Alright, who said anything about square dancing?

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Two to four steps forward, one to six back, advancing through time if nothing else.  Over, around, through, and over.  You are getting there.  Now take your partner and swing her... hey, where did she go?  Dreams, thoughts, actions, can all hit you at once in your conscious mind.  It is quite a dance, life.  Just when you know the steps they change the tune, timing, timber, speed, or even put the whole thing under water.  No, not a bad thing.  There certainly is variety.  There is challenge.  While there is failure, even one so humble as I finds success from time to time.

The headache, after two doses of aspirin, has receded.  It seems to want to come back.  Since I am in no pain from that sense, it isn't my problem.  I decided to call my mother, but first I thought I had best see if someone did indeed call.  Yes, someone called.  I missed the KoC meeting tonight.  Blast it, I was probably needed to be there too.  Well, that is how it goes sometimes.  I then tried to call my mother.  I need some information for sending something to my brother and family.  Oh, nothing big or fancy, just something, you know, a fruit basket?  Maybe a few items to hint at prepping, like a couple of... no, perhaps on a birthday.  Fruit, or cheese, or a mixed Christmas basket of some kind, for this year.  It has to be good quality though, they are used to living near world class fruit sellers, at least at one time in their life.  I had thought about a fruit of the month subscription, but that is... a bit out of my price range, this year for sure.  I'm still thinking, I just need the package address, which is different from the mailing address.  Gah!

Another shot of the hot stuff.  Hmm, didn't phase me tonight.  I checked my bp, this morning before crashing.  Even on the higher doses my bp was way up.  I just can't figure this thing.  I took the bp again a bit a go, and it is still rather high.  Sleep must have helped, if not all that much.  I will be calling in tomorrow, to see if they want me to kick the medicines up a notch yet.  Three or four days should have brought it down.  Oh, and my weight is up, to 280.6.  I am not eating any more than ever.  I had, temporarily, stopped voiding nearly as much as usual, but I resumed 'race horse' style voiding a day or two ago, so I really thought weight would at least stay even.  Nope.  I didn't even bother with blood sugar testing.  One more negative and throwing in the towel seems the better notion.  Not really, it just gets depressing when you are doing all the 'right things'(tm) and things actually get worse.  Heh.  No real worries though, that's just the game I suppose.

I am fearing, beyond, that I am falling apart.  I am, to a degree, keeping up on things.  Laundry is lagging, the kitchen is slowly wearing around the edges if the primaries are being tended, and my ability to do things is weakening.  Further, my sleep cycle seems to be in a slow decay.  At least now I know that the majority of the problem isn't sleeping too much, for the most part, at this time.  My sleep cycle problem consists of a slow creep in the number of waking hours.  A few hours more here, four hours there, a bit of a backtrack this night, but generally I end up staying up an extra hour or two, on average, as I lose my grip.  Just a little dab will do you.  Just checked my phone again.  I received three other calls since I last checked.  My phone was not on mute so I should have heard those calls.  Gah!  Stupid phone sometimes.  No, it was with me the whole time.  And I have it on vibrate and ring, so that if I can't hear I can feel it.  Oh well.

I am feeling a lot like Charley Brown today.  It's not a horrible thing, just...  Then again that is part of the reason I hated the comic.  It was always on the verge of depression and only looking down, ever.  I consider the comic to be state propaganda, trying to get us used to never winning, never getting ahead, and just settling with that.  Bleh.  I don't need to be all cheery every day, I just don't want to think that is as good as it gets, because I know better, even in my condition.  On the bright side, missing the KoC meeting gave me a notion of the date, which lead me to check something, and yep, I have an appointment coming up Thursday.  A bit of a sacrificial, and I don't like doing that, but at least I won't lose them both.

The propane cooker is in, the seeds are supposed to be at the post office, and the magnets...  Last I saw they were somewhere in California still.  Though that data was old.  I am guessing if it isn't in SLC, then it is probably actually out on a truck, or will be this morning.  Ah, and I best get in tomorrow for that trouble light.  I hate that thing, and keep forgetting to have it checked.  I will probably call Midas and see if they deal with that, and whether they handle warranty work.  I am hoping so.  There are other options, if necessary, if nothing else to find the problem.  Yeah, I need to go to several stores as well.  If it ends up being later in the day, as I suspect, I might see if my friend wants me to drop by after shopping, bringing a movie along.  I think it will be 300, if I can find it and if he is interested.

Good night.