just for hamburger that way. Thing is you have to have half a $K to burn on the lower end of beef or per hog (or lamb). It's a wise stupid trick though.
Uhm, on to waking. Good day.
Saturday, June 2, 2018
Better.
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I've been messing up with blood sugar recently. The wrong food, too much, too often... you know the drill, weather weight loss, gain, diabetes, or some others or mix is your game. Some of it has to happen. From figuring out how to control hunger using the right foods and amounts, to finding out which foods work, and that some labels seem to be false, mistakes have to happen, will happen.
My aftermeal blood sugar is 166, only a 14 point rise. I accidentally purchased cream of corn. I was sure that would jack blood sugar, but decided to test. Learn a bite at a time. It obviously didn't, of this brand. It just isn't my favorite, though good for a change. Problem? Still hungry. Too close for a snack. So? Oatmeal, with my mix of half and half. I'll see how this does. Gooder foods are generally worth the risk.
A kink in the back for no good reason. Perhaps I'll do dishes tonight. Maybe a shower and shave, I trimmed whiskers recently. Random odd jobs through the weekend as possible. Later.
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I've been messing up with blood sugar recently. The wrong food, too much, too often... you know the drill, weather weight loss, gain, diabetes, or some others or mix is your game. Some of it has to happen. From figuring out how to control hunger using the right foods and amounts, to finding out which foods work, and that some labels seem to be false, mistakes have to happen, will happen.
My aftermeal blood sugar is 166, only a 14 point rise. I accidentally purchased cream of corn. I was sure that would jack blood sugar, but decided to test. Learn a bite at a time. It obviously didn't, of this brand. It just isn't my favorite, though good for a change. Problem? Still hungry. Too close for a snack. So? Oatmeal, with my mix of half and half. I'll see how this does. Gooder foods are generally worth the risk.
A kink in the back for no good reason. Perhaps I'll do dishes tonight. Maybe a shower and shave, I trimmed whiskers recently. Random odd jobs through the weekend as possible. Later.
Friday, June 1, 2018
That wasn't a nap.
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Not a full sleep cycle eother. A neep, slap? Neep if I must. Sam kept banging on the door. They became too used to canned food. I'll have to stop feeding them canned food at all until they start eating dry food again. If they keep up the fuss, they will go into their transports overnight, with some food, water, and paper.
Blood sugar is down to 142. Not great, but sure beats 202. I'm preparing supper. Pork roast, corn, and tea. It'll go back up then go lower quickly, if history holds. If I need a snack later, I'll have a small portion of popcorn. Hmm, or peanuts. Those and most nuts are good for blood sugar, as is a small portion of cttage cheese and canned unsweetened fruit. I need to find other snacks.
It's rather chill tonight, which made getting the grill going difficult. Another part was the gloom encroached making it difficult to see coal density. There has to be enough to get a good glow but with enough room for air. I can barely believe this is June. Summer will get here, eventually.
Later.
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Not a full sleep cycle eother. A neep, slap? Neep if I must. Sam kept banging on the door. They became too used to canned food. I'll have to stop feeding them canned food at all until they start eating dry food again. If they keep up the fuss, they will go into their transports overnight, with some food, water, and paper.
Blood sugar is down to 142. Not great, but sure beats 202. I'm preparing supper. Pork roast, corn, and tea. It'll go back up then go lower quickly, if history holds. If I need a snack later, I'll have a small portion of popcorn. Hmm, or peanuts. Those and most nuts are good for blood sugar, as is a small portion of cttage cheese and canned unsweetened fruit. I need to find other snacks.
It's rather chill tonight, which made getting the grill going difficult. Another part was the gloom encroached making it difficult to see coal density. There has to be enough to get a good glow but with enough room for air. I can barely believe this is June. Summer will get here, eventually.
Later.
The boat is getting "sea" trials.
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The boss stopped by. Wanted to borrow the inflatable canoe. No worries. I had to find bits and parts. I have four seats, only three fit at a time. But they are different types. Paddles, air pump, anchor, and anchor rope were all rounded up. I offered him one of my wetsuits, but it was too big. Oh, the one life vest I have or could find went with. I have other things, if I can find the items. A screw-type beach tie-off, flashers for boat and crew, large and small dry sacks, just vicarious tackle and gear. What they have should do. I am dying to hear how she handles. As I have mentioned, for me at least, life is about stories. Though if she handles easily I'd like to go out with a small crew, then solo. Perhaps on minor whitewater runs. She can handle class III or IV white water, and I "swam" in worse.
