Not cooling.

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Last time I checked, an hour or two ago, it was just down to 72!  Way too warm to be of much help.  The wind seemed to be going, but it wasn't bringing anything cool in.  It is 77, here near the computer, 75 pretty much everywhere else.  Though, just now... did I feel something cool, air with a touch of moisture?  Or am I just hoping.

Kefir, and a fatted coffee, with a dose of insulin... 16~20 cc's, iirc... and a few hours, three?  Blood sugar is at 116.  Very, very strange.   I didn't trust it, to not crash, so went slow and light with the dosing.  Glad I did.  That's an 84 point drop, with the food that seems to be causing spikes?  Very strange.  There was one other thing I had some concern about... the vinegars I have brewing.  I had been sampling those.  I stopped doing that a few days ago.  So, yea, no.  That isn't it.

I wonder, if I cap the kefir too tightly in the refrigerator, if that will revert altered sugar back into some sort of sugar again?  I can't thing so.  I believe, all that would do, is create a more carbonated drink.  Especially since it is in the fridge only a few days before use, after having fermented well enough on the counter.  So, no.

The only thing I can imagine is if the kefir is being used, or drained off, and refilled with whole milk.  In the fridge, it wouldn't ferment quickly, and would then contain more lactose... sugar... might as well be.  But I'm not seeing evidence of that, and, yes, I have... tricks and traps to check.  They would have to bring their own milk in.  It... becomes a dubious proposition, at that point.

The other thing is, the medicine.  It comes from China.  There is a reason China is not trusted, and shouldn't be making our medicine.  Though, too, our medical industrial complex is almost as lethal to those it sees as unfit, or tries to be, as the military industrial complex.  Both of which are quite comfortably in bed with China.  Ugh.  Not much I can do about that, save try to work my way off insulin.  But... that hasn't been doing so well.  Something isn't adding up.  I have limits as to figuring it out, sorting it out, and finding a solution.

Oh... on to set up laundry, though a shower and shave first.  Which means bringing the towels in.  OH!  Yea, wind just picked up, majorly!  And it IS cooler.  I best get going.  It might even rain.  Anyway, a few things tonight.  I got a few things yesterday.  I'll do what I can.

I would really like to... get things cleared and cleaned, as much as I can, in case my mother shows up.  It won't be immediately.  But... it... if it happens... will happen quickly.  I think she will be happy with my pantry, but will add some things.  I am hoping she can figure out my keto ingredients though, because I won't allow flour, or sugar, in my foods.  I've worked too hard, even if it doesn't really show.  Not even in my health.  Not. the. point.  It is the only thing that slightly works, and the meds I am finally taking, when I can.

Later.

Secret King

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I have heard that used as an accusation.  I... had to laugh.

There is... no secret about it.  As a child of God, which even the darker amongst us may be, there are none but kings.  Urhm, save for the queens.   And, no, if you have to try to get the law to push others to call you that, you... aren't a queen, or king.  Meh.  Those who are not viable sons of God, or who are on a path other than to Rome, are not kings.  Perhaps some may never go that way.  Christ said He was here for the many, not most, certainly not all.  What "the many" means is... for Him to sort.  Though... we can speculate.

I won't speculate, not this time, in this moment, for this post.

A secret winner, then, I am told.  I... did laugh.  There has never been a time I am a secret winner.  Sometimes I do win, but... don't share.  Why bother.  Either do, or do not.  Can I be wrong?  I hope so.  Anyone who thinks they are right all of the time, probably even most of the time, is... seeking headaches beyond their capacity to ameliorate.  Not the exact correct term, but with historic meaning.  For one.  But, that isn't important either.  Remember, Christ won it all by dying.  So... winning... is sort of a tricky thing... assuming you believe.  I think many fail to believe because they can't see victory in the grave.  Fair enough, for animals.  

Further, and to be honest, I... avoid the idea of winning.  Not that I am not competitive.  Not that I don't care about "being right, or correct, or such".  More that, winning, in a world of sin, is a thing of pride.  No heaven can Lucifer show me is greater than my pride.  Watch this thing.  Still, it's more.  It is also because winning, for my sake, on my terms... there is nothing that turns my blood cold and causes more trepidation.  Oh, it could happen.  And I'd regret it only slightly less than Satan regrets his choices, even if zit can't change them.  No no, His will, or nothing.  I'd rather be a humble mouse than a worldly victor.  Or, more, a victor within my will, my way.

I pray I don't win, not too consistently.  Even in my best natured attempts, of my own, I will fail, fall.  All that is good, in or from me, falls from the tree of the One Who made me.  To my own devices, I am, currently, of sin.  Fallen.  Whether man, nephilim, or child of djinn.  Yes, I know... of those, too.  Or, their possibility.

If I am to win, while it won't be secret, neither will it be my doing.  It will be a grace, by doing His will.  The Father's.  For now.  And just how well do I do that?  I can't even perfectly take my medicine, or eat and drink so that my illnesses are controlled, no matter how well I try.  So... doing God's will?  I can't even know His will, not fully.  But that is my absolute intention.

