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I enjoyed that little... thing... at the post office recently. While I enjoyed it for what it seemed to be I brushed it off. I assumed that these young ladies had read my blog, realized I was the author (more or less), and just were blushing and acting funny because of that. And it still might be. My blog, at times, can be rather forward. And I probably come across rather strongly. Perhaps I am simply seen as a chauvinist pig to many women, but some women are beginning to appreciate that in some odd way. Well, and some women don't see it that way. In any case, that is how I dealt with that.
While that may or may not be the case, while I was in town today I got hit with several more loads of that. I guess I just don't get out often enough to see how women react to me, around me. While the locals can be discounted as being blog fans, or at least readers, I have some great doubts about women in Ogden at a McDonalds having read me, or at a store, or here or there. It's almost scary. Perhaps they are just being kind to a tall old man, for all I know. But it still... spooks me a bit.
The thing is, no matter how good that first reaction, I am still left to corral that interest into something more. I have forgotten the first thing about that. But I do know I don't want to, as in the past, willy-nilly, just find a random woman. I want to know for sure she is free to... choose. Then that she is worth my efforts. I sense the Church doesn't accept me, actually. I will find no help there. I guess I will just have to build up and begin looking and snooping on my own. I don't care if she is as hot as a starlet, true as a saint, right as rain, if she... isn't the one she won't do. If these recent events have any fact in them, I can choose. If I can't choose I will skip the process.
If nothing else it does give me hope. Heck, one of them, if I had to bet my bottom teeth, was geared as a lesbian for heavens sakes! A middle aged woman. She sure let me know she appreciated the fine hunk of, to her, man-bull she saw. Wouch. A lesbian?!? The others were youngish attractive women, in their 20's. What am I doing right/wrong? I'm not even going to try and tinker with it though. It seems to work just fine. I just had to get this out.
Oh, I may be taking my blog private. If what I had thought was true about the interwebz isn't, there is no real reason to share. We will see.
If I may cast a seed of doubt, it seems unlikely to me that you would be read that widely. They're just reacting to what they see.
ReplyDeleteYou can know for sure with a bit of code on your site. Go here: http://www.sitemeter.com/ get an account and drop the code they generate for you somewhere on your sidebar. You can then go back and see how many people read, where they are reading from, how they got to your site, and a few things about the computer they are reading from. From that information you can deduce much.
And yes, it does appear you have the freedom to choose. Sift through those kittens and find the best of the litter!
ReplyDeleteOh, no, I have zero belief that what happened in Ogden today involved any readers of this blog. I don't believe a single woman there would have been a reader here, no way. That would require some significant readership, which I know I don't have. Locally, it is plausible, perhaps likely, that those women read here. Well, okay, only much more plausible than a random selection of women in a far away city.
ReplyDeleteWhat does remain, in doubt, is what I perceived. I have known more than a dozen men who always believed women where 'giving them the eye' or otherwise seemed to believe what was happening to be personal when, to my notions, it was nothing more than a waitress trying to get a tip or such. And often, from my perspective, I saw nothing like real interest. My question is, have I become a horny old dude type? Those creepy guys who believe women are all interested. A legend in my own mind? Yes, I have to doubt. Simply put, I can't quite believe.
Not that it matters. As I said, either I will choose or I will simply go without. I don't negotiate.
As for Sitemeter, I know of them and have, or had, a profile there. The thing with that is that I know how, easily, to dodge that. To prevent my reading/writing on my blog from clogging the profile, I simply didn't allow their cookies. I was/am invisible on their site in spite of having (or having had) an account with a blog site configured with them.
The "manage" tab has an option to ignore visits from the specific browser you're working from. But it does require that cookie to be set to ignore.
ReplyDeleteYeah, that manage tab never worked for me. Then again, before FireFox (and even with it to a degree), I don't really know how to set up specific cookies, one way or the other. NoScript has made it somewhat simpler to weed out specific cookies and requests, look them up sometimes to see how trustworthy or fail they are, and then choose to allow or not. I simply have sitemeter dissallowed.
ReplyDeleteTo be honest, no matter what I can do, on computers, there is much I can't do, don't know. Further, I really don't want to know. I tried to keep up, before, but keeping on top of it was a full time job. I would fall behind, then have to work like the dickens to catch back up, and mostly still be in the dark. A formal education, I think, would almost be required. I can barely get the dishes done, so... count me out.