Something finally clicked.

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Discussing the Church and man, women and men, and considering sometimes true and sometimes false notions of Christianity, I have started to realize some things. Many people, solid Christians, in committed relationship, often have a great deal to overcome to actually become conservative. Strictly speaking, being any one of those to any depth, is quite the challenge. Husbands are constantly negotiating with their wife and to some extent their children. People are lead in a direction by their faith leaders and their own perceptions, with regards to faith, that are sometimes quite contrary to their natural instincts which can be for good or ill. And being conservative means understanding tough love. I don't bother with calling it love, per se. I don't suggest ending food stamps is loving, for example. I see it as simply morally correct to not take money from a worker to pay a woman to have children outside of the bounds of a relationship which supports a child. No love involved. Wisdom, perhaps. Truth, of course. And many things mixed in like the paints on a palette, but love is not but a very small part of it and usually coming from other things like justice.

Marriage, as I have suggested, is a means of modifying man. With the balance of power having shifted, not away from man so much as away from marriage itself, men are further unbalanced by marriage. What is it socialists and communists announce? Ah, from within and from without, from bottom and from top. That is why so many married men are... frozen into being less than forthright and they are pulled into weakness. Their houses are built upon sand. Some believe they ride the alpha train, or even the omega, which might be true in their own little part of some part of their shared world, but the truth is they are merely given an allowance for that. Both in the good way of old and the real way of the new.

The Church continues to bath in femininity. That is an aspect of it's nature, as the Bride of Christ. But that many churches allow for a female actor to play Christ in Flesh, that even those which don't continue to make women more and more an integral part of their leadership and participation, the reality, here too, has been broken. Between men backing off and women stepping up the issue becomes rather extreme.

Yes, reading blogs and news and other information, I was disturbed at how liberal married, Christian, self ascribed conservative men were seeming. It all seems to fit, though, now. Of course, too, the internet is swimming with post-menopausal liberals. Educated people who, having realized liberalism was wrong, a decadence, and immoral or amoral, are attempting to change sides. Much of what they think, how they react, and what they even think is possible in the way of change, is tainted by their past. Many are still quite liberal, they just don't like it. Using the powers of the dark side they have always known, they shield themselves by saying they are conservative out of a demand in their lives for logic, truth, and such, but they can't quite make it to functional conservativism so they lie to themselves and to others.

Ah, okay. I am... much more comfortable understanding why people where saying 2 + 2 = 19 now. I still don't like it, but at least it is making more sense. Oh, and by the way, punch me in the face, as a solid Christian, and the only cheek I will turn is yours. And it will hurt. Just... saying. Don't even try any of that crap sandwich bologna here.