A late rise.

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My upstairs clock must be off, again.  Bumping the button which changes the time zone is easy, and I haven't found a fix.  Still, it's not let me down so far.  Just been off a time or two every few months.  Anyway, it looks like I slept until 21:00~21:30?  Perhaps an hour earlier?

I have been awake, doing a few things, then now computing, for an hour or two.  Time is difficult to track when just waking.  And it is just now about a quarter after twenty hundred.  I had thought that was the time when I woke.  Though... too... the fog of waking can blur memory as well.  I'll check the clock up there before going to bed tonight.

I think I saw that it was 60, after waking.  I have most of the house opened back up.  I need to open the front door and the upstairs, while at it.  But, I brought in a few packages, and that broke me for a bit.  Not sure why.  It was less work than the last group of packages.  But it totally wiped me out.

I thought, perhaps, blood sugar was low.  When it is low, almost any work will use up the vapors they are working on.  But, no.  Blood sugar, again, was a bit over 212!  It really shouldn't be.  It was 177 at the last read, but I hit kefir, fast acting (15 cc's) and slow acting (25 cc's).  While kefir, technically, because of bureaucratically imposed inaccuracies is stated to have four to six carbs per cup (since that is what goes into it's production), but in truth, with testing, it proves to have one or less carb per cup.  So it shouldn't be that... unless someone is drinking some, and topping it with fresh milk?  Or just doing that to increased carbs.  I... need to figure this out.  Yes, there are those who would harm, close.  There are those who would help, not sure they would help against those who would harm.

Blood pressure, though... is... that is very strange.  It is 124/93 with a pulse of 83?  That's crazy low compared to just yesterday, or the day before.  I wasn't thinking the new medicine was working.  I'm taking it on a strange kilter, sometimes in the "morning" whatever that is, sometimes at "night", as defined by... fates, sleep, waking cycle...  Still, that is crazy good.  If the diastolic could come down even ten more points, that would be very, very, good.  Why did it take so much, and so long, to get that?  Whatever.

My mother called today, to say she is doing and feeling better.  I hope so.  One can always hope her bad day was just a moment.  That palsy, from whatever source, will pass.  If she can get packed, and set up, my house is literally her house, save for two rooms.  Well, and the little bathroom.  My bedroom, my computer room, and one of the two bathrooms she probably can't use well anyway... if it has to be rebuilt.  Bleh.  She will even be allowed to set some rules, push me to get the trash out, and have me cook and help wash dishes.  Even my rooms, I assume, if I don't keep up, she will... muck with, from time to time.  It's... their brains, their mind, their systems.

A woman, always, rules the house.  Or it is in chaos.  This I know.  Mother, girlfriend, wife, daughter... leave certain things in their hands, and abide their silliness, to a degree.  Life is much easier and better, with a goodwife around.  Remember, a woman's mind may not go deep (I claim), but it never. shuts. off.  Ever!  Men?  What are we thinking?  As often as possible?  Not. a. damn. thing.  Who is asking?  :p

Assuming I can continue to afford my home.  Assuming she still thinks that would be a good plan.  Assuming she and I survive to that point.  Mi casa es tu casa, to her.  And, if she can direct, I can probably help her more than I can help myself.  Plus, I have an... associate, who can help with things I can't do alone.  Women love to be bosses.  And, in certain refined places and parts of the world, they are good at it.  So, really, I hope she can.  I'll do what I can for her.

Some are questioning whether she should.  That... isn't for me to say.  It will not be easy.  But, it doesn't have to be that difficult.  If it gets rough, I grab a few things and get lost for a day or three.  If  that doesn't work, I just get lost for longer and longer.  Worst case, she will be on her own.  It really is that easy.  Thinking of doing that anyway, if I can't keep the house.  Later.

Trying to stay awake a little longer.

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Cats fed, their litter sorted.  I checked the towels.  The are probably dry.  but I want them to be sun kissed.  It kills anything and everything?  After bleaching, probably.  Plus, it makes them so much more absorbent and scratchy, a good thing, as I like it, in this case.  The wind had pulled a few corners from the clips.  But I have five to six holding each, so nothing had dropped or even touched the ground.

Medicine was finally taken.  I kept thinking about it, just didn't quite get to it, until now.  While I was out, I checked the temp.  It is 80, now, and again, as yesterday.  It's sort of a warm 80, there isn't a lick of moisture in the air, on that wind.  The wind simply carries about residual heat.  Or... sort of.  It just moves it from one hot spot to the next, but it feels more comfortable, almost.

I'd love to get a shower in, and a shave.  Do more laundry, and dishes.  But I am shot.  I am just, at this point, pushing to get through this last round in the ring with Sleep looking for a tko, or worse... better... but for which of us?  Putting me out of my misery for a bit would be a good thing even for me.

Two months and two weeks, on medicine, with only one day dropped completely, due to my schedule slipping over a cliff.  Didn't see it coming, didn't hear it leaving, just woke up a full day after and realized I must have missed medicines and the day.  A few times late to take it, but... those were fixed well enough.

