Doh!

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Back to the beginning, in more ways then one. After fighting to get through the sleepiness and flu symptoms, not only is my body weak again, but now I find sleep elusive again too! Maybe I should not fight so hard, eh? *laughs* I promise, I am not building my house on sand, it is the earthquakes that plague my house! I will, with this as well, reconquer and contain, dominate and prevail. So says the lion mouse, give or take.

I keep learning, in every direction, from blogs, my interests, and my new found functioning. I am amazed at the world out there, the world that had been passing me up for so long. I have learned new bits about coffee, little pieces of information about fly fishing, a byte or two regarding guns and gunsmithing and upkeep, the bible and what it says, and many other topics. On the bible, actually I do know much. Reading and re-reading that as a child and into my teens, I really did grok it. But, as it suggests, the Holy Spirit guides one to new insights and often when actively reading it.

I may still be living in a lower functioning life, in that I am not earning an income and finally living on my own merits. I may not ever get to that point or, if things hold in that they continue to improve, I may actually become employable and employed in a few years. Whatever the case, I will not again be encased in solitude and frozen in life. Of that I am sure. If it is this place, so be it. If it was merely my will to seek and that I was rewarded for my effort, that is okay. Whatever the source of this new chance and opportunity, I am grabbing it by the horns and going for the ride of my life.

Find your bull and grab on. I cannot tell you it will not be bumpy, I will not claim it is all fun and games. But if you have the strength left in you, or even if you do not as I did not, head where you know it to be. The rest will just happen. I have never quit, if I took rests, after I realized I was here for purposes that were not my own and that it was not for me to give or take. LIFE IS GOOD. Eat it up before it spits you out.

Hmmm, can I haz my sleep nows? Ugh! *laughs*