Call me suspicious.

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I am pretty sure my mother fed 'the girls' any time they meowed just a bit. I know I stopped feeding them because I suspected such would occur. Now even Sam is looking for food every time I pet her. Though Sam almost never used to beg, my mother's skirt socialism kicked in and she just wouldn't feed Sassy without feeding Sam too, regardless if Sam asked or not. Oh, I'll get the girls back into line shortly. But for now I hear "Meow" so often I will dream about it. It's okay. Everyone needs just such a grandmother. Christmas came early for the rugrats.

There is a definite chill tonight. I was starting to wonder why it was so cold inside though. Usually my home, with me and a couple of light bulbs, is sufficiently warm when the weather turns this slight fall chill as the day and night are. Ah, but I left the window through which I had hailed the missionaries open. Though it was only open a few inches, that window faced the chill breeze coming through. I closed the window and turned the furnace on for the first time, just to 68 F, though it will automatically go down to 64 or so for sleeping. I do enjoy automated... everything!

I am having to try and figure my life out anew. My mother called this evening. I think I am not alone in my sense of aloneness. She has it worse, Cheyenne, her dog, is still with the people she left her with. For me, I have no one to... remind me... of things to do. And while that can be a bit daunting at times, there are certain elements of it that are good. I'll figure it out.

The insurance company settling for their client called yesterday and suggested that with about $4.4k in medical, they would like to settle for $5.1k, out of which the medical must be paid. I am not sure if they are joking or if medical payouts have changed. I will be discussing this with a lawyer. While I hate the notion of ambulance chasers, I hate the greed of corporate insurers. I have it on reasonable authority (a lawyer and medical provider from early on) that the payment should be (normally) double and a half the medical. My situation might even allow for more, since it greatly complicated my move and required a great deal of travel expenses (which were not reimbursed). If they had paid me normal, they would have saved themselves a lot of trouble and expense. Now they get to pay for a lawyer, court costs, much more than an average claim, and the rest. I sometimes wonder if they do what they do merely to keep lawyers employed? Insane, but none of my affair as to why.

I really do need to get back to Church and start looking for a right wife. I like the company, mostly. And I can plainly see what a woman's touch does for the place. It's a rough row to hoe but a good woman is very much worth the effort. Like I said though, a right woman. A woman who can, will, and does tend the home. I am not sure women are capable of being right to a man's way of thinking, but that isn't all bad at all. I'd say, in the right way, it's about fifty fifty, if you don't mind me liking my own side more in any case. You like yours, I'll like mine. Oh, she is out there. Just waiting to mess up my life. :p

Good night.