So tired.  Trying so diligently to remain awake, just a bit longer.  But I think the gig is finis.  Good afternoon, day, and night.

Barely keeping my eyes open.

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That last bit of work may be it.  Blood sugar is back up to 177?  That just doesn't make sense.  Yes, another kefir, and insulin.  A small dose though, say 12 cc's.  I can take night meds.  It is bedtime after all.  I'd best turn the ac on upstairs, and give it some time to run, before crashing.  If I can.

It's just around noon.  Five 'til.  I was doing good until I hit some sort of wall.

I will do litter, and feed the girls, after getting the ac going.  I could just fall asleep where I sit if I didn't think it would end up hurting.  Good day and night.

Some of it.

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Chores, if I hadn't mentioned.  Last I looked it was already up to 75, at between 09:00 and 09:30.  The wind is wicked though.  No clouds with it, really.  And not really cool, if I think it helps with the cooling.  The sun will burn you down where you stand, but if you keep moving, the wind keeps the radiant, reflective, heat from getting to you... or at least it isn't as noticed.

The towels were finally put out.  All four flagship bathsheets, plus a few kitchen type.  Those are monsters to wrestle onto the line.  It's amazing how much those things weigh when even damp.  Plus, they are so long.  It is both the weight and the cumbersome nature of the exercise which get to me.  But done.

I'll, after a bit, get in there and start a load of regular clothes.  Hopefully to hang those out as well.  If the line doesn't snap.  Not sure just how much that would take.  But with this wind and those towels, I'd bet it will be a test.  I may need to use the metal wire line I bought, just in case.  Use that for these towels, as a priority.  I'd like to get another line or two up anyway.

Waterers were caught up, before chores, then any empty waterers after were filled.  All ready for several days.  I have a few more middle sized waterers coming, of different designs.  I'm not sure which will work best, or be easiest to use and longest lasting.  Only one way to find out.  Both have top opening filling, so I won't need to remove them, save for cleaning from time to time.  If, still, I would like to get a gravity watering system going.

A bit of a break.  Then to a shower, shave, and getting more laundry started.  Another break, and on to setting up dishes and clearing the bathroom.  Hmm, actually, I should at least clear out any clothing from the bathroom, to put in with the wash.  Yeah.  I'll sweep later, in there, if possible.

Blood sugar is down to a reasonably smart 122.  Or up to it, actually.  I am almost afraid to eat, but definitely afraid to not eat.  Both could be disastrous.  Though, plain and simple, it is much better to have high blood sugar than low.  One is eventually lethal, one is nearly immediately lethal.  I wonder if they are trying to get me to off myself.  I don't always trust them, or the medicine they are giving out.  It seems to be inconsistent.  And, yea, I have already been dealt with thusly.  They knew it was a bad heart from the beginning.  Didn't treat it.  Didn't even diagnose it.  Yea.  They do those things.

Well... on to a break.  I am hungry, but as mentioned, I don't want to eat.  I don't have much to eat, though, either.  Kefir.  Which is good.  I suppose I could have two cups of it.  That and gaming, for now.  It's... about all I can do.  Well, feed the girls, and check their litter, then sit?  Yeah.  I am... almost getting some groove back.  If I don't crash, or lose it, I might get some work done this week!  Later.

Feeling better.

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I won't bother testing for several hours, unless I begin feeling really bad again.  Two cups of kefir, and two 4 ounce cups of fruit, no sweetener.  I guess I simply can't use sweetener, not even the keto approved kind, not mixed.  Cooked?  I'll have to see.  I suppose I could try other sweeteners.  But, to be honest, if even stevia develops an insulin response, I'm not sure much else out there will work.  I have tried... six different types now.

Medicine has been taken.  Slow acting insulin was taken around 02:00, when I remembered it.  The pills weren't taken until 04:30 to 05:30?  Some time in there.  Regular morning pills, as I am trying to get days and nights back switched around.  It's just that I am awake much longer.  The light, and heat, sort of alter my plans.  But I might be able to swing it, sleeping from early evening until later night or early morning.  Maybe.

It's cool in here.  It is 73 in here, near the computer, more like 70 to 71 everywhere else.  Very nice.  Oh, and upstairs was 72 generally, 75 where I sleep... if too that is on the east side.  And, that is just with fans.  It has already gotten to 65 out there, up twelve from last night's low, or the lowest I saw it.  And it is only 07:30.  It's... going to get warm... hot... possibly very hot... today.

The ducks are fed.  And getting water.  I'll actually reset the waterers, get the rabbits, then take a shower and shave.  Then put the towels out, and another load in the wash.  Not sure I will... oh... I will set up some of the dishes.  And, just maybe, clean off the freezer top, to place clean dishes.

I keep checking the ongoing milk and water kefir, and the attempted various fruit vinegars.  You really need plain fruit, not sulfated... or such.  You can ask for them, try to find them.  But they are as likely to lie as not it seems.  I don't mind if they are sugared, the fermentation will handle that.  I am getting white splotches, which isn't a good thing.  But, so far, I am keeping ahead of that.  Twice a day, just look in.  Part of the trick is getting rid of anything that floats, and the easiest way to get rid of the white stuff is to overflow the jar, down in the sink... with r.o. or other purified water of course.  You can't have bleach in it.  Bleach is good, but not for all things.

