Ouch, but not so much.

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I did make it up.  I didn't go down until a bit past 2:30.  I still had the alarm set for 4:30 from when nearly getting to bed by 22:00, as a... minder, pre-wake-up alarm thing.  I thought about resetting it but figured it would do just as well in this situation.  I didn't want to sleep too deeply.  After it went off I changed it to 5:30.  At 5:30 I rest it for 6:30, then tried to crawl back into the blankets.  No, I did crawl back in.  I figured since I was going to hit the hard-core traffic, and the appointments were walk-in sign-up sheet, that I could... spare a bit more time in bed.  After just a bit of being back in bed though, I decided just to go.  I worried that I might fall into a cycle where I simply never got back out of bed.  It's an easy trap for me, sometimes though I can't do much about it.  This time I won.

The drive was good, minus traffic after I reached the interstate.  Bumper to bumper driving with people hustling and shoving for an extra inch is no fun.  Oh, I fall into that trap, myself, too... if I don't pay attention.  It rained the whole way, but nothing too serious.  No ice was present either.  Just... dreary rain.  The mountains are gorgeous in any weather though, much like some beautiful women, who (to my mind) are best suited to be dressed in finery or at least something.  A completely naked woman, to me... loses too much, unless she is mine.  Then she is never naked regardless of clothing.  She has my... respect to wear?  The mountains, on the other hand, are fine in the buff, rain or shine.

I spoke with the P.A., then the intern, then the doc.  The doc took me on a moderate walk, after I had asked the intern about exercise.  The doc wants me to get another angiography, take a bit more carvedal(coreg), but believes I am probably not to be seen in his clinic anymore, depending on the angiography and from the minor jog.  Really?  I won't hold my breath until I see the results from the angiography.  I don't believe I am doing any better now than... ever, really.  I mean, other than when I had edema, my function is no better or worse than before.  He seemed to think my heart illness was due to high blood pressure, but that doesn't explain the exhaustion or the leg discoloration when I was much younger, which I am told was caused by the heart problems (which obviously happened long before I had high blood pressure).  I am thinking, since I won't volunteer myself again (this time for a heart transplant) they have no use for me.  If that is the price, I think I will do better without their "care".  Blood pressure is still fairly low, as is pulse, comparatively.  Weight keeps up though.  I just don't get that, at all.  Oh, he said swimming would be fine, same with calesthenics, but straight weight use should be delayed until bp is better managed.  No problem, that was how my ideas were going anyway.  Yeah, a cynic to the bone, but how can I not be.  Some of them, at the various clinics, think I am funny as crap.  Others think the same, minus the funny.  I can see it in their eyes.  Heh.  I enjoy the... interactions... all the same.

Man, I want a nap so bad.  I did stop and buy most of what I need for the habanero sauce but I had no juice left to stop at the hardware store.  I'll have to do that tomorrow, or Friday, when I go in to see my friend.  I did buy a headset, the place was near where I stopped for lunch.  I had meant to buy a $15-$35 set, but...  I found one, wireless, self-contained wireless (not bluetooth which I don't like/trust).  It was nearly three times my high bid, but works for both the PS3 and my computer.  Yeah.  My current headset is cobbled together with duct tape and a unique rewrapping of the earphone wires so that... they sort of work.  Beautiful sounds out of them, oddly.  But... shot beyond any consideration for more use.  I'll give these a try, they are charging now.  Bleh...  I hate spending money, if I sometimes end up really liking the toys and foods I end up with.

Yeah, a nap.  Good day.