Dinner was just so-so. Not because food was bad, my body just wasn't interested in eating. I have enough meat cooked for several days, if I can eat.
One other note. I finally found Latin lessons with audio, which have better reviews and referrals. So I ordered that. I have other lessons but realized, without oral and written, and it being a dead language, I was headed nowhere fast on my own, or worse. If I do well, Greek next. It's for religion but has a multitude of uses, as well as being the mother of many languages and the grandmother, daughter, and aunt to others, including my own. Veni, vidi, vici? We'll see. Or awkward.
A nap? Yes. This weather is killing me. Either edging on too hot or crashing and taking me with it. Later.
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The boss stopped by. Wanted to borrow the inflatable canoe. No worries. I had to find bits and parts. I have four seats, only three fit at a time. But they are different types. Paddles, air pump, anchor, and anchor rope were all rounded up. I offered him one of my wetsuits, but it was too big. Oh, the one life vest I have or could find went with. I have other things, if I can find the items. A screw-type beach tie-off, flashers for boat and crew, large and small dry sacks, just vicarious tackle and gear. What they have should do. I am dying to hear how she handles. As I have mentioned, for me at least, life is about stories. Though if she handles easily I'd like to go out with a small crew, then solo. Perhaps on minor whitewater runs. She can handle class III or IV white water, and I "swam" in worse.
Dinner was just so-so. Not because food was bad, my body just wasn't interested in eating. I have enough meat cooked for several days, if I can eat.
One other note. I finally found Latin lessons with audio, which have better reviews and referrals. So I ordered that. I have other lessons but realized, without oral and written, and it being a dead language, I was headed nowhere fast on my own, or worse. If I do well, Greek next. It's for religion but has a multitude of uses, as well as being the mother of many languages and the grandmother, daughter, and aunt to others, including my own. Veni, vidi, vici? We'll see. Or awkward.
A nap? Yes. This weather is killing me. Either edging on too hot or crashing and taking me with it. Later.
Up, going, slowly.
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Blood sugar was ugly. The first time north of two hundred in a while, if by just two points. It was 122 last night, then I had nachos. Cheese is carb free, chips said the were low carb. I trust the cheese. The chips not so much. It wasn't even as if I ate much, say thirty chips max, more like half that. Shredded cheese was the only topping, melted. No more nachos. Wow. Or at least not with those chips. Don't say it was corn. I eat large portions of canned sweet without a glucose hiccup. They must add sugar, hidden in there. Perhaps there is a brand that doesn't. Yeah, they mean to create diabetes. It's down to 173.
It isn't even 60 F outside. Yikes. It's easily good enough for me, but it is tightening the growing season. Amazing. Partly cloudy, as has been the norm lately.
I've been good enough I am taking some risks. I ordered 38 belts and several more 38 jeans. Even the 40's I have are looking baggy. The Cabela's jeans I loved are gone. They have some others I may try. I went with Duluth 5-pocket ballroom jeans (for exactly what that sounds like, room for), on sale. More expensive still than old, similar to new Cabela's jeans. I will give Cabela's new jeans a shot next month. I just hope they didn't make them woman thin with Eddie Bauer queer (small) pockets. Gah! Duluth is good, if pricey. Upper lefty blue collar, engineering to overpaid union type. Snooty in it's own way, but... more doable than do-nothing sniveling academic snootiness. I told you, I hate equally, mostly.
Pork is grilling. Green beans too. That and milk. All good. Lower and slower, in part because of the cool day. Oh, the musical responses? Manifold. Immediate. I may put up a montage, or two, or not. Later.
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Blood sugar was ugly. The first time north of two hundred in a while, if by just two points. It was 122 last night, then I had nachos. Cheese is carb free, chips said the were low carb. I trust the cheese. The chips not so much. It wasn't even as if I ate much, say thirty chips max, more like half that. Shredded cheese was the only topping, melted. No more nachos. Wow. Or at least not with those chips. Don't say it was corn. I eat large portions of canned sweet without a glucose hiccup. They must add sugar, hidden in there. Perhaps there is a brand that doesn't. Yeah, they mean to create diabetes. It's down to 173.
It isn't even 60 F outside. Yikes. It's easily good enough for me, but it is tightening the growing season. Amazing. Partly cloudy, as has been the norm lately.
