Just not getting it.

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I just cannot get anything done. I am not sure how much the medicine is the problem, but it is more complicated than that. Since they were not sure I would be taking the medicine, they sent none of it through the mail and when I went in for the appointment, they gave me none. So, I ran out of medicine (as I told them I would only to receive a "So what!" look). How much cutting cold turkey from a medicine I have had to fight to take is a factor, I cannot tell. Something else about the treatment. I went online and looked up the medicine. I did not look at general information this time, but went to a place that gave very specific information. What I learned was the reason the woman had not heard about people having the reactions I had was because those are warning signs which suggest the taker should call their doctor regarding. I need to call and talk to a doctor, not a social worker or a nurse practitioner, about these effects. I am not sure that will get done, on my side or theirs though. Is this part of how Bane died, medication ignorance on the part of his doctors? Perhaps that is intended, perhaps it just does not matter?

There is nothing to be done about hacking. Against the law, yeah, so is marijuana everywhere and spitting on the streets in San Fransisco, I suppose. It just looks good on the books and made some constituents happy without meaning anything. Unless, of course, the law wants to mess with you, then it is applied. So, I suppose, unless the hacker is in their sights for something else, nothing is done. And, do not bother your ISP, they are busy creating more hackable customers.

Nothing will be done, again, today. So be it. I did set the alarm but simply could not rise. Part of my problem though, is when I hit the snooze, I think I also switched the thing over to radio. The radio is useless in waking me up. With just fuzz and crackle, I drift right back to sleep. If it is on a channel, that just drifts me into dreams.

I was awake late, again, though. I lost track of time reading the last of Psalms and well into Proverbs. I have started to note the books, chapters, and verses I really like or which speak to me. Some of it is quite stirring. I should have thought of this earlier, but I will revisit much of this. It is not always simply the verses in my favor, either. Nor is it just the verses which bolster my causes. No, I also write the numbers of the ones which call me to pay attention, which question or prohibit my actions or beliefs. There is much to learn and I have much to learn. To be honest, the vast majority of verses call me to correction. Some of them I will eventually transcribe to places I look daily. Others, the longer ones, I will eventually attempt to memorize. The shorter ones may be memorized too, but that is not exactly a difficult task, now is it?

And, yes, I was pleased with Psalms, as D.C. indicated I might be! Not that it is important in the overall scheme of things, but it was very good reading. Though David was very militant, which surprises me in some ways. As D.C. indicated, God did seem to favor him (if historians (within the bible) did not, so much). He was always, it seems, either at war without or within his kingdom. Now, he did always supplicate, but too he always suggested that he himself was blameless. He is troubling figure for me because he reminds me of someone else I know and have only so much trust in, if I am not a king. Doh! Well, now you know why I feel the way I do, along with the rest and now in full.

I suppose I will get back to reading. With all the enemies around me, whispering falsely online in my tongue, steeling into my computer, and trying to poison me with medicine. Ha!