Yeah, automated can be good.

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I was thinking I was going to have to figure out how to begin paying on one of my debts.  As it turns out I have been paying on it.  So I don't need to push and shove my, currently, mild finances.  As well, some of it was paid that I had thought would still be payable.  Oh, money is on the way, potentially from two sources.  But until it is in my hand, well, it isn't.  I checked what I owe, best I could tell, and compared that to what I have and what is coming, just as a guide.  Only counting what has been told is in my hands.  Looks good.  As it ends up, given that I was being very conservative, it looks like I am financially, now, ahead of where I thought I would be right as BMan started.  So... I am a bit ahead, a lot ahead.  If that means I am slightly behind.  Never mind, just trust that this is a good thing.  The thing is to work it so that I don't just squander, and perhaps have plenty of breathing room all around.  While a camera is a silly thing, to many, to me it would be... something special, something I have wanted for some significant time.  I'll bide my time, looking for sales or scoops, but I hope to have it, and lenses, for next year.  It might be my key to getting out into the hills, mountains, on rivers, and such as well.  It adds another reason.

Bit by bit my life is coming together.  Bits here in the cave.  Parts of a more active and social life.  A garden is going, food is set up, I have an excellent canner and everything but enough jars and lids, if I still have a serious wheat grinder on the menu.  Nothing is perfect.  There is lots of room for improvements.  I could use a side or a quarter of beef, then a hog later this fall.  But I do have a sizable freezer for meats too, and the ability to can some of it if I can just get to it.  And I have enough things on automatic to... not sweat every little bump.  I might still be stuck in the cave, but... even that in changing more than not.  Nothing changes fast, not with my condition.  Hmm, actually, if things work, I might be able to begin charitable, but right, giving.  Two on the mind, my main, of course, the other is local... I just need to check into it a bit.  Well, the remainder might be split between two, actually.

As I become healthier I am hoping to take a little more direct control, cutting what needs to be cut, pushing things around, figuring out expenses and excess, and doing a little more planning.  I am, honestly, amazed.  When I make a mistake now, it is almost $1,700 in my favor.  How long had I been overpaying and how much?  Never mind, I'll take it for the moment.  I do have to be careful though.  People will take everything you have just because they think they need or want it more.  Business to "charity" to just the guy on the street, they are cutthroat.  More so now than even in the recent past.  Still, you have to try to make your way.  You have to look for opportunity.  You just have to keep your head about you.

Good night.