I've been good enough I am taking some risks. I ordered 38 belts and several more 38 jeans. Even the 40's I have are looking baggy. The Cabela's jeans I loved are gone. They have some others I may try. I went with Duluth 5-pocket ballroom jeans (for exactly what that sounds like, room for), on sale. More expensive still than old, similar to new Cabela's jeans. I will give Cabela's new jeans a shot next month. I just hope they didn't make them woman thin with Eddie Bauer queer (small) pockets. Gah! Duluth is good, if pricey. Upper lefty blue collar, engineering to overpaid union type. Snooty in it's own way, but... more doable than do-nothing sniveling academic snootiness. I told you, I hate equally, mostly.
Pork is grilling. Green beans too. That and milk. All good. Lower and slower, in part because of the cool day. Oh, the musical responses? Manifold. Immediate. I may put up a montage, or two, or not. Later.
Thursday, May 31, 2018
Rollercoaster ride.
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Down around 5:00, up at 13:00. My preferred sleep length, there is that. Fasting blood sugar wasn't so good at 198. BP and pulse were gooder(tm). Anything in the 130's/100's and sub 90's pulse is considered superior, for now. I may see about doubling,or nearly, carvedilol, and going back on losarten. The former adds to exhaustion, the latter works but only some so is too expensive for self-pay. At the better end of the bp/pulse range, five to ten points might really shine.
Dark, as yesterday, as it has been, mostly, for the last five days? It makes it difficult to get going. Though it's that or 80 F plus days. Ugh. I am going to try to find the number, to see about swimming. As well, I'll set up the packages for return. Probably not today if I'll push for tomorrow. I need to do grocery and cat shopping tomorrow. I got some dry, but need canned, more dry, and litter. I like to keep well up, just in case I can't get out.
I finally got over busting my big toe, then I caught my small toe. I so rarely hurt my feet, I guess it was time. I thought the small toe had improved, then it started swelling again. It'll... heal, in time. It doesn't hurt, it just squeezes the other toes, mostly. And doesn't fit in shoes, house shoes, or even socks, well.
A shower, shave, dishes, and packages? Yes. At 15:00 I'll take another blood test, then heat up the third of the steak I couldn't finish, plus green beans. I need to boil eggs, because I can't keep up on frying, scrambling, etc. Hmm, and potato salad would be super, only homemade. They dump sugar, one way or another, in every plant and store processed potato salad. Then lie about it. The blood test unveils the deception.
Hmm? Best feed the girls before I get sliced, yelled at (more), or just voted of the island. Good day.
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Down around 5:00, up at 13:00. My preferred sleep length, there is that. Fasting blood sugar wasn't so good at 198. BP and pulse were gooder(tm). Anything in the 130's/100's and sub 90's pulse is considered superior, for now. I may see about doubling,or nearly, carvedilol, and going back on losarten. The former adds to exhaustion, the latter works but only some so is too expensive for self-pay. At the better end of the bp/pulse range, five to ten points might really shine.
Dark, as yesterday, as it has been, mostly, for the last five days? It makes it difficult to get going. Though it's that or 80 F plus days. Ugh. I am going to try to find the number, to see about swimming. As well, I'll set up the packages for return. Probably not today if I'll push for tomorrow. I need to do grocery and cat shopping tomorrow. I got some dry, but need canned, more dry, and litter. I like to keep well up, just in case I can't get out.
I finally got over busting my big toe, then I caught my small toe. I so rarely hurt my feet, I guess it was time. I thought the small toe had improved, then it started swelling again. It'll... heal, in time. It doesn't hurt, it just squeezes the other toes, mostly. And doesn't fit in shoes, house shoes, or even socks, well.
A shower, shave, dishes, and packages? Yes. At 15:00 I'll take another blood test, then heat up the third of the steak I couldn't finish, plus green beans. I need to boil eggs, because I can't keep up on frying, scrambling, etc. Hmm, and potato salad would be super, only homemade. They dump sugar, one way or another, in every plant and store processed potato salad. Then lie about it. The blood test unveils the deception.
Hmm? Best feed the girls before I get sliced, yelled at (more), or just voted of the island. Good day.
Up too late.
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I was hoping to see blood sugar drop, well, before going to bed. And it finally did. Down to 137 anyway. I pushed it, in every way today. Eventually, even simply by happenstance, I won't. And I won't in vast majority regularity... when I am not looking. And then maintenance will be vastly easier. While watching a teapot come to a boil won't actually stop the intention, observing phenomena, especially when one's self is involved, may well have an contrary effect.
