WOW! Just wow!

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Oh, nothing too fancy.  It is just that for the first time in... weeks? months?  I am awake.  I am actually fully awake.  I think my body has been hacked too, unlocked, maybe even over-clocked.  It seems to be... at my command again.  This morning is chill.  I wondered if that might be it, but no.  Like when it was hot and I was really down, it wasn't in the end the heat at all.  And more it has been chilly for... a while now, in the early morning.  I just couldn't tell, didn't know, couldn't feel.  The Lord knows I love days like this.  Carpe Sulum Diem

And, I have things to do.  I need to get to town, maybe get to Mass if my mind and body can coordinate.  I then need to do something about my vehicle tags.  And finally I need to get my friend out.  I don't know if he has something scheduled today and I don't know how long this will last.  I can only try with what I have, right?  Son, this is wonderful.  This isn't how every day needs to be, but it is how I believe most people live.  If they don't start out this way they have to achieve at least this level or they would not be able to work.  This is absolute minimum for most of you, and it won't last long, but I have it right now.

I have to remember, about what people think regarding my words, that most people live a very secular life and squirrel away from the truth when it goes against what they feel.  One of my serious detractors is a former psychologist.  The problem is one of her heroes is a psychologist who has, in his words, changed his ways.  While I did misinterpret something written by him or about him and got directly angry about it, I still suspect him of having burned people in the field as a professor for political reasons and those alone.  And, if push came to shove, I suspect he continues to do so.  But the blog author is so in love with his notions she will not see the evil he represents, and those like him.  You can't baby thieves and liars, cross my heart and hope to die.  Yes, this video means more and more as I wake.  I am NOT INSANE for not negotiating with evil!  I refuse that utterly and wholly, if sometimes in my doldrums I can't see it clearly or understand fully.  When wide awake I see the things crystal clear as a bell.

Well, a shower is required.  Then on to those goals.  I should shower, then set out my clothes for Mass, set an alarm to help me know when to start moving, and... to be honest even then I will have to depend on hope and rely on faith to get me there.  This strength of will, togetherness of mind and body, for me and often, is so ephemeral most of the time.  *puff*  That was it?  Yep.  But if I have things tended, and only the easy part remains, sometimes I can carry through on momentum.  It is tracking time, then being able to simply get up, that can be the sticking points once the heavier details and efforts are tended.  Well, that and moving fast enough.  It is amazing how slow I can  move.  Survival, I suppose, comes first to my 'chipset'.

On with the day.  A shower, setting out clothes, air drying while gaming a bit.  I love having the time to dry then fully air dry... a luxury to be sure.  There are some little luxuries I have for my dues, it isn't all bad.  Then just... hitting the times just right.  Oh, I really need to get to Mass, take care of business, see my friend.  It's been a rough summer.  More, if this happens again, tomorrow, the day after... I might get to some digging.  Thank you, thank you, thank you God.

Good day!