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I was actually starting to think I might not wake up this morning, or again. That was some weird doings yesterday. It sure looked like symptoms for a possible heart attack. I hadn't mentioned the occasional cold sweats along with the other stuff. And possibly I did have some. Hard to tell. For as sick as I am, people who meet me are rather surprised. I just don't seem sick I guess. I think doctors have a problem with that too? All symptoms are gone this morning.
If I am having some off days, one thing that has changed is celibacy is much more difficult to maintain. I was doing good, mostly, but when I started to feel a bit more chipper, than a lot better, and even as that has faded a bit, keeping a lid on things has been a severe test. One of the docs suggested that a man in just my condition killed himself trying to satisfy his woman. I didn't, but I should have told him that man was not in my condition. Unless he went for two hour back to back marathon rodeos. When I sin, it takes me a half an hour to an hour and a half and not back to back but initially I was doing that a time or three a day until I could rein it in. Now every other day... I... mess up, that using all the restraint I can summon. I've got some libido, even a good woman couldn't keep up enough to kill me. Doctors might know illness but they sure don't know one man from his junior counterparts. Just... saying.
A bit more of a relaxed day today. I haven't been able to budge on when I get to bed, but I was able to get up a bit earlier today. I still struggle with sleep a bit, but it is more manageable in that I can work around it by staying up longer if need be. Tomorrow I will probably be heading in early. I'm taking my pal along. Sometimes he likes to shop the reloading stores. He has a couple of things in mind, as do I. I'm sort of broke though, but there is always window shopping, books, or such.
On to goofing. I would like to get back onto dishes before they pile on back to where they were when I started. I never did quite get them done, just ran out of steam. Have a great day.
One thing that makes me nervous about beta blockers--they do their job, but you get a "rebound" effect if you stop them suddenly.
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I guessed. After having been on a ton of different medicine, I sort of assume that. I used to freak my doctors out by just quitting cold turkey, including 3 a day insulin shots, often but not always without affect. But this was more like a triple rebound. Meh, it was something new and now I have an idea what I will be going through should I not have my medicine and I didn't die from it. Still, I think it set me back a bit. Med tenders are cheap enough. I think I did two weeks at a time the last time I gave some effort to this junk.
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