I have noticed an odd thing. I am not absolute about a direct link. I am exploring it. If I stay up until my blood sugar comes down, I do better, generally, the next day. It isn't a perfect fit, but it seems probable, mostly. Worth a shot, especially on days I push things, for whatever reason(s). Win, lose, or draw, tomorrow I will have more data.
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I was hoping to see blood sugar drop, well, before going to bed. And it finally did. Down to 137 anyway. I pushed it, in every way today. Eventually, even simply by happenstance, I won't. And I won't in vast majority regularity... when I am not looking. And then maintenance will be vastly easier. While watching a teapot come to a boil won't actually stop the intention, observing phenomena, especially when one's self is involved, may well have an contrary effect.
I have noticed an odd thing. I am not absolute about a direct link. I am exploring it. If I stay up until my blood sugar comes down, I do better, generally, the next day. It isn't a perfect fit, but it seems probable, mostly. Worth a shot, especially on days I push things, for whatever reason(s). Win, lose, or draw, tomorrow I will have more data.
Wednesday, May 30, 2018
A good bad boy.
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Today was mostly shopping. From cat food to charcoal, weed spray, a new sprinkler, etc., and returning a package. The boss drove. Only things not found were various smaller sprinkler heads and drip line hoses. I have several returns to make, so can look at another store. Three bags of charcoal has lasted me a year, but I am using it more. Even so, especially in the summer it has many values attached to the small price.
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Today was mostly shopping. From cat food to charcoal, weed spray, a new sprinkler, etc., and returning a package. The boss drove. Only things not found were various smaller sprinkler heads and drip line hoses. I have several returns to make, so can look at another store. Three bags of charcoal has lasted me a year, but I am using it more. Even so, especially in the summer it has many values attached to the small price.
Another surprise.
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BP isn't great, the left arm gave me a still ugly but better reading. I just took medicine, perhaps that is the problem? My blood sugar, several hours after my second meal read 122. Which... I wasn't sure. So I just took another reading, 111. Crazy, but I will take it. That is absolutely amazing. Fasting really does work for me. Now, if I pay attention, fast multiple days occasionally, do day fasting as a usual, I may be able to... fix some issues. I am not guaranteeing I am cured, yet. I simply believe I will get there, soon, if not.
I did finish the garage. One corner was too much. The rest was emptied, swept down and out, then everything put back in better order. Far from perfect if much better. Backing in was much easier, more room and easier to see. It wore me out, which is good. The boss did stop by just to plan. He had an event tonight, after work. Tomorrow. Early in the day, morning.
I best get to sleep. Oh, packages to be returned tomorrow. Good night.
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BP isn't great, the left arm gave me a still ugly but better reading. I just took medicine, perhaps that is the problem? My blood sugar, several hours after my second meal read 122. Which... I wasn't sure. So I just took another reading, 111. Crazy, but I will take it. That is absolutely amazing. Fasting really does work for me. Now, if I pay attention, fast multiple days occasionally, do day fasting as a usual, I may be able to... fix some issues. I am not guaranteeing I am cured, yet. I simply believe I will get there, soon, if not.
I did finish the garage. One corner was too much. The rest was emptied, swept down and out, then everything put back in better order. Far from perfect if much better. Backing in was much easier, more room and easier to see. It wore me out, which is good. The boss did stop by just to plan. He had an event tonight, after work. Tomorrow. Early in the day, morning.
I best get to sleep. Oh, packages to be returned tomorrow. Good night.
Tuesday, May 29, 2018
Two concerns with no stones.
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Blood sugar dropped after the meal. From 171 to 191 while fasting, then to 122 after my meal. How crazy is that? I'll take it. Then my mother called. She found the missing packages. They left them at a door she never uses. That was about to turn into a real hassle. The other thing, that actually did go missing, is covered. Ugh. That woman and packages.
I started in on the garage but fell down on the job. I have some things out. I don't need the push mower or push snowblower anymore. The engines and parts could be useful. Perhaps to run a grainmill? Though there are other things. I can't get a well, if I am not sure those would work, save as emergency... not really meant for that heavy of use. Who knows. Probably a bit small for gocart engines? Just tinker thinking.
Not sure what tonight. Not sure he will be back. I may sweep some, then put it all back. Another meal is planned. Just a small steak and one glass of milk. I can't believe the blood sugar. Odd how it worked. Later. Perhaps good night.