Yea.  I'll keep trying.  To do some things, to stay awake into the early afternoon to later afternoon or evening.  Chores, cats, and food... medicine too.  Well, and checking variables.  Oh, bp is 168/105, with a pulse of 80.  The pulse is good.  The rest is trash.  Better than 205/180, I guess.  Meh.  I'll give it to Monday.  Though, perhaps, I should check it after taking it in the evening.  

Actually... since I don't seem to be having adverse reactions (perhaps some swelling in the feet, if that should pass in a few weeks... and some minor extra weariness, which summer seems to burn off somehow), I may try taking it in the morning from now on.  Anyway, I will test it an hour after taking it this afternoon.  Too late to switch when I take it today.

Hmm, oh... turn of duck water, refill the waterers and get those out, with food, to check the rabbits.  Then put the towels out.  Then a break, then a shower and shave and whatever else comes next.  Right... yea...  Ugh.  Later.

It dropped a bit quickly.

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Blood sugar...  It dropped from 264 to 87.  That is a 177 point drop.  Yes, I used a larger dose of insulin, but I ate a medium to large meal as well.  And it wasn't some crazy large dose, just a bit more than the 20 cc's I often use.  I need to eat something more, quickly.  I had kefir, as I felt the slide, before I even tested.  Crashing, terribly, harshly.  Not sure what to eat, but I am avoiding the sugar tabs.  I think those, too, will just as often not cause a problem for a day or two.  Sometimes it jacks blood sugar right away.  Sometimes it takes hours or days.  It is still dropping, I have to do more than kefir.

Hmm... I do have fruit bowls.  Two of those, last time, with kefir, blended into a smoothie, seemed to work fairly well.  No sweetener added, if there is some in the fruit.  Stevia and some other form.  It beats gobbling a roll or three of sugar tabs.  Yes, I'd best get to that before I pass out.  Still dropping.

It was down to 54 outside.  I haven't done much else.  I need to get the waterers reset.  For the closer rabbits, I have plenty, a full resupply for a day, nearly two.  But for the rabbits in the outbuilding, I am out.  They have enough water, out there, for a fully day or two... I checked late last night.  But I want water ready for replacement as needed.

Then a shower and shave?  I did get the upstairs opened, and fans going.  It is down to 72, right here near the computer, with the lights and router and me.  It's almost cold.  But... I'll take that.  Yea, a smoothie, a little time gaming to get my bearings back in trim, then a shower and shave.

As soon as the sun comes up, I'll get the towels out to dry.  I am using an old one, for now.  But all will be washed and sun bleached, cleansed as only the sun can do, for my next shower.  I am trying to wash them after every shower.  If... I... am reluctant to do that.  It seems excessive.  And, yet... it also seems right.  It isn't the work, it's the... use of everything, if too the work.  Bleh.

And, sometime, I will at least get dishes soaking.  Maybe even finish some yet today.  I'll give it a shot.  On to something to eat.  Later.

Dinner and thoughts.

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The leftover pork roast, with the canned beefy mushroom sauce was... quite good.  Would have worked well with the hamburger, with a beef roast, or much else.  I am very happy with that purchase.  I'll just have to see how well, over time, it works with blood sugar.  I am having a beastly time controlling blood sugar, even really eating rightly.  

As a fact, in spite of dosing, just eating kefir (which had been fermented two full days at 75 plus, and in the fridge for three days so should have been solidly beyond having much lactose), and dosing (15 cc's of fast acting insulin), my blood sugar was 264!  The only other thing I consumed was flavored and plain perrier.  Could "natural flavors" be triggering an insulin response?  I have pH strips on order, for next month.  That will help me make sure.  Still, as sour as I like it, it should be nearly out of milk sugar.  Gah!

Anyway...  I best get up, open up the upstairs, soon.

A few things.

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More laundry sorted, if I still need to collect laundry baskets to move the sorted clothes to where I can fold or put them up.  Well, and I want to open the upstairs, s well.  A bit of kefir, now a fatted, unsweetened, coffee.  I figure one or two of those every other day.  Works well.  Plus, it offers actual, good (especially for keto), calories.  Helps stave off hunger, or unreasonable hunger anyway.  Remember, for my size, I am honestly allowed 1800 calories, on a fasting diet.  I'm not sure that is exactly right, though, either.

I had thought to start the sprinkler, in the back yard, but I'll do that tomorrow night.  Watering areas every other, or every third day, and for less than an hour on any spot, except when I lose track.  I should get the mower going tomorrow, at least hit the front thatch.  Maybe the back yard too, if it looks healthy enough for it.

I did check on the critters.  Everyone is looking well.  The cool night is really pleasing for all.  I also checked the water kefir grains.  They really are doing splendid.  So I hurried the cleaning of an half gallon jar, so as to reset the grains into that.

