I don't believe that ignorance is bliss.

.
.
Perhaps remaining ignorant that a plane you are going down, or the vehicle you are in just went over a cliff, for as long as possible, is how some people would prefer to live their lives. To be honest, there is little or nothing I can do to alter any dark reality, that is true, at least in the bigger sense of things. What I can do, or have the potential to do, is to alter the outcome for me to some degree. If the stores have no food, shipping stops, my ability to go for food dissipates, but I have a year of food stored because I saw it coming, then I have changed my lot. Even if I realized there is nothing I could do, say an iron type meteorite the size of Texas wide and thick, heading right toward... well, anywhere on earth... I would still want to know.

Today was rough. I couldn't get to sleep until very late. I woke, considering, quite early. I have been very tired all day. My mother has been as well. I made us a late lunch, slowed by that dratted brown rice taking a good bit over an hour to cook. I can't be sure it was quite done even then. Perhaps I have forgotten what rice tastes like. I have pretty much only eaten short or long whole grain rice for many years now, but haven't had a bite of it for six months or more due to illness. The rest of the meal was just leftovers (at her insistence). Oh, I know. I will make supper too, later, when my mom is hungry. And I told her I will do the dishes as well. My mother doubts, but if she is a bit patient, I do many things. Her deal is she wants it now and her way. I have learned not to try that with myself. It doesn't work. Windows, remember? That's as good as it gets.

No trip today. As I said, my mother is quite tired. I have a hair cut tomorrow, and she will be going in as well. She wants to get one as well, for her trip home, if she can. Before the appointment, I want to get in and look over a new phone. I am looking at the Android Bionic. I am so torn on it. I do notice that many cases for it offer a screen protector, built right in. Now, my X has hands free wifi built into the stereo system, and yet I would still like this to go with it. These smartphones are now so delicate and always were sort of slick, difficult to hold. I am hoping to keep the thing, for the most part, in it's case on my belt. Then again, my first smart phone cost a lot more. Actually, my first cellphone cost a small fortune (the very first flip-phone, a brick of a Motorola nearly 20 years ago).

Now, my problem is texts, which I don't want but have no choice if someone sends one (and have to pay), keeping track of how much 4G access I have left/have used (and difficulty using wifi, even when it is available it seems), and the whole lot of complications, bugs, and such. I will either go with this phone or simply dump smartphones altogether and just get a do-nothing camera-less phone, like what my mother got (and wanted). Yeah, I am not quite sure. I like many of the features of a smartphone, I just don't like having little control of potentially crazy costs, hacking, and the rest. Oh, don't think your Iphone/pad, Android, or BlackBerry is safe. Heck, the people who sold it too you are just as likely to be creeping around in your private life as some hacker unhappy ex-employee or Chinamanchurian.

Just thinking out loud. Later or good night.