Trying to smooth out life?

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I think I dreamed again last night, again of fighting. I don't remember much, just what I have written. And I seriously cramped in my lower legs. I am wondering if I have been cramping in my dreams but not remembering it. My possibly sprained ankle... I think the cramps are keeping it from getting better. The pace in my dreams... Being tight all the time, both in sleep and while awake... I am almost surprised, after a week or two of these dreams most nights that I haven't had a heart attack. I must not be as vulnerable to that as I thought.

I was discussing women, and their humor (or as I have suggested lack of it). And, yeah, I do love making women laugh. Even the ones who "hate me". *laughing* Oh, and edgy humor is the absolute best. Getting a woman to break down and almost pee her pants, especially when she tries hard not to (though that mood can make it easier), that is something I really like. Unlike some men, I love a woman with a deep solid sense of humor, too. I don't even mind being one of the targets if she captures my occasional stupidity right. But too, I like to be able to make a woman cry. I like knowing her buttons. Don't tell me you are just 'the funniest woman ever', show me. If I stick with a woman I will know, or learn, how to turn all her various reactions on. She will laugh, oh yes she will. She will cry too, right down to her soul.

Since ignoring the fight themes doesn't seem to fix the problem I am going to try desensitizing. The movie 300 might help. Yesterday it was Screamers (not the silly college ones) and earlier it was Hellboy. I am amazed at how many similarities there are between Hellboy and myself, cutting out the fiction, mostly. Clint Eastwood and John Wayne don't quite cut it. Captain and Commander, Hellboy, and a few others are more amenable to my needs these days. I don't watch sports or boxing in particular anymore. I think too much of it is rigged. Well, on to my show. Then, maybe, if the Lord is willing to give this poor fool a break, on to bed.

Good night.