They might actually have nearly doubled, right off the bat.  I am amazed at how many grains there are now.  I am just going to drain the liquid.  And, probably, at least with this next batch, and very probably the one after.  While I am rather thirsty for kefir water, I'd rather go slow and get it right.  At this rate, by the time I get to the third jar, and as I am moving to the fourth, I very well may have enough grains for two half gallon jars!  This stuff is amazing.  And, it was six months past their recommended use-by date.  Interesting stuff.  I may begin freezing little packets, from time to time, and if not used, then replacing after, say, four packets are in circulation.  Just a tablespoon, in a little ziploc.

The water is ready.  It still takes a while to fill a jar.  Now to switch the kefir to the new bigger jar, and sugar and add molasses.  I love... playing with my food.  Later.

A cool one already.

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At 56, and not even midnight yet, it's looking good.  I opened the downstairs, will get the upstairs opened the next time I'm up and around.

I have started on laundry, just "old" stuff, sorting, folding.  A start.  I've actually got it all sorted, I just need to get get a basket or two so as to more easily get the items to their places.  I want that extra freezer open, for water bottles... for now.  I'll do what I can.  Should be able to clear the laundry room, and maybe do a load or two of dirty clothes as well.  Hang them at first light.  Is this a clothing Western?

A shower, too, next time I get up.  And a shave.  As well, any clothes stacked in the bathroom, clean or dirty, will be taken out.  They have been there too long to be comfortably worn.  Then, maybe, some sweeping and mopping.  The toilet I generally keep up on, but the floor is rough.  As well, I could finish cleaning the sink.  Now that I have those ringlet stands for razors and my toothbrush, cleaning that off more frequently will be less of a hassle.  Keeping it up will be easier.

After the shower, setting up several smaller dishpans of dishes, mostly smaller pots and pans, will get that going.  The freezer top, in the kitchen, is mostly open, just needs washed.  So dishes can go through pretty quickly.  And the other counters can be cleaned.

I have been clearing out the really old dairy kefir.  It gets a bit too tangy, even for me.  But that also means I have a lot of kefir brewing, and little on hand.  A temporary thing.  I need to check, stir, and perhaps fill, the vinegars and water kefir.  Juggling glass and goo is an odd thing, but I enjoy... especially the fruits of the toil when it gets there.  

It does look like the water kefir grains are really going.  I may have to transfer that to an half gallon jar.  My worries that the grains weren't going to take off was wrong.  And, the refrigerator/freezer dank smell seems to be going or completely gone.  It was so strong at first!  If it looks to be doing as good as quick glances indicate, I will clear out the old water, sugar, and molasses, and do an half gallon jar up for my little friends.

Something to eat though?  I do have more pork roast.  I've been eating it, four to six ounces at a time.  I also have burger, and ground turkey and pork yet to fry.  As well, I ordered cream of mushroom that is supposed to be low carb.  It has 5 carbs per serving, with 2.5 servings per 12 ounce can.  I'd like to try that, some of the roast, and some veggie or other.  Though, later.  Kefir and insulin, for breakfast... a very light dose, say 12 cc's.  Just a nudge downward... hopefully.

I might be getting back to things, or maybe the cool is just the boost for the moment.  Later.

Six hours down, anyway.

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Odd thing, about upstairs.  When I am not there, it is two degrees warmer than when I am there.  Maybe more on a hotter day.  It doesn't make sense, but there it is.  And I still put out heat like a furnace.  I'm sure it is physics, but physics, at times, can be messed.  Then again, I'm not dead yet, so... I suppose this is a more minor of miracles.

I dreamed that medical could and did tell the truth.  My mother's illness is due to the 'vax'.  While these diseases do occur when people are older, not generally when they are that much older.  No reason to discuss it, with her.  Even if she had irrefutable proof, she would know she was right.  And would be proud of her decision.  If my dream was true.  That was the crux of it.

I also dreamed of a girl from the first highschool I was enrolled.  I didn't date her, but we had love eyes a few too many times.  And she had highschool girl boobs and ass in all the right ways and places, and those eyes that just captured the man which was budding in me.  She had braces, but I wouldn't have cared.  She was so ready.

Half of my flaws, as a young man, was that I already knew far too much.  I also knew I wouldn't... treat her right.  I was looking for sex.  Girls were looking for that too, but to be settled.  Their mothers, and much older sister, on the other hand...  Never mind.  Even those I mostly... escaped past, usually.  After having spent much on nothing, I... even I... had begun looking for more.

Well, celibacy isn't meant to last.  I do what I can, but sometimes, with dreams like "Genie"... *sigh*  I even pray to slow, or stop, it.  And, sometimes that works.  I am still not convinced, without an orchiectomy, perhaps even with it, that pure celibacy is possible.  And we ain't no boy poodle, or tom cat, to be fiddled with.  Besides, this is just until I marry.  Probably isn't going to happen, but... my sex drive is just in mothballs, technically.  It isn't dead, meant to be totally abandoned, or even mine to destroy.  Still, of all the things I have lost, why would this one have been... reserved?  Bleh.  My God, she was a gorgeous, pleasing, slice of fuckable meat.