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Blood sugar dropped after the meal. From 171 to 191 while fasting, then to 122 after my meal. How crazy is that? I'll take it. Then my mother called. She found the missing packages. They left them at a door she never uses. That was about to turn into a real hassle. The other thing, that actually did go missing, is covered. Ugh. That woman and packages.
I started in on the garage but fell down on the job. I have some things out. I don't need the push mower or push snowblower anymore. The engines and parts could be useful. Perhaps to run a grainmill? Though there are other things. I can't get a well, if I am not sure those would work, save as emergency... not really meant for that heavy of use. Who knows. Probably a bit small for gocart engines? Just tinker thinking.
Not sure what tonight. Not sure he will be back. I may sweep some, then put it all back. Another meal is planned. Just a small steak and one glass of milk. I can't believe the blood sugar. Odd how it worked. Later. Perhaps good night.
Looking into the eyes of Doom.
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I wasn't curious. Until I saw what videos popped. I asked for a few details, suggested a general notion. I keep things benign in... certain company. Not for my wellbeing. Fragile, but not I. Not now that I am awake, aware, and immune to gaslighting. Even so, I think they see beyond what science says will be there. Difficult for most to look into my alien eyes, but to plumb their depths is to court the unkown.
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I wasn't curious. Until I saw what videos popped. I asked for a few details, suggested a general notion. I keep things benign in... certain company. Not for my wellbeing. Fragile, but not I. Not now that I am awake, aware, and immune to gaslighting. Even so, I think they see beyond what science says will be there. Difficult for most to look into my alien eyes, but to plumb their depths is to court the unkown.
Down late.
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Could not get to bed. The cold front, storm, whatever, seems to have parked here. I don't think that is the problem. It is better a bit cool. Stuck, unable to gain traction. And had to eat last night. Fasting blood sugar was up to 171 fasting, then continued to rise, at 191 now, while still fasting. I am not up to much more fasting. Smaller meals though, and closer together. For now. Forgot morning bp, currently 130/102 p. 78.
A steak, small one, half a can of vegetables, and a small portion of pears and cottage cheese, with tea. A second meal of just a small steak, three hours after the main meal, is the plan. I suspect you have to feed, sometimes, to get it to adust. I ate the last third of the bigger steak and half potato left over from supper. I am a bit surprised it jacked blood sugar as it did.
Back to real time is it. True, but not starting on a Monday and a short week for it. I best get some things done. Later.
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Could not get to bed. The cold front, storm, whatever, seems to have parked here. I don't think that is the problem. It is better a bit cool. Stuck, unable to gain traction. And had to eat last night. Fasting blood sugar was up to 171 fasting, then continued to rise, at 191 now, while still fasting. I am not up to much more fasting. Smaller meals though, and closer together. For now. Forgot morning bp, currently 130/102 p. 78.
A steak, small one, half a can of vegetables, and a small portion of pears and cottage cheese, with tea. A second meal of just a small steak, three hours after the main meal, is the plan. I suspect you have to feed, sometimes, to get it to adust. I ate the last third of the bigger steak and half potato left over from supper. I am a bit surprised it jacked blood sugar as it did.
Back to real time is it. True, but not starting on a Monday and a short week for it. I best get some things done. Later.
Monday, May 28, 2018
Snack!
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While another full meal seemed too much, a snack seemed possible. Another blood check, to see if blood sugar had continued to rise. Nope, down to 124. An eight ounce (liquid) container of unshelled salted peanuts. It handled hunger well enough. An hour and change later, and blood sugar is up to 128. Not a bad rise. Still hungry, just not painfully so. I will need to experiment with various snack items. Home popped popcorn is good, and pretty much all I can eat, from what I have seen so far, salted and buttered. Herbed and buttered probably then as well.
I'm not up to going to town. Still a bit green about the gills. Premeal blood sugar is now averaging 136 for the week. I... just don't think my body is used to that, or the lower bp and pulse. Actually, that I am on meds, and the weather cooled with no sun for the last few days? I'm doing well to be able to stay awake and on meds. I am doing very well for having every major negative active.
I have another change. I will be aiming to take night medicines earlier, say around 18:00. I am curious to see if this will have a readable reduction in blood pressure before going to bed. Perhaps that will shift things down before sleep, improving things. At this point, while I can check so regularly, I might as well experiment. Optimizing systems, programs, techniques, when raw data and processing power is available improves function when forced to coast.
