I either ask the wrong or the right questions.

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I think it depends on which side of the aisle you are on. No, not whether you like my questions, but how you are offended by them. From professor to fellow citizen to priest, from mother to girlfriend to socialite, from libertarian to liberal to conservative, I seem to be in great disfavor. I don't necessarily mean to cause a ruckus, I think, I just want to know why something is believed, where the truth of it originates, and I notice things most people either don't notice or do not see any point in discussing.

Actually, I think what this tells me is that most people are quite alike. They will let other people slide if other people will let them slide. Keeping it within groups, though. So a conservative wouldn't let a liberal slide unless the liberal had something over on the conservative. Detente seems to be the preferred method of aggression. As much so that people can continue to do whatever the heck they want while still holding their 'enemies' at bay. No one likes the 'nuclear' option. The people with the power of the button instead see it as a means of self-enrichment or allowance. Fat and lazy, spiritually, morally, socially. As a line, with the same implications, in a song I like states it "...and everybody knows".

It wouldn't even be so bad if people kept it to themselves. But they don't. Whether it is in Church or in school, to various degrees, I am sometimes treated poorly. I don't believe, for example, that a priest can be a priest now and an active gay man later. And, yes, it is an issue. I don't believe a priest can be right and suggest that the pill is just fine, and not a sin. I don't believe a professor, who often works quite little and teaches poorly, should have a job guaranteed for life. Nor do I believe they should be able to take credit for the work of their undergraduates or be allowed to fudge their data. And I say it and write it. Among other things. At least with priests, things are changing. So many were taught incorrectly during the 'age of aquarius' that it will take a generation or two to fix things, definitely in the US Church. I don't trust priests my age, give or take a decade to generation. I abide them, as the Church does, but I do not trust.

I would guess I upset both men and women, who in these times believe sexuality is an individual choice and should be a personal thing. Who is having sex with whom is the business of no one but the participants. Psychologists seem to be trying to include children as participants.

Yes, yes, flaws I have, indeed. But I have noted those, easily and fully. The sum total of, and some examples of, my failings can be found here. Somewhere. I don't think there is a single thing I have seen in my life that was wrong that was not written here. But that doesn't change the fact that I can clearly see what is wrong, in my life or another. Nor does it mean, because I have done wrong, that a wink and a nod works. And for this I pay, and will continue to pay. This has effected academic pursuits, social connections, family ties, religious affiliations, and even medical treatment if wisdom is my guide. While it hasn't killed me yet, it would not surprise me to see it happen. While a milder form of it, more indirect, we now live in a form of the U.S.S.R. Mediocrity and sin are licensed by mutual allowances, and those who do not play that game our "out".

To be honest with you, once I realized my fix? I prefer it. Even if it does end up killing me. Maybe more so. No, not a saint. But I am certainly working on it.

As for getting to town today, I am not sure that will happen. I have swept the kitchen, and am tinkering here and there, but I am just not on top of my game. I'm not even really playing the game. Like one of the never used or even possibly needed flippers on a fancy old pinball machine, I just flap once in a while just because, I suppose. Ugh.

Have a great day.