Blood sugar is high.  Shouldn't be.  My last reads before it were 109, 123, the 148.  In spite of only drinking water from after the 109 reading?  And, after the 148, as I was going to bed I took kefir, a 20 cc shot of the fast acting, and 25 cc's of the slow acting.  It really doesn't make sense.  Did I even eat today?  Other than kefir?  And not much of that... probably three cups... Oh... I know.

I... mixed sweeteners in my coffee.  But early this morning.  Very strange.  I used far less of either than I normally would.  Still, it... seems to trigger a response, just much later, like a delayed bomb.  Very odd.  I guess that theory is debunked too.  The last one to be checked, again, through time delays, is whether sweetening cooked foods, like mug cakes, works to neutralize the effect.  I thought it did, but then I wasn't understanding this delayed reaction thing.  Since it isn't actually a carb, I suppose it takes my body time to react?  Not sure, I just... I can't have sweeteners... not this, not that, not the other.  SOB!  Gah!

Tonight?  Not sure.  A bit rough, around the edges, but nothing like the last few days.  Minor shoulder soreness, a bit of midsection discomfort, a few this and that and those.  All mostly minor.  I am going to take tylenol.  Perhaps it can knock those back, give me a clear shot at some work, and possibly see me back to bed by early morning.

A bit more laundry, a shower and shave, dishes started again, checking on the various kefirs and vinegars I have brewing, the cats, and welfare checks on the feathered and long eared friends and foes out in the yard?  Oh, and rebagging a few trash cans.  I have, at least, be getting those out fairly well.  Keeping ahead.  But, it's only because I have several cans, bagged, using just one at a time.  Live and learn.

Later.

Still awake.

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Not for long.  It is still right at 82 out there.  With wind still going.  Quite a strange thing.  I'll take what I can get of it.

My brother called.  My mother has fallen again.  At least one more time.  And, now, she has the shakes.  He says they have her on medicine for some of the neurological problems.  She really may be in some physical trouble.  She has a surgery coming up, then shortly after a visit with a doctor who specializes in these things.

My brother had to take a bit of time to take a call from his wife, who is with her mother... who is going through chemo... her first dose today.  Not a great time, for us, on several sides of things.  My brother... doesn't handle change, or multiple problems at once, well.  Oh, he'll get through them.  But... it's... not his thing.

Not much I can do.  Pray.  I don't have the coin to go visit home, or I would.  I can call and talk to her.  She wants, if she has to, to go into a nursing home there.  She knows people for a hundred miles around, and more really.  It is where she was raised, and has lived mostly, and most recently by a lot of years.  Still, I'm hoping that isn't required.  We will see.  I hate being stuck here.  But that is the way it is.  Then again, I'm not sure I'll be able to keep my house, either.  So... yeah.

I have been able to be awake fairly well.  It isn't much cooler in here than yesterday.  The outside might be cooler, but that is air flow.  Can't get that inside.  And the sun still strikes immobile objects, and warms them pretty much the same.  Meds have been taken.  As much food has been eaten as possible.  I think it is bedtime.  Didn't make 17:00, but I did make 16:00.  It's a good show, for now.

Good afternoon and night. 

It is still at 80.

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Or was a few minutes ago.  Wind was still at it too.  Very nice.  I am staying awake well, even if it is hitting 80 near the machine, and probably 76 in both rooms generally.  The rooms I have places to do things.  Not very energetic, but that is to be expected.  Until I acclimate to the temperatures better, if possible, doing little is sort of how it has to go.

I am hoping to make a call yet today.  I would like to have gotten out, and to the stores.  I just don't see that happening.  But I am breaking into the day time hours.  Whether I can keep that schedule, who knows.  It's a... goal... plan... hope?  I took morning medicine early enough that I can take afternoon pills soon.  Just so I don't forget.

I think of calling my mother.  But she really seems moody lately, at least when I call.  Rather... mean spirited.  So, I'll... just... wait.  

Oh, tore my leg open... somehow... last night.  Not sure when, or even a clue as to how.  I bumped it a number of times, but didn't think the bumps were that bad.  It is rare that I hurt myself, or get hurt.  Thick skinned.  but I was out, in the night, wrestling with hoses and this and that.  A branch, twig, something... is my guess.

Well, on to... I don't know.  I think I really am through with Resident Evil Village.  I have done what I can do.  I know someone who may wish to play it.  Besides, I'd like to see what he and his friends can do.  Whether they think it is too stupid hard to be worth the bother as well.  It was fun, for a while.  It isn't even worth finishing on the hardest level.  Either it's all r&g, badly balanced against the player, or my social credit score is bad with them, and they make it impossible.  Don't kid yourselves, leftists track you better than you cover.  And they make many of these games, even if the clients keep them shut up.  It doesn't mean they can keep them from damaging game play for specific people.  Not worth the effort.  Poor design, implementation, or sjw'ism.

Meh, I do have games with more play to them.  Later.

Nearly 11:00, and 80 out there.