Weight, again, was 255. If I can keep blood sugar down, and continue to work, especially adding swimming, I... think losing serious weight won't be a problem. Then again I have lost thirty and gained some muscle. I just can't push too hard until I lose more. But I can do some. Yeah.
Good night.
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While another full meal seemed too much, a snack seemed possible. Another blood check, to see if blood sugar had continued to rise. Nope, down to 124. An eight ounce (liquid) container of unshelled salted peanuts. It handled hunger well enough. An hour and change later, and blood sugar is up to 128. Not a bad rise. Still hungry, just not painfully so. I will need to experiment with various snack items. Home popped popcorn is good, and pretty much all I can eat, from what I have seen so far, salted and buttered. Herbed and buttered probably then as well.
I'm not up to going to town. Still a bit green about the gills. Premeal blood sugar is now averaging 136 for the week. I... just don't think my body is used to that, or the lower bp and pulse. Actually, that I am on meds, and the weather cooled with no sun for the last few days? I'm doing well to be able to stay awake and on meds. I am doing very well for having every major negative active.
I have another change. I will be aiming to take night medicines earlier, say around 18:00. I am curious to see if this will have a readable reduction in blood pressure before going to bed. Perhaps that will shift things down before sleep, improving things. At this point, while I can check so regularly, I might as well experiment. Optimizing systems, programs, techniques, when raw data and processing power is available improves function when forced to coast.
Weight, again, was 255. If I can keep blood sugar down, and continue to work, especially adding swimming, I... think losing serious weight won't be a problem. Then again I have lost thirty and gained some muscle. I just can't push too hard until I lose more. But I can do some. Yeah.
Good night.
A major crash nap.
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It wasn't the food, it was the end of the fast. My body simply isn't used to low blood sugar. It had risen to 111 before eating anything. I couldn't stay awake long enough after dinner to get that read. But after three to four hours down, it is 133. Good enough, but not good enough for a second meal within daily fasting. A second meal will require a blood sugar of 110, or rarely 120 if it is needed, but within four hours after the first meal. BP was best from the right arm, at 127/93 pulse 93.
Headache. I had the door shut, it gets warm and stuffy. Should have had the ac going. If I can get going, I will get a shower and go to town. Dry catfood. I'd also like to hit dishes, and buy disposable cups. I just can't keep up. Which, in part, is why I am grilling. If that has the side benefit of flavor, general ease, and keeping the indoors cool. Ugh, aspirin might help kick the aches enough to get going sooner.
Steak. Quite good. Broth first, to ease out of the fast. I don't salt broth while making it, so do need to add some. It is never as salty as store bought, by taste or beyond. Add a bit of fresh cracked pepper and even less salt is needed, same with cream. It was a good meal, if it took a long time to eat it. As mentioned, I had already begun falling before eating anything.
Well, on to waking and maybe to town. Walmart is probably open. For the lame, Walmart is a treasure. May you never understand having no control over your schedule most of the time. I have been lucky, and aimed my appointments well. That... won't hold. Then again, I have still missed an appointment and had to change an half a dozen. Yeah, they really help the mostly dead.
Later.
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It wasn't the food, it was the end of the fast. My body simply isn't used to low blood sugar. It had risen to 111 before eating anything. I couldn't stay awake long enough after dinner to get that read. But after three to four hours down, it is 133. Good enough, but not good enough for a second meal within daily fasting. A second meal will require a blood sugar of 110, or rarely 120 if it is needed, but within four hours after the first meal. BP was best from the right arm, at 127/93 pulse 93.
Headache. I had the door shut, it gets warm and stuffy. Should have had the ac going. If I can get going, I will get a shower and go to town. Dry catfood. I'd also like to hit dishes, and buy disposable cups. I just can't keep up. Which, in part, is why I am grilling. If that has the side benefit of flavor, general ease, and keeping the indoors cool. Ugh, aspirin might help kick the aches enough to get going sooner.
Steak. Quite good. Broth first, to ease out of the fast. I don't salt broth while making it, so do need to add some. It is never as salty as store bought, by taste or beyond. Add a bit of fresh cracked pepper and even less salt is needed, same with cream. It was a good meal, if it took a long time to eat it. As mentioned, I had already begun falling before eating anything.
Well, on to waking and maybe to town. Walmart is probably open. For the lame, Walmart is a treasure. May you never understand having no control over your schedule most of the time. I have been lucky, and aimed my appointments well. That... won't hold. Then again, I have still missed an appointment and had to change an half a dozen. Yeah, they really help the mostly dead.
Later.
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