Tough day.

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It is raining, again, so the lawn will not get mowed. It is a bitterly cold rain too. My vehicle was out, and since it looked like hail and high wind could occur, I decided to get the Xterra in. The barefoot rain dance was refreshing though! If I was feeling up to it, I might really enjoy hopping around the yard. Then again, that cold is a bit hard to take, given the heat of late. Or I have become weak.

I was only able to get a little done today. I am so tired. I thought a nap would help, but I seem to tired to even sleep! So, I have been halfway between wakefulness and sleep. I was able to attempt the enchilada casserole my aunt taught me. I did, actually, make the casserole. But, it was no where near the quality she offered. It is tasty but it is not authentic, or even pretty. One of my main problems, perhaps my only problem, was the sauce. Her sauce was thick but still liquid. Mine ending up looking more like playdo or clay (it tasted better than those, at least).

I have some ideas about what I did wrong. I may have to call her, and my mother, and see if they have some ideas. I am sure they will know what I did wrong. Talking to both of them just allows me to hear what I did wrong in two different ways. Neither of them like me all that much, though. So, thank heavens for love. As I said, it was at least tasty. But it will not satisfy my hunger for the real thing.

I was able to get a few things done, and the day is not over. I am going to try and take a nap. Maybe I can wake in a few hours and do a bit more. Doing things on my own, it is difficult to know how well I am pacing. Perhaps I am doing what could be reasonably expected. Maybe I am being too hard on myself, and perhaps pushing would just end up being more of a problem than a help. Sometimes I feel so blind. I just cannot be sure about anything, it seems, at times.

Have a good afternoon.