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I'm not sure, but I think this is cooler than this time of day usually is... or, at least since it started hitting the 90's regularly.  Something in the air, it just... feels cooler out there.  A cooler 80, while last night was a warmer 70.  Odd how things work out.  A lot of particulate in the air last night.  Maybe it is still in the air, but higher, today?  Very strange.  It's been like that the last several nights.  Close to the house, I don't notice.  It's when I head out to the outbuilding, to check on those rabbits, that I see in the flashlight beam or beams.  Sometimes I have a flashlight, sometimes a headlamp, sometimes both.

It is up to 78 in this front room, near the computer, if probably 76 as a whole.  Strangely, the living room is, was, 75 after the sun came up.  This room was still 72.  I just don't get how that works.  Not really tired, slightly hungry?  Yea, but I couldn't eat much last night.  I made a decent spread, but just couldn't eat.  As with sleeping, I think the heat has me off my feed and sleep.  It would be nice if it would take a few pounds off.  But my body seems to just slow my already glacial metabolism when I stop or slow eating.  I had hoped kefir would help, but it really doesn't.  Not with that.

Clouds look to be trying to rebuild, or are arriving on the wind.  And the wind is pretty steady and cooling.  Not quite darkening, but slightly shaded out there.  It helps.  I really enjoy days like today.  I may be able to stay up until this evening.  The cool helps, but that isn't all of it.  A running headstart, somehow.  I have been fighting the heat, and losing.  But have been looking for my chance.  This might be it.

Hmm, kefir.  That would be good.  Blood sugar is 128 currently, so all good.  I keep checking, because I kept expecting it to drop.  If often does when I get near 100.  All good.  I won't bother testing until bedtime, if I stay awake until 17:00.  Otherwise I won't bother.  Later.

As one good thing goes, another arrives.

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The clouds, which brought the temp down a bit early, have mostly vanished.  Evaporated, I suspect, by the blazing sun.  A breeze, sometimes full wind, has picked up.  A cool wind.  I didn't check the temp, but it felt nice, especially in the shade, when I checked on the critters one more time.

No one needed anything, but many of them got a short massage.  Hazel hissed and was in no mood for it, but she got some loving anyway.  To be honest, they were all a bit moody.  If it heats up, I will get them a frozen bottle per cage, except for the double.  They will get two.  I don't want them, potentially, fighting over it.

It is almost time to call the health food store.  I just want to see if they have stopped the mask baloney.  If they have, I'll stop in from time to time.  I need to find a kombucha container.  I suppose an half gallon jar will do, and I have a few.  It's... just... I'd like to do it right, and have a vessel for a scoby hotel.  I do have bottles, but they need to be cleaned.  Just dusty, at this point.

I found two packs of water kefir grains, frozen, in the fridge freezer.  They are out of date, by six months.  And they smell of 'refrigerator' or 'freezer' odor.  But, who knows.  I added sugar, molasses, and both packets, in case they don't have much viability.  If they take off, I'll put them in an half gallon jug or jar.

I probably won't consume the first batch or three.  Just to get rid of the freezer odor.  Which is fine.  The nice thing about kefir water is that, in warmer weather, it takes as little as two days to go through a whole process.  Even if only a quarter of the grains are capable, in a week I should have triple to quadruple the starting portion, which is easily enough to kick out an half gallon to gallon every few days.

The difficult part about water kefir is bottling the stuff.  As I remember, the trick that often isn't suggested, is putting a few dehydrated pieces of fruit into the bottle, letting that ferment on the counter for a few days further, burping it along the way, then put in the fridge for a few days to a week.  That makes the best low-carb soda you can imagine, minus caffeine even.

Still, it is difficult keeping up on fermenting, bottling, second fermenting, and cleaning it all out and starting all over again.  Though, to be honest, my house stays (usually) below 75, and a lot less than the 85 that is optimum.  So it usually takes more like three or four days, and longer if I want it richer.  Even that is a lot of work.

Oh, to call that store.  One can only hope they have stopped letting the idiots rule their business.  Then again, often, it's those people who shop there.  There is that.  As it turns out, they no longer require the mask, even for their employees (thankfully... always felt bad for those who had to).  And they do have raw kombucha, in stock.  Ugh...  Maybe I can make it tomorrow?  At least I know, but things change, quickly.  Bleh.

Blood sugar is 109.  It was 105 half way between this read and the 123 reading.  Well... okies.  I'll take that, gladly.

I have been trying to keep up on shaving and brushing, and doing fairly well.  Showering as well, if that can be hit or miss.  I need to get some things, from several stores.  Just not sure I can, today, even tomorrow.  You have no idea what it means to not be able to just get and go, often.  I do my best.  I haven't died yet, or... again... or for lack of getting and going.  But diabetes isn't helped by eating shelf-stable foods, or some things in excess.  Anyway... I'll... get to it when I can.

Good morning and day.  I... am zooming on coffee, trying to make it not night, not quite yet.  I'll try to hit early afternoon if possible.  Later, hopefully.

Well? Won't be to bed for a while.

