A little rest and one of my goals tends itself?

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Perhaps I had been pushing.  Further, I kept pushing on top of it.  I backed off heavily, but didn't actually back off.  Then I would begin, or plan to, shove more on top of things.  When I get tired, from legitimate sustained effort, perhaps taking a day or even three of rest could really help.  I went to bed pretty late but woke at 8:00-ish this morning.  That's been my goal for a while, but my waking was happening later.  Then again it has been chill (summer cool anyway) these last few days.  That might have been making waking just a bit more complicated too.  Still, I really did need rest.  Another day of it, maybe two.

Oh, that no longer means I just sit.  I will keep up on food, dishes, the girls, a shower every other day, medicines, sitting with Sam several times throughout the day, and tinkering on smaller projects.  Call it more a dialing back and down, not an off switch.  Funny, this lower key approach is more than I used to do when dialed up to maximum output and pushing with all I had.  Some of you have to remember that?  And on top of that, it was rare I could dial it up.  This is the new low.  I am trying to save it for weekends or after longer pushes.  Though even now I don't have anything close to complete control.

Life seems to be smoothing.  Health is improving.  In some ways nothing has changed but some edges have been knocked off.  I still have spooks, I still have memories of things to deal with, I still have reminders of problems.  They are all the same.  From several other angels though, everything has changed.  The severity of the winters I go through is lessening.  The extremes on both sides of the thing, actually, is diminishing.  It's been happening, by degrees, since my arrival.  The climate is part of it, the surroundings, not being in a more corrupted part of America itself is a part of it.  Here laws are pretty much what you would expect, mostly.  You won't be arrested for defending yourself or others, for example. 

You won't be arrested for putting the wrong thing in recycling either... unless you live in one of the more backward cities.  Although with the biggest, most progressive, city politically neutered even that likelihood has decreased significantly.  I don't see all of what they implemented rolling back, but then it usually takes a little time.  I have seen some of the socialist attitude that 'government is right when "we" run it" disappearing.  It's an attitude many state and government workers hold dearly, and try to shove in your face.  Feds still hold it, but... we will see how long that is maintained.  Things, if just attitudes, are changing.  Not in either party, really, outside of them.  Piece by piece, my guess is that the poison from that political infection will be erased.  They still have public unions, for now.  Bit by bit.  The notion that you can be arrested for things that make absolutely no sense, that you are always under the thumb of the law should they decide to look, will go away too.  That IS the progressive model, a lesser form of the terror of Stalin, or the beginning of it.  Cities are rife with it and will spread it if they aren't contained, and further castrated from the power of it.  *snip*

Oh, best feed the girls.  They have been patient.  Hmm... No.  I'll wait another hour.  When I wake late I feed them quickly, since it is my bad.  But if I wake early I wait a bit.  Otherwise they push and try to wake me earlier and earlier in order to be fed.  You CAN train cats, you just have to be willing to put up with their guff.  But if you play fair they do get it, if they don't always like it.  :)  Another hour.  But they haven't been being fed until noon or later, so 10:00 is already early. 

Later.