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Today is the first step in taking back my life. I can't say how well this will work. There are limits to my experiment. I will be monitoring things closely. Late to bed and late to rise and thinking on the matter caused me some... concern. I had considered delaying the start until tomorrow for at least one strong reason and some lessor concerns. I still hadn't decided when I finally went to bed. I continued to be uncertain when I woke. I wasn't sure even when it happened. But it has started.
I am not sure what to expect. I wasn't sure if I had any on hand, so might have had to go through my medical staff. After finally looking this morning, I found the ritalin. I had been prescribed 15 mg a day. No, that isn't the dose they offer people supposedly with add, adhd, or whatever they are calling it today. Mainly because neither do I have that nor was that it's intended or functional purpose with me. It was merely to offer a boost so that I could take the other medications. At that time, the best blood pressure reading we saw was 149/101? Something. That was the best blood pressure reading we had seen in years at that time. It had otherwise been in the 180/110's. With my blood pressure is running in the 110/70's currently. I actually am hoping to maintain that and take this. I'm starting on 5mgs, and will probably only take that amount save an occasional afternoon dose of similar amount if I must do something and find myself struggling. At least until I can get this sanctioned, or until I run out.
I had no difficulty taking it, as per blood pressure, back when. My blood pressure didn't increase. It was a bit heavy though. I also had no mood distortions. I did become a cleaning bunny and workout master though, given where I started. The hope is, if I can maintain my blood pressure, which means strict logging of that, that I can convince my doctors to prescribe the medicine again here. They have been avoiding doing so, out of a proper fear. What is good for some is... not so good for others. Then again, with progress coming but not quite to the point it finally is, I didn't want to take the risk myself. I was hoping getting to the pool would fix things all by itself. That hasn't happened. Taking the lead on the risk, keeping their hands clean of it, may lead them to offering this. Of course, the stuff is rather difficult to keep in stock, as it has to be resubmitted as a prescription on a monthly basis. Ugh, but I hated that part. Still, if it works as it did last time, and I keep my blood pressure under control, it is worth the hassle.
The goal? Up to two years of this regimen, along with working out, to see if I can repair my body. If, after two years, give or take, there is no real improvement? Then I back off these and just understand that I am what I am. Then I learn how to live with that until I die. The experiment begins anew.
Hm hm, that was prescribed before they knew it was a heart issue.
ReplyDeleteRisk, yes. I won't be surprised if they refuse.
If I was hitting 110/70, I'd be backing off my meds because readings that low tend to disable me. I shoot for 120 to 130 over 80 to 85. For me, at least, that is a balance between risk and function.
Oh, I think they knew it was a heart issue, they simply... I don't know exactly. I am almost positive they knew but didn't want to dig into it, or tell me, or something. It's difficult when dealing with bureaucratic medicine. They aren't honest, but you never know if it was the bureaucracy or medicine that was trying to keep a secret.
ReplyDeleteFor all I know my data was being sold, and they wanted to try different... techniques. Couldn't do it if it was properly labeled perhaps.
As for their answer? They have already suggested that they would supply ritalin, if my bp stays in order. Though that may have just been one of those mother-like fibs thinking my bp would not fall in line.
I still don't understand why the medicines work this time but not the two times before? As for bp... when I write 110/70, I am fudging a bit. That is the low, really. I would say, honestly, it runs at about 120's/80's, middling on those. You know, when you are writing, and trying to push a point... you... fudge? I do, sometimes. So, really, I am actually hitting your numbers... but on full meds. I don't think there is room to pull back.