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Once again, I just can't sleep.  It has cooled off a goodly bit.  Well, to 70 and 72 in this warmer room.  Some sort of milder weather is moving through.  Partly cloudy.  The temperature outside dropped to 56 or so.  I am not sure if that is my problem with sleeping, or if it... just... happened.

I did finish chores.  More feed was needed than anticipated, and less water.  I only had to change two waterers.  Very strange.  The ducks were hungry, and thirsty.  Not much to them.  But the rabbits take time.  The rabbits do have a better potential for meat production though, too.

A few mosquito bites, or something.  Somewhat surprised they are out and about at this temp, and before sunlight really did more than peak over.  I suppose they are about to begin getting started.  Which is why they are beginning to spray for those pests this week.

I may try to stay awake long enough to make a few phone calls.  Perhaps do some work.  Oh, to get the towels out on the line.  I washed them, again, last night... to include the last towel.  All four need to go out.  Sun drying, at least towels, is awesome.  They really absorb water from that, and act as a male version of the luffa.  Loofa?  Something.

Well, on to... something.  Until I can make those calls.  Later.

Couldn't get to sleep.

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I did eat, something.  Not much.  Insulin with it.  And slow acting insulin in there eventually too.  Should have taken it earlier, but I'm not in good shape to keep up on things.  It is at 60 this morning, but that isn't cooling the house much.  I sort of have to cool enough, or become exhausted enough, to sleep.  It may be nearing.

However, I wish to stay up, at this point, long enough to do chores while it is still cool.  I'll need to grab another bag of rabbit feed.  There were a few looking to be out or just about.  I checked while I was out doing messing with the sprinkler and hoses.  I don't think the waterers are too low, but if they are, in the morning I replace them just in case.  I don't want them going thirsty.  I don't mind them being hungry over night, but I want them to be are rarely thirsty as possible.

I have been playing Resident Evil Village.  I'm not sure if the devs can make it so some players can't get through.  But I can't get through.  Maybe I am too old, but I've had this happen with some games before.  Usually it was defined as a bug, but this is just impossible.  I think they do attack some people.  It is based on social scores.  Either that or they are breaking their games, making them unplayable for even reasonable players.  Yes, it could be either, maybe both.  I can't recommend the game, unless you are a solid liberal.  Though even that won't save you, if you take the wrong stance on one wrong thing.

I have to be awake for a few more hours though.  I may have to put REV away, and get Cyberpunk out and back in.  Just something to do while I try not to sleep.  I could almost sleep now, but then I wouldn't be able to get up in time to do chores while it is still cool.  I'd probably not make it back up until this evening.

Later, I guess.  Stuck.  But it's the way it goes.

Yeah, it really is warm.

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It is just hitting 68 out there.  At 03:32, that's not a good sign.  It is pretty normal for summer.  And summer didn't start as early as usual.  I suppose I can't complain.  But I do!  The ac has been running for a while, upstairs.  And it has been closed off.  While it worked that one day, it was cooler outside.  Today, leaving the door open will ruin the cooling happening up there.

The alarm went off, to turn the water off out there, a while ago.  I'm just not doing the best, so didn't fully understand... didn't have the energy to do much about it.  It's been turned off.  As well, I moved the sprinkler to near where I'll be setting it up tomorrow.  I also disconnected the hose which was leaking.  More tape did no good.  I am sure there are repair kits, but to be honest, I haven't been all that impressed with them.  Not sure they are worth the money and time.  Still, I might try one more shot.  Maybe.

Hungry, need something else, I just don't have anything easily available.  Sardines.  I had some.  But those are too rich to eat to a full state.  One can is pushing it.  And, kefir, of course.  But that just isn't substantial enough.  I need something more.  Already had roast pork, not interested in more.  Gah!  I'll... look around.  Maybe there is something.  Either way, after that project is figured, one way or the other, it'll be bed, or nap, time.

Good morning and night.

The shower helped, for a bit.

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It just isn't cooling off out there though.  It reads 64~65, but feels more like 70.  The inside is getting to 74~75, at least downstairs.  I doubt if upstairs is any better.  Oh well.  I did shave and tend the teeth while at it all.  I would like to eat something, while at it.  I had a small dose of pork roast.  Not sure what else is available.

The lawn is on the last portion for watering.  I forgot to set the timer, for the last section.  But set it this time.  That area might have gotten a longer run, but it probably needs it.  I'll give it a couple of days, then mow?  Maybe.  I need to tend twigs, and larger branches, but... yeah... in this heat?  When it isn't too hot, I am sleeping, unless it is too dark.

Brutal out there.  I remember, that first day it got to 78, then 80, and it felt good to finally have it warm.  Then it went to 96 and is that, plus or mind small change, every day.  Yea.  I may get something to eat, then try to sleep for a bit.  I'd like to get chores first thing.  And be up into the day a bit.  Probably setting up the ac upstairs a bit before bedtime... sometime around noon?  I'd like to have some daylight.  Do what I can.

Now to just let the lawn get some water, get some food in, and perhaps take medicine while eating.  Then a shorter or longer nap.  Hmm... best put the ac on upstairs right as I go to set up dinner.  Or sleep will be bad, again.  Later.