Just rough, still.

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 I don't know. I am sleeping but poorly. I don't sleep deeply, if I do seem to sleep all night. I go to bed plumb exhausted and wake up that way. And yet, I can feel my body condition and it reads as good, somehow. Actually, I feel like I am getting too much sleep if I am pretty sure I am not quite getting enough. I honestly think it is a combo of it still being cold and the sun being up more. My internal time and season clock is just a bit off, and itching for spring? I am usually fast asleep at this time of year, though, so I don't have anything... to compare it to! I will just have to get used to things you people have known your whole lives... Even Florida has seasons, of a sort. The last two days my efforts to force an earlier bedtime, or an early rise, have both met with dismal failure. I have to figure out how to wake early tomorrow and that is going to be a bear. I will bring in every alarm I have and... I don't know what else I can do.

I am seeing things in my sleep. Hard things I think. Nothing big, just... But they don't stay with me as I wake. Struggle for life stuff, I think. One never knows if those are just dreams dealing with life's current happenings, the past, or portents of the future. Especially will little memory. My body isn't too tense, so I don't think they are all that heavy, and they don't involve literal life or death. My bedroom smells normal, not like sulfur, gun powder, and fear-sweat. I just know something is going on but I can't recall.

Tomorrow is the swim lesson. I will have to figure this thing out. I am supposed to be there an hour and a half before I have been able to wake the last two days! That means I have to be up three hours before usual, and that would be tight as slowly as I usually move. I am so terrible, at times, with making a specific timed appointment, even when I am awake at the right times. I am really looking forward to the start of lessons though. I'll do, or not. At least I'm still awake and in late winter. That is amazing. But now to use the dang time!